When I am full of joy, the door is suddenly pushed open, and my mother runs in anxiously.
When she sees me, she takes my hands anxiously.
“What’s wrong with this?” Mom looks at me distressingly, “When I received the call, I am scared to death. Why is it so miserable that you are hurt all over?”
Dad remains silent, but I see the distress for me from his eyes.
This is enough.
I hug my mother and start crying, “Mom, I said Neil has been hitting me. I don’t dare to tell you before. I’m afraid you are worried about me, but this time I am almost killed and I can only call the police! He looks like a hypocrite! ”
“How could this happen.” My mother hugs me carefully and mutters to herself as if this matter is not true at all.
This is hard to believe. I push my mother away and looks at her with tear and says, “Am I framing Neil? Is the injury on my body fake? Look at me, I am beaten like this. It is Neil who cheats you. There are videotapes at home. You can watch it at that time, and this is not the first time he has played this way, ”
“We all hurt you!”
In the room is the cry of my mother and I hold her together. She is blaming herself, she is regretting it.
“Mom, let me divorce Neil. It’s not a life like this.” I say.
My mother wipes her tears and looks at me in embarrassment, “I also think you are good, but can’t you give Neil another chance? Couples are always quarreling.”
“Mom…” I am so annoyed to interrupt him, “Did dad hit you like that? Does he beat you to the hospital? Does he ignore your life and death? He treats me like a cat or a dog. Why should I endure?”
“I know, I know that I am bad for you, but our family has just stabilized. What do you want me to do?”
My mother’s hair is white, and she looks older than her peers, wrinkled eyes, but I can’t promise her.
Sometimes love also has choices, this time I am abandoned.
It hurts so much because I have always been a victim.
“Anyway, I would rather die than live with Neil again.”
“Okay, let’s talk about this matter later, take care of your injuries first.” Finally, the mother can only say so.
That’s it? We’ll talk about it later, there is no future.
It has constituted a crime. He will be punished if I prosecute him.
James’ family soon gets the news.
This mother-in-law Wendy comes to the hospital with someone.
I lie leisurely in bed and look at her.
Wendy gasps for breath, “Look, our good daughter-in-law cheats on my son and also sues her husband! You are so vicious! ”
The room is full of people, all of whom come from her family.
“I don’t take him away. You go and ask the police station.” I glance at them lightly, and eating snacks and playing with mobile phones.
“Sister-in-law, you can’t say that.” Michelle supports Wendy and looks at me with a smile, “For so many years, our family has helped you a lot. You can’t treat us like this.”
One sentence ignites all the contradictions.
“That is it. How much money did your dad take from us for a small business? You now send your husband into jail.” Someone helps.
I put down the snack in my hand, “What does this have to do with me? The money is not given to me, I don’t see it. Why do I ask for everything? Don’t you see how your son beat me?”
“What’s the matter with he hitting you? Shouldn’t he hit you? You go out to find another man. I will kill you if I am Neil!”
I smile, “So if he hits me, he will go to the police station and into the detention center.”
“I have to talk to your mother.” The mother-in-law moves a chair to set aside, without intending to leave.
I ignore them, and I continue to play my phone.
Mother is called Wendy.
In front of her family, we never have any dignity
“I know this matter, but you see our family is beaten by Neil.” My mother hugs me and wipes her tears in distress.
It may be an illusion. I always feel that my mother doesn’t really want to really love me and she wants to use me.
Wendy chuckles, “So what do you say?”
“I will divorce,” I say first.
“Divorce, don’t even think about it,” Wendy say.
I say disdainfully, “Do you think you don’t want to do it if you don’t want it? I have sued. He has violently abused me. There is sufficient evidence. Just wait and see what I want to.”
“Look, what a good daughter you have educated. It’s so good! Okay, how much did our family give you? Just pay me back if you want to divorce Neil.”
Wendy looks down on us and looks down on me all the time, looking at me with a sneer.
But our family does not have so much money.
“She is still a child. I will talk to her.” The kneeling mother is so sad at all.
I don’t want to see this and look away.
“I must divorce him. I am waiting for the court’s decision.” I say.
Wendy is furious, “Yes, you wait. I will let your family know what regret is, just wait!”
“Don’t!” Mom hurriedly pulls Wendy and says, “Our child is not sensible. Don’t worry, I always think Neil is good. Although he made a mistake this time, will he change it?
After that, I ignore their conversation.
“Otherwise, your family will divorce Neil when the money can be paid back. Or else, you have to be with us! ”
This is Wendy’s last request, and she has decided to compromise.
“Fine,” Mom promises.
When everyone is gone, I shouted at my mother.
“What are you doing? Do you know you are selling your daughter? I can obviously sue the divorce, why do you promise her!”
Why do I have to grieve myself for so long?
“Mum knows that you are suffering, but there is really not so much money in the family. In fact, when you get married, we promised that we would not let the divorce happen no matter what happens in the future, so my mother is sorry for you.”
Mom finishes kneeling in front of me and begs to look at me.
“Mom! What are you doing!” I kneel down and hug my mother,
“Mom begs you, please bear this with me.”
I start crying, crying out of breath, “Mom, why do you always force me. At that time, I don’t want to marry Neil, you persuaded me to say that he is a good person, but what now? You don’t know how I live these days, it is better to die than live, I am really enough.”
“Mom begs you! There is bitterness at home.”
What can I say?
“This is the last time.”
I don’t expect to have a relationship with Neil again.
“Actually, you just ask James to pay you money, don’t you?” Mom says suddenly.
This is the least acceptable to me.
“Mom, I still have a face. This is my last bottom line.”
I stand up with a sullen face.
I don’t want to be so dignified, otherwise, our love will never be equal.
That’s not what I want. What I want is not to be attached to him all the time, but to be interdependent while depending on each other.
If just asking for love, what’s the difference between me and his mistress?
His family pays the deposit and Neil goes home.
I have been in the hospital, James keeps calling me and wants to see me, but he is rejected by me.
I look so shameless, and the injury is not good.
But the miss of James is tormenting me every day. I think I would be free by the time I see James again.
Maybe the family is the hurdle I will always take.
When will the money owed to Neil’s family be paid back?
I start to lose sleep again. I couldn’t sleep, anxious, and upset every day.
I think I really want to suffocate.
Now the baby in my stomach is my only motivation. I have to work hard for it.
“Why do you refuse to see me, Carolina? Do you think I am a pastime in your boring marriage?”
This is a message from James.
I watch these words and burst into tears. How to respond? I say that I am beaten by Neil and is in hospital. I have wanted to take the opportunity to divorce him, but the plan fails.
James misunderstands me, I am so anxious that I want to cry.