I push James’s hand away and say, “You go first, and I don’t want to push you away. I have something to deal with, OK?”
I try to keep my voice low and shake his hand.
“Darling, do you want to go home with me? You can rest assured that I will treat you well! You can live with peace of mind!” Neil wipes his tears, and excitedly pulls over to hold my hand.
James’s eyes stare at Neil.
I want to shake it off , it’s disgusting.
“You don’t have to worry, I don’t want to push you away. Really.” I explain.
But James may really care, I know. It is I who tricks him again and again, but this time it really won’t.
I look at him pleadingly.
There is a faint glow in his eyes, and he says for a long time, “Okay, but Carolina, don’t let me wait too long, and don’t lie to me.”
“There are actually many things, as long as you want, I can help you solve a lot.” James wants to raise his hand to silently touch my head, but still control it.
In fact, James, you understand me. I want to take care of many things. You are protecting my face and self-esteem. Thank you. I don’t want my love to be so humble forever.
“Okay, I know.” I look at him deeply and watch him get in the car.
I will never forget the lost look of James. You can rest assured, James, this time I am really ready.
“Stay with your husband, don’t cheat him again.”
“That is right. You are married.”
Many people are educating me. Neil bows his head and says thank you.
I don’t want to stay longer, and I leave.
Neil catches up and grabs my waist, “My car parks over there.”
There are still people watching now, of course he still has to play, I say with a sneer in the corner of my mouth, “It’s hard to act, really embarrassing you.”
Neil chokes twice, but his voice changes, “No, it will make you feel bad. It’s not hard.”
I am so angry that I just grit my teeth.
Oh shit!
Back home, Neil immediately reveals his true nature.
He drops the bag on the ground and looks at me with fiery eyes, “Damn you, you say you are a slut? In front of your husband, you still hook up with a man, and you want to go with another man, it’s shameless!”
In order to irritate him, I deliberately smile brilliantly and say, “Yes, I am so shameless, how? I like to hook up with men, I like James! What can you do?”
“Oh, don’t you know, as a man, you don’t have any skills at all. Your previous wife cheated you because you are infertile, didn’t they? Oh, useless man.” Some words can immediately anger Neil. That’s what he cares most about.
“Damn it! You! You! Do you like others to fuck you? Are you so cheap?”Neil is so angry that he raises his hand in a sensible way to slap me.
I am immediately hit and fall to the ground.
This is good, you shot it. The camera will record all this, domestic violence is enough to divorce us.
“I like James, I just like being fucked by him, it’s really cool. If you have the ability to kill me, kill me! If you can’t, I will go to James, we are cheating you!”
I suppose to anger him.
As expected, Neil is fooled and immediately lost his mind.
“Yes, I will kill you, I will kill you! See how you will go out in the future! Kill you! Kill you!”
Neil nervously mumbles and begins to punch and kick me.
After being beaten so many times, I have all experienced how to protect myself well in protective postures, even if my body is scarred, I will not really be able to get up in bed.
I protect my head and belly ribs.
But it still hurts. I cry in pain, crying out loud, silently chanting James’s name in my heart.
I want to be with you, really want to wait for me. We can really be together in the future. When we could be together, no one is scolding me and no one can say any bad things about you.
This is my belief.
Everywhere it hurts, the pain is magnifying, as if something is tearing my body, I bow and curl up on the ground.
Clenching his teeth, large drops of cold sweat comes out.
“Screw you!”
I can’t help it, scream out loud.
Neil stops his hands until he is tired and looks at me.
“Don’t you dare to go out to find James in the future? Shameless!” Neil kicks me.
I have no energy, and the whole body hurt like a crush.
“Don’t say a word?” James kicks me hard, “Pretend to die!”
I lift my very sweaty head from the ground and look at him fiercely and say, “I love James, we will be together in the future, you just wait.”
I sneer and laugh at the sad man.
When Neil hits me again, he might be tired, lights a cigarette, and smokes and looks at me again and again.
“If I dare to contact him again, I would really kill you.”
There is a murderous intention in his eyes, and I feel it.
I call the police while Neil is going to the toilet.
“Hey, I’m going to be killed.” I say calmly.
Neil comes out of the toilet and I laugh.
“Neil, I will see how you act in a moment!” I look at him in revenge.
Neil is puzzled, but soon he knows the answer.
The police knock on the door of the house.
I pretend to be lying on the ground dying.
“Fuck!” There is a policewoman among the police officers who come and look at me with red eyes.
“Help me, please help me!” I pull her by her clothes, crying and praying.
Neil freezes there, he doesn’t expect me to call the police.
“Misunderstanding. No…” Neil is speechless.
“By the way, I have a camera and a video at home, I beg you to help me!” I look at them helplessly, “I don’t want to live like this anymore, it is better to die!”
There is blood in the corner of my mouth, and there is no good place on my body. I am crying, begging, looking at Neil’s eyes with hostility and fear.
He is not alone that can act in this world.
“You can rest assured that we will help you with this matter, shit! Really fucking beast!” I sees the police wipe tears.
Even though my body hurts a lot, I still can’t help but secretly smile, Neil, I must get rid of you this time.
This is Neil’s most brutal blow to me, and this is recorded without reservation.
I don’t believe that this cannot be the evidence.
Neil calms down from the initial panic and changes to confession, “I’m sorry, I am in a hurry. I shouldn’t have beaten my wife. Will you let me go this time?”
The policewoman gives his a look, “We wait for the ambulance to come and go to the hospital to make an injury assessment. If it’s serious, you will go to jail. Do you know? Do you know if you have already committed a crime? ”
“It’s too late for your wife to hurt, how can you beat her so hard? You really are a beast!”
Listening to others’ accusations against him, I am really happy from the bottom of my heart. This is the first time that Neil fails to hide himself perfectly, and for the first time it is completely exposed to everyone’s eyes.
I look at Neil provocatively. You don’t expect me to have such a hand.
“I…!” Neil bursts into tears on his thigh, “You don’t ask me why I beat her? She cheats me. How can a man stand this?”
I really underestimate Neil, even he is going to die, he has to drag me together.
If murder does not violate the law, I would have stabbed him as soon as I can.
“But you can’t beat her.”
The policewoman always helps me and waits for the arrival of the ambulance.
On the way to the hospital, I notify my family.
Didn’t they always say that Neil is a good person? I will show them what a good person is.
Various inspections have been done and injuries have been identified.
Minor injuries have already constituted a crime.
And a shocking news.
The doctor says to me in surprise, “It’s a blessing. You don’t know you are pregnant? But you are also lucky to be beaten like this, and the child is still there.”
Child? I don’t feel anything at all, there is a child in my stomach!
It is James’ and my child!
I am so ecstatic that I want to tell James the news, but I still could not bear to think about my current situation.
I pull the doctor who just wants to leave and says, “Doctor, please don’t tell my family about this news, because you know my situation, please.”
The doctor sighs and says, “Yes. You can rest assured.”
I touch my belly and sees hope again. This time I will definitely divorce Neil.
The sky seems to be always clear. I look at the cloudless sky for the first time and feel so bright in my heart.
James, we have children, will you be happy if you know?