The point is not on others but on my family. I can’t get rid of my family.
“No, it really isn’t! Wait for some time to find you again, OK?” I utter this sentence with tears.
Very calm and very ruthless words. What expression will James is when he sees this?
Sorry, I am really too selfish.
I always give hope, but it is destroyed by my own hands.
“I don’t know what happened to you, but what I want to say is that if you are so polite, it makes me sad,” James replies.
I don’t want him to see himself like this, like a loser.
“James, it will be fine in a few days, I’m really busy recently.” Please don’t ask me.
“Do you regret it? Regret promising to be with me?”
James doesn’t feel safe because I never give him a sense of security.
My heart seems to be cramping, I don’t know how to answer, I can only cover-up, “No, I ‘m just inconvenient now, really inconvenient to see you.”
“Yes, you are inconvenient, you still have a family, I have forgotten it. I am nothing to you!”
These words hurt me all at once.
James misunderstands me, and I am too anxious to explain it.
How can I see him like this?
“No, no! James, I love you, I really love you, but I am very helpless. Sorry, can you give me some time? I want to arrange everything so that I can stand squarely in front of you.”
I really want to call him, but I am afraid that my emotions would be out of control, and I couldn’t stand it if I hear his voice.
“Carolina, you have said that many times, I am tired, really tired. So I don’t want to repeat the same mistakes all the time, then I can only solve it by myself.”
I don’t know what James means.
“James, what do you want to do? Don’t be impulsive!”
But James no longer responds to my messages, and he doesn’t answer me when I call him.
What should I do? What does James mean?
I am very uneasy in my heart.
Out of the detention center, Neil’s first thing is to kneel down in front of me.
He walks in front of me pretentiously and knelt in front of me with a clatter.
“I’m wrong. It is my fault!”
He flaps his mouth while talking.
I have no feelings now.
“That’s right, everyone would make a mistake. You can forgive him this time.” Mother persuades.
I sneer at him and say, “Neil, you say how many times you hit me? Can you count it? Our family has already negotiated with your family, as long as we can pay the money owed to you before, I can divorce you, just wait.”
Neil is crying with tears in his nose, “No I will not divorce you even if I die! Besides, you are pregnant now. It’s our child! You will have a good time with me in the future.
How did he know? I subconsciously protect my stomach.
“No one knows who it is yet?” The mother-in-law grumbles.
Neil immediately says with delight, “It must be mine. Mine!”
This kid will help him fight for his family property, he will definitely say so.
My mother is also happy, “There has been no good news for so many years.”
“This kid…” I just want to say, Neil immediately thinks of me, “This kid will definitely look like me in the future! He is my kid.”
He looks at me with a warning.
It’s really sad, I look at the useless man with sarcasm, okay, you say it is yours. Then it’s yours.
“Oh, you have a baby.” Mommy couldn’t help but talk, “Slow down, slow down, now you are the most important one.”
“Do you think this child really is Neil’s? He just wants a child to compete with him for family property, otherwise, he wouldn’t beg me to find a man.” The smile on my mother’s face freezes immediately.
No one believes me. I say it once before, but she doesn’t believe it. This time I don’t know what she thinks.
“What?” Mom looks at me incredulously.
I smile miserably, “Mom, for so many years, I haven’t had children. I just have a child at this time. You say where does the child come from? Neil couldn’t erect at all. I am a virgin all the time.”
I make it very clear, depending on whether my mother believes it or not.
A mother falls to the ground, “How could this be, how could this be. He actually begs you to find a man, and it is too unbelievable to have a child fighting for the property. It is so perverted.”
There are many abnormal things.
“So mother, don’t persuade me, I won’t listen to anyone. I want to leave him completely.” I squat down and look at her. I want her to see how firm I am.
“Okay, okay.” Mom holds my hand hard and says, “We work hard to make money, and we get divorced when we make money.”
But many things are not as I wish, many things develop beyond my expectations.
It catches me off guard.
I always think that destiny is really a joke, and it can make you hurt.
Dad is taken away on the grounds of embezzlement of public funds. Again?!
I hurry to the detention center.
“Dad, what’s the matter with you, how can you still make such a mistake?” I resent him, but this person is my dad. I will save him no matter what.
Dad sighs and doesn’t even dare to look at me, “I just want to use it for a while and then make up for it. It ‘s okay, I don’t expect all the money to be put in. They say this stock is always earning! Don’t you think Dad doesn’t feel sad by seeing you live such a life? I also want to quickly repay Neil’s family’s money, so that you can escape from the suffering.”
I couldn’t cry, and I know that my father really cares about me, but why does he do something illegal?
“Dad, don’t worry, I will save you, you can rest assured. Just make up the money within the prescribed time, you wait for me.”
One million dollars.
We couldn’t make it up even we sell the house. I am in a hurry at home.
“The house is sold, where do you want us to live?” Elaine drops the schoolbag on the ground, “Can’t you stop, sister? It’s all because of you! If you don’t hurry to divorce, the father will not take risks! It is because of your selfishness that this family is like this, I hate you!
The house is a mess. I watch my sister’s schoolbag fall to the ground and walk over to pick it up.
“Sorry.” I hand her the schoolbag.
Elaine looks at me resentfully and grabs the schoolbag, “Sister, if something goes wrong with my father, I will hate you.”
I can never forget her eyes, she looks at me like an enemy, making me feel cold all over.
The younger sister grabs the schoolbag and runs out, closing the door with a bang.
I freeze in place and collapse.
Why? Why can’t I be myself, and do what you like?
I cry helplessly holding myself.
Suddenly my mother seems to think of a way, “You go and ask Neil, anyway, the family has already owed him so much money?”
“Yes, beg them, I’ll beg.”
I shout desperately, “Mom! Do you know what this means? I think I might not be able to raise my head in my life! I will live in a nightmare all my life, and Neil’s family will look down on you and look down on our family.”
“I know! How can I not know!” Mom shouts hysterically, “Don’t I have no self-esteem? I don’t want to do that, but what about your father? I can’t let your father go to prison, your father will suffer.”
“Yes, go. I’ll go.” My eyes stare blankly in front, and I know I have no hope.
I always let James wait for me when I can stand upright in front of him, but it seems that there is no such opportunity.
I can go and ask Neil, but I don’t want James to see me unbearable because I can’t bear it most.
I open the door, and there is no one in the room.
I sit quietly on the sofa waiting for him to return.
After knowing him for a long time, Neil has drunk and hit the door.
The moment he sees me is laughter, taunt, satire.
“You know why I come here,” I say.
“I know, of course I know, your family needs me, needs my money.”
I am speechless.
“Do you want me to pay for your dad?” Neil comes over with a smile and hugs me.
His alcoholic smell makes me want to vomit.
I push him hard, “Let go of me!”
When I touch him, I think it is a bug, which makes me uncomfortable.
“However, I tell you that I have no money, no money at all, and I can’t afford any more money at home. Don’t say one million, I won’t be able to pay out ten thousand, because all the money is caught in the field. Do you know why? “Neil looks at me with hate.
“Because of you bitch!” Neil growls and grabs my hair, his eyes are red and grumpy.
“How could it be me?” I say.
I’m not afraid of him like this, I just don’t understand what he says.
Neil laughs and says, “Because your good lover James, he is now putting pressure on me everywhere, I lose all the money. But you don’t even think of divorcing me. I will not agree!”
“And as for your dad. Do you think it’s that simple?”
James? This is what James says before? My father’s business? What happened?