I hug him and feel his emotions so excited, he is trembling, and the sound of gasping buried in my arms is suppressed.
We can still live to see each other, which is too rare, I am leaning on his shoulder with tears silently, is James crying? His sobbing voice rustles into my ears, dragging my heart.
“James, I am yours, and you are mine, forever.” I am sure once again that I love this man so much that I can die for him.
It takes a long time for James to calm down in my arms, and then look away from me. His ears are red, and his face is stiff. I think he is shy, ouch, it’s lovely to die.
What makes me headache is that James completely sticks to me afterwards, and he will follow me whatever I do.
“I go to the toilet.” I say to James just behind me.
James shrugs his shoulders and says indifferently, “Go, I’m guarding you outside.”
I blush and don’t speak, which is too shameful.
“Okay.” James smiles and covers his ears, “Go.”
He would only eat the food when I feed the food to his mouth, and he looks at me with a smile.
I sit there willingly waiting for him, and my heart is full of sweetness.
“You are mine, do you know.” James confirmed to me again and again, I know what he means, he does not want me to step back.
I look into his eyes and respond to him again and again, “I know, you are also mine.”
He is afraid that I would leave him again, and I couldn’t think that James is such an insecure person.
When the meal comes to his mouth, James bites the spoon and looks at me wickedly.
He is now very excited, looking at me with pride, wanting to see what I would do.
I smile, let go of the spoon, and turn away.
“Hey, Carolina, won’t you be angry, that’s too stingy.” James is anxious, immediately takes down the spoon, and says that she would get out of bed.
I immediately turn around and walk in front of him a few steps, kiss the corner of his mouth, and says with a smile, “Really good.”
At a moment, I see James is blushed.
“How I would treat you well today.” James says, holding my hands and pressing hard.
He presses me against his bed and looks at me dully.
Actually, I’m not afraid of what he does. What can he do when he is seriously injured?
So I am not afraid, and look at him provocatively, “James, you’d better keep calm.”
James’s face immediately becomes stinking, “You are questioning my ability. I can do it now. Do you believe it or not?”
So never question a man’s sex ability. That is their pride and dignity
“You are strong. You are the best, let me go.” I arch my hands, begging for mercy.
“That won’t work either. Women like you will need to be fucked well, and you are too brave.” James narrows her eyes.
Suddenly I feel a danger is about to come, and I am scared and immediately shrink.
“James, this is in the hospital, and you are hurt now.” I start to give him a science, “the doctor says you can’t do vigorous exercise now. What if your wound worsen? If you…”
“You’re so verbose.” James glances at me bitterly, “I am not that weak. But I lost the interest now.”
I am completely relieved.
James rubs against me and coquettishly says, “You have to comfort me.”
“How to comfort?” I ask.
“Kiss me.” James says, “Like this.”
James touches my face to kiss my eyelids, and my soft lips make my heart rumble, then the tip of my nose, cheeks, and lips.
Everywhere he carries a pious expression, as if worshiping.
He always touches me, and let my long-dead heart come alive again, like a volcanic eruption, and the hot magma rushes out like death and rebirth.
The door suddenly pushes open. James and I both are startled.
Isabel stands at the door, and I immediately stand up from the bed, sorting out my messy hair and clothes.
James slowly pulls his clothes well and looks at Isabel calmly.
Isabel takes a deep breath, trying to suppress her anger, “Miss Carolina, you go out first, and what you promised me before, you know.”
I am trembling and planning to get up and leave, James takes my hand.
“Mom, if you have anything, just say it now. By the way. I forget to tell you, and I have propose to her.” James smiles at me and blinks as if to say to me, don’t be afraid.
I don’t dare to relax at all. I don’t whether to leave.
Isabel smiles at me and says, “You have someone you like, I of course bless you, but as far as I know, Miss Carolina has married. James, you’re fooling. Do you know you are destroying other people’s families?”
I lower my head. The gap between me and him is an obstacle for us to step forward forever.
James ‘ thumb rubs lightly on the back of my hand. He says, “I don’t care, and as long as she divorces. Our family don’t allow me to do many things, including not to meet you.”
Isabel’s face suddenly turns pale. I suddenly remember that he has been an illegitimate child. Then Isabel should be the one who interrupts other’s family.
Isabel is embarrassed, especially she is pointed out by her son in person.
“I’ll go out first.” I let go of James’s hand away and walk out.
Some words should not be said in front of me as an outsider.
I don’t know what James and Isabel say. When Isabel comes out, there are tears on her face. She glares at me, and is extremely furious.
Soon afterwards, Isabel has an appointment with me, which means she really wants to talk to me.
We are sitting in a cafe near the hospital.
Isabel still maintains her graceful and luxurious posture, and looks disdainful in my eyes.
“Presumably you also know my identity. I have always been an embarrassing existence in the family. Even if my son is admitted, I still can’t be admitted by his family, so I especially hope that he will be successful, inheriting everything in the European style, and I will square myself up and gain a firm foothold in the family.”
There is unwillingness and pain in her face, and when she faces me, she goes straight to the subject.
“I don’t think you are suitable for James at all. James must marry a good helper who can help him in his career. You may just play now. I am not against it, as long as you are not his last one.”
No one around knows us, we are in a foreign country, and no one can even understand what we say, so she says it very directly. It is so cruel, and it is inserted into my heart at once, not allow me to have a chance to refute.
Isabel looks at me disdainfully, “Do you think you, a married woman, are worthy of James? You cheated your husband, and you have betrayed your previous family, and on this point you should be spurned by thousands of people.”
I squeeze my hand vigorously, although I am already mentally prepared, I don’t expect Isabel to be merciless.
“As long as James wants me, I will not leave him.” I say decisively.
He has done so many things for me. How could I leave him? Not to mention, I love him.
“Really?” Isabel disagrees, “You can try. James hasn’t had any real power in the family. He has always been like a playboy. Do you think he is like this? He is waiting to have an opportunity reveals his true face. So this time I will not allow him to make any mistakes, no one can disrupt our plan, ”
I don’t speak, and rationally say, I’m not the only person to accompany James. He shouldn’t fall in love with me either. A good future is waiting for him. I will only drag him back.
Bu we fall in love with each other, without any warning or reason.
“I’m sorry, Auntie, I know you will not believe what I say, but you believe me, I most hope James would be good than anyone else. But I hope I will accompany him during this process.” I do not flinch in the slightest.
“Miss Carolina!” Isabel’s mood suddenly changes, and she looks at me excitedly, “Don’t you know what you are doing? I’m persuading you now, you really wait until the his family to talk you, by then you’re done. Think about your family, your colleagues, and many people know your business. This is still the beginning! ”
I look at her in surprise, recalling the last time James is photographed.
“It’s you?”
“It’s not me, it’s Mrs. Jessie, the real wife of his father. She is warning James, and to destroy his image more thorough.” Isabel’s face is worried, “James can’t take the wrong step.”
Only then do I realize that the previous incident is originally signaled by Mrs Jessie, and that, bases on the influence of the family, the media dares not to report the news without obtaining the family’s approval.
“You understand now, what will you bring to James. I beg you. It’s that you are with him, you have no future. What James bears, you cannot understand! ”
However, I have promised that James I will never leave him again, I have vowed. I don’t know what is right, what is helpful to James, whether to stay with him or leave him.
I am lost in confusion again. Maybe I am such a swinging person, the point is that I cannot let James lose everything because of me.
Isabel puts my ticket and passport on the table, and I understand what she means.
“I won’t leave.” I won’t leave James this way anyway.
When I push open the door and go out, Isabel stops me again.
“Miss Carolina, you must think clearly, whether it is the family or me, we will not agree you. Your path is more difficult than you think. Don’t blame me.”
I can’t forget that she looks at me. I am deeply worried about James, and think we are funny, maybe we are still imagining the age of love. Maybe she seems to have nothing in love, not as much as it is.
What should I do?
I watch the ticket in my hand and my heart sinks.
But when I stand still, I realize that there are two big men in front of me.
“I say don’t blame me.” Isabel comes over.