They say that I am James’s fiancee, but I don’t know if I am qualified to sign this thing.
I take the pen and sign it religiously. James, I am your family.
So you must live for me, I am waiting for you, if you are going to die, I will go to accompany you.
The doctor has been urging me to rush for blood transfusions. The blood that is previously lost must be replenished as soon as possible, otherwise, it will cause an accident.
But I don’t leave, and the doctor couldn’t force me in the end. I sit on the seat of the rescue room and get some drip.
I stubbornly accompany him and want to see what our ending would look like. Will God give us the answer?
In the end, my tears run dry, and I stare at the door in a daze.
The light goes out and the doctor comes out.
I immediately walk over, so weak that I almost fell.
“His condition is stable now. I suggest you transfer to the hospital and leave here. He is in a dangerous situation now and may die at any time.”
My body shakes and says, “Okay.”
“Miss Carolina, I will arrange for James to go to America. Will you go together?” Kim follows James all the time. He says regretfully, “I shouldn’t let James come to such a dangerous place! ”
“Sorry, it is me who should blame.” I stoop and bow.
Kim purses his lips and stops me, “Miss Carolina, I don’t blame you, let’s go to America and take good care of James.”
“Okay,” I say.
I will do anything if he needs me. European-style Group arranges the private plane to pick up James and sends him to America.
James is lying there haggardly, with a tube all over him, with an oxygen mask, very unlike him. He is always so lively, full of life, and now he is in danger.
He becomes like this because of me, it’s all because of me!
“James will be fine,” Kim says.
I nod.
As soon as we arrive, James is pushed into the hospital.
I stand there in a trance, feeling the sky spinning.
We are also greeted by his family.
James’s mother, Isabel.
Her eyes are filled with tears, and she raises her hand and gives me a slap.
“What do you think you are, let James pay so much for you! You better pray that he is okay, otherwise I will let your family go to hell!”
“I’m sorry.” I kneel in front of her with a clatter, I am a sinner, it is because I who makes James in danger, it is me!
“What’s the use of you kneeling here? Don’t disgust me! Get up!” Isabel looks at me fiercely. The graceful lady doesn’t show the elegance as usual. She trembles her lips, “How can James fall in love with you?”
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” I apologize again and again. What else can I say besides the apology?
Isabel wipes her tears and pulls me up, but the tears still couldn’t control it, “You say that James will be fine, right? He loves you so much, he won’t be willing to leave you, do you think so?”
She wants to get comfort from me.
I say, “Yes, he won’t leave.”
What does our future look like? I’m dreaming, James, you must be fine.
In the future, I will atone for you and stay with you all the time. As long as you need me, I will not leave.
I used my life to gamble, but I didn’t expect to bet on another person’s life.
I’m really harmful.
James is sent to the ICU, we can only see him through the glass and see him lying there quietly.
It must be that I have done too many wrong things that it revenges on the person I love the most.
I wait quietly, from dusk to dawn, day and night. It seems that it is not so difficult, that is, I have completely lost my autonomy, I don’t know what I want to do, my eyes cannot leave James, not a second.
Suddenly, the surroundings become very noisy, the medical staff hurry over, and the people around push me, “Go away, don’t block the road!”
I stare at them in a trance, not knowing what they are going to do.
Why is James not having a life at all, what are they doing to James?
I look at him in front of the window anxiously.
“James, what happens to James?” I don’t know, I really don’t know what all this means.
“Isabel! It’s mom, look at mom! Mom is here, you must be fine. What do you want mom to do!” Isabel cries hysterically beside me and passes out several times.
But I don’t understand why she is so sad, James is here, he will always be here, beside me, I will always be guarding him.
He will be fine.
“Can you stop crying?” I look at the woman who keeps crying with hate, “James is not dead yet. Auntie, he will be sad when you cry like this.”
Isabel bites her lips and tears flow down, but there is no more sound.
You see, we don’t want you to be in trouble, James, you have to wake up a little bit.
I think that as long as I don’t admit he isn’t fine, as long as I won’t cry, he will be fine.
The strength on my body seems to be drained, and I stand motionless at the door, finally waiting for the medical staff to come out.
“He has gone through the dangerous stage, but we don’t know what will happen later.” Stephen smiles tiredly, “Congratulations that we have all passed it.”
He is so haggard, there is no blood on his face, just like a dummy, the sun shining on him, warmly shining on him.
I wait for you to wake up, James.
Maybe James hears it, or maybe my prayer moves God, James actually wakes up on a bright morning.
He opens his eyes quietly, his eyelashes trembling, and after a moment of loss, he becomes anxious.
With concern in his eyes, his eyes are wandering around, and it isn’t until he sees me did he pull off the corner of his mouth hard.
I see him saying, “It’s fine that you are fine.”
Then come the expert consultation and various examinations, and concludes that James miraculously survived the dangerous period.
I always stand behind the crowd, suppressing the ecstasy that I am about to cry and howl, and he and I look at each other quietly, my body trembling.
James, you finally wake up.
But we have never had the opportunity to be alone. I can only watch him secretly, or go back when he is asleep.
This is Isabel’s order. She says she hopes that James should take care of his situation and not be distracted by anything.
I am quietly standing outside the ward, secretly listening to their conversation, and secretly feeling the existence of James. He is so close to me.
“What are you doing, James? You can’t get out of bed!” Kim’s exclamation comes from the ward.
“Go away!” James says impatiently.
I want to rush in to stop it, but I just stop and hesitate. I promised Isabel that I can’t see James during this time. I can only drag him down.
But I watch him stride hard to walk outside, sweat on his head, I am anxious and distressed.
“Carolina, are you standing outside the door! I see you! Why don’t you come and see me?”
James grits his teeth and the blue muscles on his head come out.
I can’t bear it, but I don’t know if I was right in the past.
I cry out in a hurry.
“James, Miss Carolina is not outside, let’s go back to the bed.” Kim persuades him.
James pushes him away and stands to sway. His eyes seem to penetrate everything. Even standing outside the door, I seem to feel his angry eyes.
“I have to see how cruel this woman is!”
He walks out hard step by step.
“James, why don’t you care about your own body! Miss Carolina will come to see you.” Kim has already turned around anxiously.
With a clatter, the bench chair falls to the ground with a loud noise.
I couldn’t help it anymore, push the door and run in.
James stands before me trembling, he smiles on his pale face finally.
“Are you stupid James! How can you do this! You don’t know how much you hurt!” I shout at him, but my heart is both move and angry.
James is obviously relieved. He holds out his hand to me and says, “Come, hug me.”
He tilts his head, like a coquettish child.
His arm is trembling and he is pulling the wound because he wants to keep this motion, and his head is cold and sweaty.
This fool.
I run over and hug him tightly.
James suddenly collapses in my arms, resting his head on my shoulder with a contented sigh.
“I finally touch you, I miss you.” James murmurs.
So do I? I can only watch him secretly while standing in a corner where he can’t see me, day by day, to see why his face is still so pale, to see how he is still so weak, I can’t wait to run in immediately.
But Isabel keeps looking at him, she refuses to allow me to approach her son again.
“We have survived the death,” James says.
Kim goes out secretly and closes the door for us.
I help James lie back on the bed again.
Then I snuggle into his arms.
I see why his lips are still so pale, and suddenly want to dye him some red.
So, I kiss him secretly and kiss him while he is not paying attention.
I see James’s smile zooming in, his arms press hard on me, and I am caught off guard. I have nowhere to escape, I could only kiss him harder.
The lips twitch, telling thinks, and thrilling uneasiness.
What a thankful thing that I can hold him again and touch him again.
The silence and stability at this moment make me cry in happiness.
He kisses me slowly, the tip of his tongue slips in between my teeth and lips, prying my teeth bit by bit.
His tongue entangles with my tongue, and the tip of the tongue seems to have passed through every place, pulling my nerves. We indulge in a moment of ease, being careful, and cherishing this moment.
This kiss is too beautiful, so beautiful that we can’t let go of each other, panting, and wishing to melt into each other’s body in one second, and become one.
“Carolina, you are mine, you are mine.” James’s throat knot slips, his eyes full of lust.