I tug at his clothes, crying aloud. The moment I see him, I let go of my alert for a long time. I know very clearly that I couldn’t leave this person.
“James! James!” I couldn’t say anything, checking over and over again that he is by my side at this time.
The whistle of a car and the thunder are all around me, all can’t cover his voice, “It’s me, I’m here, here.”
James hugs me, walking forward step by step.
I watch the rain run down his face, forming a stream of water. He grits his teeth, his eyelashes are wet, but his body is so warm.
In this rain curtain, I am completely lost. I don’t want to live in the previous days. I want to be with this man for a long time.
James takes me home, my clothes and I are wet and sticky to my body.
James hugs me directly into the bathtub, the warm water shrouds me, making my nervous heart relaxed all of a sudden.’
“James, thank you.” I look at his face through the mist.
James tightens his face. He doesn’t laugh, nor does he speak, just undresses and goes into the bathtub, hugging me together.
His body is shaking, holding me carefully, I don’t know what happens to him.
“What’s wrong with you?” I hug him, stroking his back, and ask softly.
James then murmurs, “I thought you and your family have gone, and you would never see me again.”
He is scared.
“I follow you, watch you come home, and watch you rush out of the house. You know, how happy I am at that moment. Do you want to see me like I want to see you? Do you want to be with me?” His voice is trembling, his body is stiff, and at this moment I know how afraid he is to lose me.
“You divorce him, okay?” James suddenly raises his head and looks at me seriously outside the river.
His eyes are wet and red, and he looks nervously at me.
My heart tightens suddenly, divorce? I don’t think about it.
My thoughts are pulled a long way away. I remember a long time ago how my mother asked me to marry Neil. She said that the family’s life is in my hands. She even had to kneel down. Her hair becomes white overnight.
I don’t know what Neil has done, but I feel their fear.
Is divorce fine?
Will my mother be forced to die?
Will dad really pay the price for his life?
I do not know.
I am there, holding James’s hands harder and harder.
James’s hopeful eyes are gradually replaced by disappointment.
“Don’t you divorce him? Do you not want to, or can’t? Do you believe me? I have this ability! I will make your family all right!” James still begs me.
“James, let me think it again.” I cry and hug him. There seems to be nothing I could do about my helpless life.
James stops talking and hugs me hard as if trying to engrave our bodies into each other’s souls.
It takes a long time before I hear him say, “Okay, I don’t force you.”
It didn’t until water get cold that James takes me out of the bathroom. I don’t do anything, so I lie quietly in bed and we look at each other.
After one night, I get up and go home because there are things I couldn’t escape and I am going to face it.
“Did you see him again?” Mom, dad, brother, and sister are at home.
I take off my shoes and say calmly, “Yes, I’ve gone to see him.”
“Carolina, don’t you feel ashamed? Do you know what you’re doing? You’re doing the worst thing a woman can do! It’s ashamed!” Mom cries.
Dad sighs.
She goes mad and picks up anything and throws it at me no matter what, “Your husband is still in the police station, and you still have the mood to go find that man. Why is your heart so cruel?”
I do not hide, take a deep breath, and say, “I want to divorce him.”
“Don’t you dare!” Dad pats the table and stands up, “Do you think you can do everything about this marriage?”
“Yeah, I don’t voluntarily get married, I don’t do anything voluntarily.” I look at them with a sneer, “Don’t you feel sorry for me? My life is destroyed by you.”
“You just don’t satisfy!” Mom picks up the vase and throws it at me.
My brother gets up and pushes me, and the vase passes by, “Mom, what are you doing! Do you want to kill my sister?”
Eric, my brother, is the only one standing beside me.
“Your sister wants me to die! How terrible your sister is, regardless of the life and death of her own family, do whatever she wants! It’s terrible!”
“You divorce him unless your dad and I are dead!”
My ears are full of scolds, all kinds.
With a slam, I close the door as if everything is blocking.
Neil comes out, and he is released on bail at home, but he has never admitted to domestic violence.
Anyway, I won’t live with him anymore.
Neil begs me to go home, but no matter how the family advises me, I don’t agree.
This time I won’t compromise anymore. Even if I can’t get divorced, I will try.
“Okay, Carolina, I looked down on you, don’t regret it!” Neil drops such a sentence and goes away angrily.
At the same time, various news about James goes viral on the Internet.
The only heir of the European-style group has an affair with a married woman. The two look ambiguous and have a good night together.
That figure is obviously me.
That’s what we did. The magazine company can be said to know the news the first time.
I am called into the office by the editor.
She points to the report on the computer and says, “Is that the woman you?”
I am photographed so clearly that I have no chance to deny it.
I nod and say, “Yes.”
It is raining that night.
“You are married? Why don’t you tell me about this?” The editor is a woman in her forties, probably from her heart she looks down on a dissolute woman.
I lower my head and don’t speak. The only thing I have in mind is James. Will, it affects him?
The matter in the report is clearly stated, and it is definitely prepared. I even suspected that Neil has caused this to happen. He has been looking for someone to follow me.
“Carol, you have a leave first, and then come to work when the gossip passes.” The editor says.
I look at her lightly without refuting.
This life is really tiring, I’ve had enough.
As soon as I walk out of the office, people are whispering around stop. Their eyes fall on me and they look at me.
What they say, of course, I know.
Mandy is sitting on a chair, her eyes squinted forward, “Oh, no wonder I smell the smelly smell. This office is mixed with something dirty!”
“Everything is derailed this year, but some people have been concealing their marriage history. What do you want to do? You are always ready to derail!”
They talk strangely, and I don’t care much. So I pass them as if I don’t hear it.
“Yes, you may not even have a chance to speak to the man I want to seduce, but he is a frequent visitor on my bed. Thank you for the praise, I am so shameless.” I don’t care about anything.
Not interested to appreciate their surprised expression, I walk past them without any expression.
“Oh my god, how can she be so shameless!”
Someone is scolding me behind me.
The moment I open the office, all kinds of flashing lights flash at me. Suddenly, my eyes are blank and various sounds filled my eardrums.
“What is your relationship with James?”
“It is rumored online that you are married. What do you think about derailment?”
“Do you know the relationship of the James family? Will the James family recognize your identity?”
“There are so many confidantes in James, how do you think of your relationship?”
I stare at the recording pen and microphone held in front of me, they are eager to know the answer.
At this moment, I am panicked. I never thought that our love would be magnified, suspected, exposed to everyone’s eyes, and become the talk of people after dinner.
I’m going to crash.
“I don’t know. I don’t know!” I am anxious, pushing the people in front of me.
“Ms. Carol, please answer the question!”
Is it about to blow up? “I don’t know, I don’t know.”
I couldn’t say anything, I just mumbled to myself.
“If you have any questions, you can come and ask me.”
His voice always sounds in time, which rescues me again and again.
People make their way, James appears in front of me. He is wearing a well-cut suit, exquisite and elegant.
He stretches his slender legs and comes towards me forcefully and firmly.
Behind him is a bodyguard standing in two rows, blocking the crowded media.
I stand in front of him stupidly.
“I can only tell you, I love this woman in front of me.” James takes me into his arms and covers my eyes. He says gently, “Don’t be afraid, come home with me.”