I subconsciously immediately hold the hand of James.
James looks at his hand and smiles.
“Carolina! You haven’t gone home for so many days, where are you going?” Mom runs over and takes my hand, her eyes turning around James’s body, “It’s shameless! You seduce me, my daughter! She is married.”
“Mom, what did you say!” I pull my mother behind me, look at James apologetically and say, “I’m sorry, my mother is talking nonsense.”
James still smiles at me and doesn’t blame me at all, but I know how lonely his smile is.
“Neil told me all!” My mother looks at James indignantly and wants to pull me out.
“What did Neil tell you? Why do you believe him!” I am so angry that I don’t want to go with her.
“I’m telling the truth. We’ll do whatever we want to do in the future. As long as you can break up with him, I don’t care about anything.” Neil holds my hands,” He says affectionately, “Everyone will make mistakes.”
James doesn’t speak, but his eyes are always looking at me, his eyes are far-reaching and long-lasting, which makes me particularly distressed.
I stare at him, and I could see from his eyes what he expects of me.
He expects me to choose him.
“Mom, do you know, I love this man very much. You may think that I am shameless, cheating Neil, but you have no idea what life I have been before. Neil is a liar!” I say weakly because no matter what I say, my mother doesn’t believe it.
“I am almost strangled by him a few days ago. If it weren’t for James, I would have died.” I grin twice and look at James with a bleak look. The gap between me and him could not be filled at all.
James stands outside the crowd and always says nothing, so he keeps looking at me, gently.
He doesn’t and wouldn’t force me, he wants me to make my own choices.
At this moment, my heart seems to be pierced by a knife.
“Darling, what are you talking about! I like you so much, even if you made a mistake, I don’t mind as long as you come back to me.” Neil’s disgusting face appears in front of me, pretending to affectionate.
People around are whispering. People are always particularly interested in the private affairs of others.
“Carolina! Look at what you have become! If you did what you say, are you still afraid of others?” My mom is scolding me, and Neil just rightly comforts her.
Things are always messed up by me.
I am standing there horribly, and had to pray to James, “You go first, I beg you. I have caused trouble for you. Can you go?”
I pull his placket and weep loudly.
“Carolina, stay quiet!” Mom wants to pull me back.
Neil shows an aggrieved expression, “Darling, will you go home with me?”
“If you want me to take you away, and I will take you away.” James hugs me suddenly, and hugs around my waist in front of everyone.
“It’s really evil! Shame! God, I can’t live!” Mom cries and wipes her tears.
But in my eyes I only love James. He stares down at me, “Don’t be afraid, I am here.”
“Okay.” I nod strongly.
I want him to take me away.
“Where do you want to go? You have to go home, you can’t go anywhere!” Mom stands up and holds me.
“Carolina, go home with your mother, I can’t watch you go astray! Do you know how shameful you are?”
I stay where I am. I could see the tears on my mother’s face, and the wrinkled and gully face is full of tears.
James’s hand loosens around my waist. He looks at the distance, his voice fluttering softly, “Go home with your mother first.”
He is afraid of me having trouble, I know.
But I look at the lonely expression on his side face, his trembling hands, and it is embarrassing for me to take him off at this time. He wants to take me away, but he is afraid that I would bear too much of these things.
James wants to reach out and rubs my face, but I see that he stops in the mid-air and retracts again, and his lonely eyes fall in my heart, stinging me.
“I’ll go first,” James says, he turns away and walks forward slowly.
And I can’t call him, I can only look at his back disappear little by little before my eyes.
My eyes blur and calling his name in my heart, “James, James…”
“Okay! Don’t be ashamed!” Mother gets up from the ground, reaches out, and slaps me.
“It is still in the police station, please calm down,” the staff reminds and gives me a hard glance.
I know a lot of people despise me.
I cover my face without any expression.
“Okay, let’s go home.” Neil comes up to catch me, I take a step forward and avoid him.
“Sir, you can’t go home yet. There are some things you still need to do.”
Neil is stopped by Police Officer Chou, “I hope you cooperate with us.”
“What’s the matter? What’s the matter?” Mom immediately worries about him, “He is a good man. Is there any good investigation?”
“Ma’am. We will not know until we conduct the investigation, and I hope you can cooperate with us as well.” Police Officer Chou says politely and perfunctorily.
I don’t care about anything. I take a cold look at Neil and turn around and walk out of the police station.
“Hey, Carolina, don’t go. Your husband is still here!” My mom shouts.
Mum doesn’t stop her whispering along the way, accusing, cursing, etc. until she enters the house.
My mother slams the door, “You’ve been at home today. I’ll send you to work and I’ll pick you up from work. I don’t know what’s going on with Neil. You hurry up and break up with that man.”
I am sitting on the sofa, and there is no response. I stare out the window as if the soul is gone. Yes, my soul follows James.
Seeing that I am silent, my mother is in a hurry and pokes my head hard and curses, “Carolina, your father ‘s life is at stake in Neil’s hand. Do you want your father to die, or I? Do you want to stay alive?”
My eyes move back from the window and fall on my mother’s face, “What did my dad have in Neil’s hands? Why should I be sacrificed? Can’t I have my own life?”
“Oh! Carolina, what do we support you for? It’s not easy to raise you up. What happens to your sacrifice for this family? Besides, Neil treats you well, and his family is also good, and you won’t have a hard time.” Mother looks at me in pride.
I smile softly and say, “Do you know why Neil is under investigation? Because of his domestic violence, James has handed in the evidence. Do you know why we have not had children so many years?? Because he is infertile!”
I look at my mother coldly, watching her smile stiffens on her face.
“What are you talking about? Your adulterer is wrongdoing him! He wants to put Neil in jail! Then you will be together?”
However, the mother has ignored what I have said, I am a victim, shouldn’t she ask me? No, she can’t believe it. The image of Neil’s honesty has been deeply rooted in her hearts. How could they believe it?
I can’t stand it anymore, I can’t stand this life.
Get up, I run out of the house crazily.
A thunderous thunder sounds above my head, overwhelming my mother’s voice calling me.
I’m running with all my strength, trying to vent the kind of grievances and injustices that hold me back.
I seem to see James. I am crying in the rain, and there is a white mist around me. I stand on the street and seem to be lost.
What to do? I am crying helplessly, like a fool.
“Carolina!” A sudden exclaimed sound piercing from the crowd.
I see James running towards me in the rain.
He anxiously takes off his clothes, wraps me, and hugs me hard.
“Fool, I’ve been waiting for you to look back.”