His body is so warm, it seems to warm my whole life.
The reality is so cruel to me. If it is destined that I can’t stay with the one I love, why should I still meet James? If I am destined to deceive him, why should I still be in love with James?
What will happen to us in the future? Neither of us knows.
The phone buzzes and the caller ID is my mom.
I have a headache and look at the name on my mobile phone. My mother seldom calls me.
“Where are you? Hurry to come home! Do you want your dad and me to die!” Mother shouts.
Immediately, I have a bad feeling.
I get dressed and hurried to the house, watching James, who is asleep, I feel a bit sad.
James, what should I do?
The guy Neil must have guessed my relationship with James, otherwise, my mother wouldn’t say this on the phone, if I can really really spread this news to them, it will be a relief for me, and I can never face Neil again.
The moment I open the door, I see my mother’s angry face.
Ms. Zhang Xiaoxia looks at me with anger, sitting next to her is Neil, with a calm face.
“What did you do at night?” My mother gives me a look of disgrace, “Do you know what Neil says to me? Say you run away with a man in front of him! Everyone knows that you cheat him! Do you explain what happens today? ”
Neil keeps silent, showing a posture that the injured person should have, and sighing.
There is a mess on the ground, vases, decorations, and even pots and pans.
At this time, I am rather calm. At this point, what am I afraid of? The marriage between Neil and I am an exchange of interests. I had no feelings, and I don’t need to be sorry for him.
“That man is the man I like, as you think.” I smile, very happily. As long as I think of James, the corner of my mouth always smiles involuntarily.
My mother stands up suddenly, crying, “What the hell you’ve done! Why are you so shameless, you actually cheat him! Is Neil bad for you? Are you actually so shamed to be able to do such a thing! Shame! ”
She slams hard on me, complaining to me of crimes against me.
Neil looks at me coldly, with hatred in his eyes.
I look at him without flinching and even laugh.
“Mom, maybe I’m not good enough, so Carolina falls in love with other men. It’s all my fault.” Neil is a playmaker, slamming his mouth, and complaining himself.
“Carolina! See what Neil did to you, and you still cheat him. You make feel shameful!” My mother cries and blames me.
The anger in my heart has always been in my heart. For a long time, I do not dare to let my family know how Neil cheats me. I never expect that he would become a perfect husband in the eyes of outsiders!
Now I can’t hold back anymore, “Don’t you know how Neil treats me! You should believe what he said?! He beats me every day, abuses me, and he asks me to have a child of other man’s. He can’t have a child!!”
Speaking put this in one breath, tears pour in my eyes, and my long grievances and unwillingness make me suffer every day.
Neil grabs his hair suddenly and painfully while holding it, he cries and says, “Mom. It is all my fault, I don’t care about Carolina too much. It is my fault that she has such a misunderstanding!”
“Carolina, I really despise you. To hide your mistakes, you blame them on Neil! Why can’t Neil give birth? His previous wife is lucky, but it is a mistake. You dare to tell lie!” Mom raises her hand and hits me in the face fiercely.
The slam has wiped out all my hopes.
It’s ridiculous. How could they believe me?
“You don’t believe me! What I said is true!” I look at my mother in disbelief, picking up my clothes, “You see. This is hit by him!”
But I forget that Neil would not leave a trace on me even if he hits me recently.
“Carolina, you’re ashamed! Look at what you’ve done!” I have nothing but kiss marks left by James.
I really want to laugh, how could I be Neil’s opponent.
“Mom, you know me, how much I like Carolina, otherwise I would not make a request to marry Carolina, as long as Carolina wants to spend time with me and breaks up with a man outside, I don’t mind all this.” Neil looks at me with affectionate eyes.
“Carolina, see how good Neil is to you! You have to settle down all those things. He is older than you, but he knows how to love you. Why don’t you understand this! “Mom wipes her tears, and says sadly, holding my hands.
My whole fighting spirit disappears all at once, there is nothing left to do, I am bad. I am a sinner, and he is a good man. Neil, who saved our family, and the condition is to marry me
But what about the facts? Every day I suffer from this, mentally and physically.
“Carolina and I will go home and live a good life, and I will treat you well! I promise, I will love you as much as I did before.” Neil looks at me sincerely and begins to swear.
I watch him play coldly and laugh.
“Neil, are you interesting? Do you have to move? Compared with you, I am a personal scum, deceiving you, and pouring dirty water on you.”
“Carolina, what are you doing?” My mother secretly gives me a pinch, and whisper to warn me, “We still have to rely on him.”
It turns out that this is the reason why I have been wronged. Our family can’t live without Neil. Neil has my father’s evidence in his hand. I don’t know what it is, but it is fatal, so I will always be sacrificed. Suddenly awakened.
It turns out that I couldn’t even be myself, my family is counting on him.
“In the end, what does he have in hand that I should be sacrificed myself?” Tears come out, and I look at my mother with tears in my eyes, and I want to know the answer.
“Carolina, I like you, you know, in order to get you, I will do whatever it takes.” Neil looks at me very seriously, but I see threats and warnings from his eyes.
He warns me to be obedient, otherwise, it would be my family who suffers the bitterness.
My mother takes my hand as if praying to me, “Carolina, you promise to Neil, and be with him.”
Suddenly I can’t see anything, and there will be no James in my future. Will it be better to die? I can’t breathe, and it hurts with every breath.
There is nothing I can do about my life.
The moment my mother leaves, Neil holds my neck with a fierce hand.
I can’t breathe, struggling desperately.
“What do you think you are? Even if your mother knows I abuse you, what can she do? She doesn’t dare to say anything, and your whole family dare not to say anything because your father’s life is in my hands, you know?! Neil smiles proudly.
I look at him in regret and did not struggle anymore. I make a provocative gesture, and ask him to strangle me to death!
Maybe death is the relief for me!
I used my eyes to fight him, and I squeeze his arm with my hands.
Strangle hard! You can kill me if you have the skills! I’m not afraid of death! I’ll see if you dare to choke me! I glare at him.
“Damn! Do you disagree with me! I’m strangling you!” Neil’s eyes seem to bulge out. Like a lunatic, his muscles are violent and he looks at me fiercely.
But I’m sorry, James, in the future in your world, there will never be me again.
When I think of James, my heart is so painful, like acupuncture.
Sorry, James.
It is my greatest regret not to be with him.
My consciousness begins to faint. I actually feel suddenly relaxed.
Just when I am desperate, the door slammed open.