A week has passed since the news of dad coming out of the coma; and he is now shifted to the normal ward. But is still under observation, and if everything went fine with his reports, then we might take him home with us soon.
I’m very happy today that I can stay with my father. I went to Jason’s room to inform him that I’ll leave today and will go to my house and live with my dad from now onwards.
Jason is in his house office with loads of files and documents covering the space of his desk, and for the first time in months, I have seen Jason wearing glasses, and damn, he looks hot. I shook my head; Wait, what the fuck I am thinking?
I’m here to talk with him, not to rate him at his looks. Jason seems so busy at work that I don’t want my heart to disturb him. Standing by the door, all I could do was stare at him and adore his beauty with my eyes. He is wearing a simple white button-down shirt, with his sleeves rolled up, flexing his elbows as he works, and glasses over his eyes are just a cherry on top of his features. It suits him very well.
“Are you done?” Jason moved his eyes from his files to me with a mischievous smile on his face. “I don’t mind your hungry staring, but I can’t focus on work with you being here,”
I was at a loss for words. Damn, I was caught red-handed. “No… I just came to inform you I’ll leave this evening,”
Jason turned his attention from the files to me. “Where?” Jason asked casually.
“Home and I’ll be living there from now on with my dad,” I replied, staring at Jason’s face, wanting to see his reaction to my words.
Upon hearing my voice, the atmosphere around the room turned into something else. Jason looked at me with an unreadable emotion on his face. “Why?”
At that moment, I said the first thing that came to my mind, “Jason, we are no longer a couple.” I sighed. “And with my father be discharged, soon I want to spend all my time with him.”
Jason stood from his place standing so close, before me, “What about me…, and Aria? You’re happy to leave us alone.”
I took some steps backward, creating some space in between us. I can’t think rationally with Jason being so close to me. “Jason, even if don’t leave today, but someday I have to… leave.” I repeat the same words I always do for my escape.
Jason took a few more steps, sandwiching my body in between the wall and him. “Kiera, I don’t want you to leave,”
I pushed Jason on his chest, creating some space in between us, “But you can’t stop me….., Jason, we’re divorced and why are you forgetting that we made this decision for our own good? You can’t force to stay here with here.”
Jason sighed, taking off his glasses and rubbing his eyes. “I’m not forcing you and I’ll never will ever force you. But I’m begging you, don’t leave me.”
“But…., Someday I have to,” I said, turning my back to leave.
Jason grasped my hand, turning my head towards him, staring deep into my eyes, before saying the words I had never expected to hear from Jason’s mouth. “Give me one chance to prove myself. Kiera…”
“Prove what?” I asked.
“I can’t hide it anymore.” Jason said with a sigh. “I’m sorry for hiding my felling from you all this time, Kiera, but….. I love you.”
“Shut up!” I shouted, not trusting my ears, and pushed Jason, wanting to get away from him as much as possible.
I then took some deep breaths, trying to control my emotions. Jason’s eyes are focused on me, as his mouth doesn’t break a single word. But his eyes were watching me like a hawk.
“Jason, thank you for your help all this time…, but please don’t repeat the words that you don’t mean from your heart.” I said as I calmed down a bit. “Tell Aria that I’ll miss her and sorry, but I can’t continue our relationship when you’ve different motives in your mind.” I turned my back to leave.
“Kiera,” I heard Jason’s voice from my back, but I didn’t turn back to look at him. I know if I look back now, I might never leave again. I’m a mess and I might look good from the outside, but if he digs more into me, he will know more about the mess than hiding behind my well-built shell of a good human being that I show to the world.
The first day in this house with Jason was bad, but slowly as time passed I started liking the house, the people in it. I don’t know how or when, but slowly the liking started to be loved as I started to learn more and more about Jason and his life, mostly about Aria. And that is why I’m leaving even though I don’t want to. Jason is as broken as I am and that is why my decision to leave is more important. For Jason and Aria to be happy, I can’t stay here ruining their lives with sadness in my heart. They need someone far better than me. I’m nothing but a hollow shell who is a mess inside. What Jason and Aria need is a lively person who can bring happiness to their lives.
Two broke people can’t live a life as a whole. That’s what life has taught me so far, and so it’s the truth.