This is what I want and everyone must accept it no matter what occurs, even if the Pack turns against me, I will gladly accept it.
I have always wanted to meet my mate, all these years, who knew he was beside me, right under my very nose all these time, I thought I was cursed to be woofless for the rest of my life because anyone I came across was either mated or married at such a young age, making me the abnormal one.
Everyone meets their mate in each ceremony, mine was different and lonely.
I began to wonder why I never had an encounter with my mate and every night, it always bothered me.
I felt different and a lot of people began gossiping about me and that was why when I accepted that bastard as my mate even though he wasn’t my mate, I did it just to shut the people up.
My life was a lonely one, I needed someone to open up my heart to, I needed someone I could laugh with, love and cherish all my life.
All these feelings started when he left with Carmine, I missed them so much and I never understood it until now.
My life had been so lonely ever since he left and I tried my best to be what my parents wanted me to be, it’s not like I can’t live without my brothers or like I’m obsessed with them or something.
It’s nothing like that, the thing is, they’ve always being by my side since I was a baby and they were kind of like my shield.
My best friends in the whole world, they played with me, loved me and gave me whatever I wanted and I hardly lacked anything.
They were My heroes, I looked up to them more than anything else.
They also protected me from anyone who attempted ill intentions and they were always there for me in every way, so seeing them disappearing into thin air turned my life upside down and I tried as much as possible to be so cool but it worked yet the burden on my shoulders was a heavy one and I went through so much pain because of them.
I felt abandoned and a complete disappointment.
I worked my bones to be where I was and for my brothers to be impressed with me, I did a lot of things to be noticed and to the point I almost broke down.
They came back, yeah, I’m supposed to be happy I could be with my brothers finally after all this time but fate always has his plans doesn’t it?
I miss him and became delighted when they returned. It was good news but bad news came along as well, which turned out to be favorable, it also became our disadvantage.
Though I didn’t tell anyone, I secretly craved to meet someone I could love, not some arranged Alpha.
I love him, this emotion is just too much for me to handle, this feeling that keeps swelling inside me, I can’t stop this feeling.
My dreams had come true, my wishes came to pass and it happened to be the person I had been searching for all my life.
Gerard, a stubborn Alpha who is constantly adamant.
He was standing in front of me, making my heart swell with pride and dignity.
I don’t know how much to describe it but I am so happy to see him and I’m glad he was born into my life, thankful to the moon goddess for bringing him to me.
He is also captivating and I would love to kiss him and hug him. I usually have these dirty thoughts of how he was going to be in bed and how hard his dick was going to be, how he was going to moan and pound into me.
Damn, that would be the most amazing thing on the planet.
Come to think of it, Adolph never really answered my question but what gives anyways, I still have to find more answers to my questions, I just need to dig deeper and search for what I’m looking for and I hope, I don’t do something regretful.
“That can never happen. You can never be my mate, Oceana.’
He finally spoke but his tone was so different, his reaction wasn’t what I expected from him and I began to think if I was beginning to cling to him more.
Was I obsessed, no, that wasn’t it.
I was in love with him.
Does he know that or is he just not taking me seriously, why can’t he just believe in me, why can’t he just trust me and know my feelings for him are true.
We just met recently and this was the reaction he was giving me after everything I went through to see him and he isn’t even the same person, he is acting differently towards me. Why do I feel like he is trying to avoid me?
It’s been six years, I know but isn’t he supposed to know how that felt? That I would be so excited to see him since he told me I was his mate.
I became happy and I don’t have any regrets, rather I am happy and I don’t care about whatever happens to me.
“Why? Can I at least know the reason?’
I knew the reason he was saying those words to me but I just don’t want to admit it. He was mine and I don’t want anyone else to take him away from me, he’s been the one I had always loved.
All this was getting me scared of him leaving me, terrifying, I don’t want him to go away from me, I love him with all my heart.
“You already know the reason.’ He nearly turned his back to me when I spoke.
“I love you, Gerard.’ I finally spilled it out what I needed him to listen to and hope this will change his point.
There was silence for a while, then he flared up. “Will you shut up?” I was baffled when he shouted at me. “I’m getting married Oceana, put your head out of the clouds, this is not some fantasy, but a real life, don’t get us in trouble and mind your tongue, you are an Alpha, don’t just spit words out of your mouth, because you want to talk with your mouth.”
So, he was truly getting married, I thought it was all just an act to make me give up, so it was true.
And that woman I saw calling me her biggest fan was the one he was getting married to.