CHAPTER 27- Morning Hangover
I start to feel her stir in my arms. At first she buried herself deeper. Then it would seem that she remembered what happened. She pulls away. Then she slapped me. My eyes shoot open. “What the hell was that for?”
“Why are you in my bed?” She groans.
“You were clinging to me like your life depended on it. How was I supposed to leave you like that?” I go to reach for her again, but she puts an arm out to stop me. The other hand is clutching her head.
I jump up and get a cold wet washcloth from the bathroom. I bring it to her and she is acting like I am not there. I sit on the bed next to her. “Here, put this on the back of your neck. It will keep you from throwing up.” I try to maneuver it so that she lets me do it. She isn’t relenting, she takes the rag from me.
“What do you want from me?” She mumbles.
“Everything, everyday, all your time.” I whisper.
“What if that isn’t possible?” She whispers back.
“I would settle for today if that was all I could get.” I reach over and brush the hair off her face.
“Hunter, why are you doing this? Can’t you just accept the rejection.” She is leaning into my hand.
“Can you sit up?” I don’t move my hand. I have an idea. I am hoping that it will work.
“Yeah, Why?” I get up and lock the door.
When I come back over to her it’s not a good look, but at least she doesn’t look like she is going to kill me. “I want to show you something.” I take her hand and pull her out of the bed slowly. I take her over to the loveseat where I have a seat. She gives me a puzzled look. “I want you to show me how you found me with Allison.”
She gets an angry look. “I don’t want to think about that. How dare you think that is something I would want to do.” She tries to pull out of my grasp but I tighten it.
“Please, I need to show you something. Example is the only way I can think of to get you to understand.” I give her my most pleading look.
She sighs. “She was straddling your lap.”
“Show me.” I pull her towards me. She gets on my lap, I pull her close. “What else?”
“Your hands were on her hips.” I slide my hands onto her hips. “Then your mouth was on hers.”
“Like this.” I pull her to me with one hand. Then my body takes over. I am pulling her to me with everything I have. There is no space left between us. Her mouth on mine is heaven.
She pulls back, not all the way but enough to break the kiss. “What does this prove? What is it that you are trying to show me?”
I smile at her. “You said my hands were on her hips. That creates distance. With you here, I eliminated all distance. You can see that, can’t you.”
She looks down at our bodies. “Maybe you were getting there. She was barely clothed.”
I don’t hesitate, I take her shirt off. She starts to protest but I quiet her with a kiss. Her protests become lost in the heat between our bodies. Instincts take over completely. She has never let me get this far. I flip her over on the couch. So that I am on top of her. I break with her only enough to pull my shirt off. I am right back between her legs. I need so much more. I unclasp her bra, I need and pull at them, while my lips are locked on hers. Her moans are driving me crazy.
“Hunter, what are you doing?” She pants out.
“I am taking the day. Give me the day, baby. Let me show you how much I love you.” I am back at her lips. Moans escape from her again.
I move my lips down as she tangles her fingers in my hair. Finally my mouth is the one place it has never been. Her chest is firm and perfect, they are making my mouth water. I can’t take it anymore, I need more. I stand peeling off her pants and underwear. Now she is laying in front of me in her naked glory. “Perfect.” I drop my own pants and come back to her body. Before I get too far she clamps her thighs on my waist.
“I’m not sure we should be doing this.” I can see the concern on her face. Fear flashes in her eyes.
“It’s alright. We need this.” I whisper to her.
“Hunter, I have never done this before.” Her cheeks blaze crimson.
I smile. So beautiful. “That’s ok. I haven’t either. Who better to do it with than your mate?” I feel her thighs ease a little. Yeah, I lied but she doesn’t need to know that, it made her feel better. “I love you baby.” Then the rest of the way. Finally I am connected with her in a way that no one else has ever been. Hopefully no one else ever will be.
We spent the day tangled in each other. I take her as many times as she will let me. Eventually we made it back to the bed. I hold her in my arms as we sleep. This is all I want from her right now. I want her to feel the love I have for her as well as feel the love she has for me. I know this doesn’t mean that she has taken me back. She didn’t re-mark me. I can look at it as progress though. She didn’t kick me out.
JASMINE’S P. O. V.
I can’t believe I did that. What the hell is wrong with me? Not once but many times. The whole damn day. I am a bad person. I let instinct and need take over. My desire for the matebond overroad all my senses. This morning when I woke up next to him, I couldn’t take it anymore. I pulled out of his arms and went straight to the bathroom for a shower. I have to wash this whole thing away. I cry, I want to puke. This shouldn’t have happened. I feel weak. I am an Alpha, I am not weak.
After I get dressed, I wake up Hunter. I give him a nudge on the shoulder. Eventually he wakes with a stretch. He gives me a smile that almost makes me want to melt back into this bed. “Good morning baby.”
“It’s time for you to go Hunter.” I keep my face stern.
His face turns to shock. “What? After everything. We aren’t even going to talk about this.” He jumps up a little so that he is resting on his elbows. He has never gotten out of this bed so fast.
“No we aren’t. Things haven’t changed.”
“Everything has changed. What we did is real. You and I are real. Why are you going to continue to deny that?”
I am really trying to ignore the fact that he is arguing with me, in my bed, naked. “Hunter, you asked for yesterday, I gave you that.” I go to stand but his arm is quicker. He grabs me up.
“Jasmine. You can’t say that we have nothing. I spent a whole day making love to you. I know what you are feeling. Baby, this is us, don’t push us away anymore.” He moves his face closer to me, obviously to kiss me. I pushed him away.
“I can’t do this Hunter. You need to leave.” I continue to push until he lets me go.
“You stubborn wolf. You know you love me as much as I love you. You are going to let someone else and their misdeeds determine if we are together. What are you starting to have feelings for that other guy, is that it?”
I look at him like he is stupid. “NO! I just keep seeing Allison on your lap, grinding into you.” I think this is getting out of hand. We are yelling. Well, maybe he will get the hint and leave.
“I wasn’t in control. It was a spell. What do I have to do to prove it to you? Yesterday wasn’t enough. I will do whatever it takes, but you have to work with me here. Right now, us not being together is on you.” He goes to stand and I turn my back. I do not need to be sucked back in. “What’s the matter? The sight of me is too much for you. Afraid you will act on your feelings again?”
“Carnal feelings. That doesn’t mean they are what is best. I need time to deal with all this. Yesterday I had a hangover. My resolve was weakened. I woke up this morning and all I could think about was Allison all over the body that is supposed to be mine.” I feel arms snake around my body.
“It is yours. Baby, it is all yours.” That seductive voice is going to kill me one day.
I pull away again. “Don’t do this right now. Just leave. I am getting ready for school and I am going to act like yesterday didn’t happen. I suggest you do the same.” I leave the warmth of his body and go to the bathroom. I doubt he is going to wait out here that long. He will give up shortly and leave for the day. Probably thinking that I will change my mind in the car. I don’t care, I am not changing my mind.
“You know it is not always a good thing to be strong.” He yells at me as he slams the door to the bedroom. Tears stream again at the sound of the door shutting. I have to be strong if not then what am I?