~ Wendy’s Pov ~
My heart pounded rapidly and felt heavier in my chest. His soft hands grew cold on my face. I felt hallucinated and put out of this world. I couldn’t breathe. My chest was killing me.
“Forgive me.” His lips moved. “I’m sorry for loving you.”
“Sihwa.” I gasped shakily and struggled to keep my eyes open.
“It won’t happen again,” he added and kissed me on my lips. I held his hands on my face and kissed him back. When he pulled away from me, I couldn’t help but break down in tears.
My heart ripped apart like thousands of swords stabbing through every corner of my heart. I could hardly stand on my feet. This was not happening again. I’m not letting him do this to me again.
“Don’t do this to me again.” I cried out. “Don’t do this, Sihwa. I can’t. I can’t cope with this anymore. This pain is getting worse. I just don’t want to keep living anymore. If you are not by my side, I don’t know how to cope. So, please-” I sobbed. “Don’t leave, Sihwa.”
“Wendy.” He let his half-baked cigarette fall to the floor and shifted away from me and rubbed his face with both hands. “I wish you hadn’t recovered your memories.” He mumbled and turned to my crying face and both hands cleaning my tears off when he squatted in front of me on my knees. “You wouldn’t act this way.”
Sniffed my running nose. “Glad I remembered everything.” And faced Sihwa’s expression. “You are not getting away from me this time, Sihwa.”
“Of course I am,” he boldly stated. “You are not gonna do anything about it.” He calmly uttered. “I can’t stay with you. I just can’t.”
“Why???”
“Have you forgotten the pain I caused you?” He rested his hands on my shoulders.
“No, I haven’t -”
“Do you think you can spend the rest of your life lying alongside the alpha who killed his family, your family, your first love and your best friends and made you a runaway for 4 years? Do you think it is possible to let go of such a crime from the alpha you once loved, who made your life miserable?” He took a step towards me when he stood up. “I chased you for years and caused you a lot of misery. I’m not a good person, Wendy. Don’t let those moments we had together 13, 14 or 15 years ago make you think I’m the perfect alpha. I’ve got my flaws and I can’t be the person for you. So, don’t even think about it.”
“Then don’t decide to leave me.” I yelled. “Ask me what I want, Sihwa. If you truly care about me, and truly want to repent of your terrible actions, you would ask me what I want.”
“I already know what you want.”
“What do I want?”
“Don’t ask me. It’s embarrassing, Wendy.” He turned to the door.
I ran to him and held his hand. “What’s the matter with you? That’s not the only reason you are leaving me. There’s more, Sihwa. What is it? Why do you bottle up so much of your problems and not let anyone in?” I questioned him. ‘I want to help you, Sihwa. Let me in and let’s do this together.’
“You have no clue what you are saying, Wendy.” His eyes glowed bright red.
I felt a sharp rush through my head, like a whiplash. When the pain intensified, I sobbed, shuddered, and yelled. It hurts within my head. It felt like a bunch of balls were kicking each section of my skull. Knives penetrated my head, forehead, and eyes. I kept having visions of Sihwa.
Sihwa holds a stunning blonde lady in his arms. Her body got saturated in blood, and her eyes were eaten by werewolves. The stench of blood polluted the air.
Sihwa kneeled in the grass, cradling her in his arms while crying bitterly. “Mooooom.” Bloody tears streamed from his eyes.
He gasped repeatedly.
Sihwa gripped his throat, struggling for air, and let out a loud yell, letting the lady in his arms fall to the grass.
I continued to wail in misery, sliding back further away from Sihwa. When I noticed him saying some words and his crimson eyes darkening, I realized he was the one causing my awful suffering. I continued screaming and staggering backward. My head spun out of control, slamming into the wall behind me.
I heard a loud crack at the back of my head and collapsed to the floor. The last scene of Sihwa slowly coming up to me faded itself.
I experienced bodily discomfort. My eyes opened, and I recognized where I was. My head felt healed, but my heart wasn’t settled in its place.
“Sihwa.” I looked around me. There was no sign of him and this wasn’t his room, either.
This was my room.
The place Chris gave to me earlier. I got up and ran out of my room, remembering what had just happened to me. I burst the doors open and ran out of the room.
“You are finally awake.” I stopped and looked over at the figure behind me.
“I’m glad the sleeveless golden gown Chelsea wore on you fitted on your body.”
I furrowed my brows. “What are you doing here?”
Why was he here, instead of Sihwa? I sniffed through the air and I couldn’t perceive Sihwa’s pheromones anymore. His scent has disappeared, too.
I shook my head in disbelief and moved forward.
I stopped and faced him. “What are you talking about? Chelsea wore this golden gown on me.”
“Yes, she did, and it suits you perfectly. It makes you look like a queen or something. It’s simple but elegant.”
“Where is Sihwa?” I was in no mood for his talk right now.
“He is gone.” He revealed.
My heart skipped. “What do you mean?”
“It is true.” Chris put his hands on pockets. “I can’t believe it myself, even though I’m his best friend.”
“You are lying.” I accused him.
“I’m not lying.” He heaved a long sigh. “I wouldn’t lie about something like this to you. He has left the pack for everyone.”
I gasped. “What!”
“He is not coming back anymore. He has left everything in your hands. The immense responsibility he has on his shoulders for a long time, he put them on you. He couldn’t handle it anymore and left everything in your name. You are the Luna of this pack now.” He explained. “Wendy Grimwolf, Luna of the Grimwolf pack.”
“You are freaking lying.” I took two steps back. “I don’t want to believe this from you.” My eyes welled up as I screamed. “I don’t want no pack or this stupid damn property. I want Sihwa and I want to go with him.” My tears dropped. “I don’t want to stay here.” I screamed and looked around, my heart kept pounding. “Can’t do this.” I held up my long gown with both hands and walked back.
“You wouldn’t find him.” He continued. “He is gone.”
My eyes widened in disbelief.