~Violet’s Pov ~
“How could you not tell me you had those episodes again? You keep it from me? Tell me, how long has this been going on?!”
“One question at a time.” He emphasized and rolled his eyes at me.
“Don’t tell me that, Ash.” I snapped. “I’ve been worried about you all day and you refused to pick up my calls.”
“I wasn’t with my iPhone.”
“Then, where was it? I’ve been buzzing that phone for hours and you didn’t care to call back and to check what I was doing.”
I panicked when I opened his room when he wasn’t at home.
I ran out of the room and called to check up on him. I knew he intentionally ignored my calls because Willow had to pick up the phone and tell me how drunk and sleepy he was.
I was worried about him. Doesn’t he think that what he is doing to me is wrong?
Why would he behave like this to me? I saw how wrecked up his room was. Why aren’t I supposed to be worried when my brother is suffering right under my nose after what I just saw?
This is what he always does to me, and I hate it.
When he encounters an issue, he pushes me under the bus and blocks its entrance.
How can he go through troubles and not let me know about it? I thought we should tell each other everything. I thought we trusted each other and cared about one another.
“Stop shouting.” He yelled at me with widened eyes.
I felt surprised.
“Whenever you yell, it irritates me. Shut the fuck up.” His eyes turned gray and then it faded away and returned to the original color of his eyes.
“How dare you react to me in such a manner? Are you dumb?” I also yelled back at him.
He scared me for a second there, but I don’t care whatever he does to me. Even if my life is on the line.
I’m his older sister and I demand some respect.
He has been out all day with our friends and the first thing he does the minute he comes back home is to yell at me, because I questioned him about his health.
His expression relaxed. “How did you find out about it?”
“I found out when I went to look for you in your room.”
“You went to my room? You shouldn’t have gone into my room. I locked that room up. How did you get in?!”
“You locked up your room to prevent me from getting in.” I countered him with a nod.
“Yes, I did it. Because I know when you find out about what’s going on with me, you would react like this. I didn’t want you fucking panicking all over the place and blowing everything up.”
“So you think I’m such a nutcase and a troublesome alpha to deal with, right?!”
“I don’t think of you like that.”
“That’s what it sounds like to me.” I was holding myself back from getting mad at him.
If I go with the emotions I’m dealing with right now, it won’t end well tonight. It would cause more harm than good.
I don’t care if he is worried about me. I care more about him than he knows, because…if he keeps this up without stopping what triggers his anger…he…could die.
“You truly need to calm down. You are my twin and I care about you, Violet. I don’t want you diagnosed as a PTSD patient and a high blood pressure patient or whatever, because of me, kay.”
I covered my face with both hands and heaved a deep sigh.
I faced him with a question. “When did it start?” I blink my eyes twice to prevent my tears from falling out. “I could have heard the noises, even if you didn’t want to tell me about it. So, did it happen when I was not at home?”
He sighed. “Stop acting like a mother to me. We are not babies anymore. You are-”
“I’m your elder sister.” I cut in. “We’ve been through shit together. Of course I will be concerned and want to care about you. I love you so much. And I will always care about you. I don’t care if you get married someday or have kids. I will still care about you. Stop keeping things away from me. I hate it when you do that to me. When I’m always the last to know what is going on. I’m always there for you. Why wouldn’t you tell me anything? I’m always here to help.” I explained, and Ash kept looking at me.
He looked angry and frustrated. I kept perceiving champagne from his breath. Why didn’t he tell me? His anxiety and depression were back again.
Why did he have to go through it alone without informing me?
Sometimes, I feel like we are drifting apart. When did we get to this point of hiding something away from each other?
I always try my best to keep us together and always be there for each other. Why is he always shutting me out?
“Yeah, Violet. You are my elder sister. That’s why I didn’t tell you. I didn’t want you to worry. I wanted to get through it alone.”
“When did it start?” I wasn’t in the mood for his silly excuses, but to get straight to the point.
“A couple of weeks ago.” He responded casually and rolled his eyes.
“How long?!”
“I just replied to you.”
“How long was that couple of weeks?”
“Do you have to know?!”
“Don’t take this too far, Asher.” I always call out his full name whenever I’m mad at him. “Answer the damn question nicely and don’t act like a dick to me.” I seriously warned and pointed my finger at him.
I was seriously furious at what he did and he just doesn’t care that I am concerned about him.
If I hadn’t gone to his room to look for him. I wouldn’t have known what was going on.
“If it’s such a damn question, why do you still need me to answer it?”
“Asher.”
“A few weeks ago.” He finally responded.
“Asher.” I called again.
“Ok. Chill down. Two weeks ago.” He groaned and almost walked out on me.
“Who are you angry at, Ash?” He stopped. “What is triggering your anger to make you have episodes?”
“It’s nothing.”
“Ash.” I shouted and dragged his shoulder to face me, to prevent him from avoiding my face, and I held his arm. “What the fuck is going on? If you keep having these episodes, it can kill you. It can destroy you. So, you must not get angry enough to trigger those episodes. It could ruin you. So, tell me, who is the cause? Who is making you angry to make you so depressed?” Ash curiously kept his gaze fixed on me, saying no word.