– Jax –
I follow Harley outside as she makes her way to her bike, she sits on it positioning the bottle of whiskey between her thighs, she goes to turn the key and I stop her hand from moving, “What do you think you’re doing kitten?” She looks up to me, her eyes shining in the sunlight, “I’m going for a ride” she says before trying to turn her key again, I take the keys out of the ignition and throw her over my shoulder, “What the fuck are you doing?” She yells as she hits my back with her fists, I walk her back inside and up to my room.
“First things first, you need to get changed and secondly if you’re going to ride somewhere, you are going to ride with me on the back of my bike, I don’t need you going out there and killing yourself” she crosses her arms and pouts, “I wasn’t going to do anything stupid” she mumbles looking down at her fingers, “Sure you weren’t”, she quickly changes before I pick her up again and carry her out to my bike placing her on the back before I get on and start it up, kicking the stand away.
I ride up to the gates and wait for them to be opened before pulling out and riding away, Harleys holding onto my waist as I weave in and out of traffic until we hit the open roads, I don’t know where I’m going but I’ll ride all day and night if it makes my girl happy.
Eventually we pull up to a small hiking track, I help her off before we start the hike up the hill, after 5 minutes Harley complains about her feet hurting I turn around to look at what she’s wearing for shoes and laugh when I see her high-heeled boots, I bend down infront of her as she jumps onto my back, I give her a piggyback ride until we got to our destination, I let her down gently before turning to look at the view.
The sun slowly begins to set over the hills, a small creek flows infront of us. Completely cut off from everything and everyone. She takes her shoes off and sits on a rock placing her feet in the running creek beneath her, I sit down next to her and light a cigarette before lighting her one, we sit in silence for a few minutes enjoying it before i speak.
“My mum and dad used to bring me up here when I was a kid. It was my favourite place, the quietness, how isolated it is. My mum always loved nature, our backyard was built like a rainforest” I smile as I remember helping my mum in the garden as a child, how excited she got over a new plant she had brought, or when one of them flowered.
I look at Harley who has a small smile on her face, she inhales the cigarette before blowing it out of her nose. I turn and look out to the view, “They were killed in an accident, that’s what the police think anyways. I know it was an enemy charter, they drove the truck into their car” I feel her small hand take mine before giving it a little squeeze, she scoots closer to me and rests her head on my shoulder. “She would have loved you” I let out a little laugh, she really would have, she always wanted me to settle with someone that would understand me, that would stay with me through all of my bullshit.
“I doubt it, no one could love a monster” she whispers, I turn to face her and lift her chin up to me “You’re, not a monster, if you’re a monster than I’m satan himself” a small laugh comes from her lips, “Look we all have our own demons, it makes us who we are” she sighs before speaking, “I’ve never killed an innocent before…”. My chest tightens when the tears fall from her eyes, those beautiful ocean eyes.
I wipe her tears away from her cheeks, cupping her face with my hands, her skins so soft compared to my calloused hands. “She was barely innocent Harley, there were a few rumours going around that she would fight the other girls at the clubhouse if they spoke to the man she claimed as hers, I’m also pretty certain she had been stealing bottles of alcohol from the bar” this time she laughs and shakes her head.
We sit in complete silence for another hour or so before we make our way back to the clubhouse, by the time we get back its around 12 am, most people asleep in the spare rooms, some up still drinking light music plays through the speakers, I nod to my men as I make my way up the stairs with Harley, she goes to turn down one of the hallways as I pull her into my chest, “And where do you think youre going baby girl?” She raises an eyebrow at me, “To my room big boy”, she tries to leave my grip but I pull her into me once again.
“I don’t think so, you will be sleeping in my room” she laughs and throws her head back, “And what makes you think I’m going to agree to any of this?” shes questions, seriously testing her luck right now, I quickly turn us around and push her up against the door leading to my room pinning her hands above her head, she wraps her legs around my waist.
I can feel myself growing hard and she hasn’t fucking done anything yet, I leave a trail of kisses and bites starting at her jaw and making my way to the base of her neck and collarbone, small moans fill the air around us as her breathing increases rapidly, “Tell me to stop and to go to my room by myself” I whisper against her skin, watching as it erupts in goosebumps to the sound of my voice.
She says nothing only her deep breathing and soft moans escape her mouth, a smirk spreads across my lips as I bring my face back to hers, “Exactly” I growl into her ear before pushing myself off of the wall to open the door to my room. “Don’t you roll your eyes at me” I say with my back to her, “How did you even know?” She asks, “I know you too well kitten, like the back of my hand. You may think you’re hard to read or interpret but not to me” I smile to myself as we make our way into the room, I close the door behind us and lock it like usual.
“Come on get naked,” I say and she turns to face me, her nose scrunched up and her firsts tightening. “I’m not joking kitten, clothes off we are having a bath” as soon as I said bath her eyes lit up and she smiles, “Guess i can do that, BUT you get to start the bath and add bubbles” I nod and make my way into the bathroom running the bath and of course adding bubble’s, who am I to tell her no? She would probably shoot me.
I turn around to find Harley standing behind me watching me fill the bath up, “What’s wrong kitten?” I ask, she smiles and walks closer to me closing the distance between us. She looks up to me and softly places her hand on my cheek smiling when her skin touches mine, I’ll never get sick of her eyes, the way the different blues and silvers mix together they’re fucking stunning. But when her demons take over they turn almost black, just like her father.
She slides her hands to my shoulders before slowly removing my cut and placing it on the chair in the bathroom, she walks back over to me and lifts my shirt up, I help her undress me before I do the same to her, my fingers slowly graze over her skin tracing her scars. Memorising every single thing about her, I never want to forget.
I slowly take one piece off at a time, first her jumper, then her shirt, her shoes next and then her leggings, leaving both of us in our underwear. Her fingers trace the tattoos on my body as mine do the same to her like she is trying to memorize everything about me too so she doesn’t forget either.
I unhook her bra letting her perfect breasts free, its the first time I’ve ever seen her basically naked, this self-control shit is taking it to the next level, my dick is currently rock hard but I shift my focus back onto her, I won’t push her to do anything, no matter how bad my dick hurts. My fingers trail the lace waistband of her underwear before I hook them around my finger slowly dragging them off, she walks past me and slides into the bath a small blush creeps over her face, I take my boxers off and slide in behind her.
I pull her into me and hold her tightly, my chin resting on top of her head, sounds fucked but i love to smell her, her hair smells of coconut and pineapple, like a tropical oasis. “I’m not a good person Jax” her faint voice breaks the silence, “Neither am i Darlin” her fingers skim across my arms trailing her nails back and forth, “I’m serious” she says and turns around to face me, we stare at each other for a while before i speak.
“To become the president of this MC, I had to turn into the person they needed, a fearless leader, a smart one too. I became mean, cold, a selfish asshole” her big blue eyes stare at me, “I don’t think youre any of that Jax, you’ve never been like that with me” she says taking her hand in my intertwining her fingers with mine. “I am selfish with you” I smirk at her and watch her blush once again.
I don’t know what it is about her blushing, I mean a lot of girls did it when I fucked them or spoke to them but they all made me cringe but when she does it, its the most adorable fucking thing I’ve ever seen, a big badass like her blushing like a schoolgirl and all because of me.
We get out and dry ourselves off before getting into bed, I throw some fresh boxers on while she puts on one of my shirts before joining me, I pull her into my arms ad hold her close, playing with her hair, “You know you’re the first person that I’ve actually wanted to see me naked” I raise an eyebrow and look at her a little shocked, she giggles at my face and nods her head, “Seriously?” I ask her and she laughs again, “Yes Jax, why is it so hard to believe?” She rolls onto her side we are face to face.
“I don’t know, I just didn’t expect it to be me, but I’m happy it is” she leans in and gently plants a kiss on my lips, “Can I go for a ride tomorrow?” She smiles while holding onto my hands, “I’m going to be busy tomorrow, so I’m not sure” she frowns at me, “Why can’t I take someone else?” She questions.
“Because I don’t trust anyone else” I growl a little but she laughs at it, “You really think I won’t be able to protect myself?” She smirks, “Fine who do you want to take?” She thinks for a few seconds before answering, “Gunner” I don’t believe what i just heard “Gunner?” I question her.
“Yep,” she says simply, “Harley youre not taking Gunner” I shake my head at her “Why not?” she frowns at me, “Because I’m afraid you will try to kill him” she laughs and shakes her head. “I pinky promise I won’t kill him” I take my hand out of hers and hold out my pinky, “Pinky promise you wont kill my best friend” she takes her pinky finger and wraps it around mine, “I pinky promise”.
I watch her slowly drift off to sleep in my arms, watching her eyes slowly drift closed, those eyes, I could get lost in them forever and I wouldn’t care. I could drown in them eye day of my life and I wouldn’t want oxygen ever again, those big ocean eyes.