– Harley –
Shelby and I make our way tot he house prospects following closely behind, once we get to the house we race up stares and grab the few things we would need for the next few days. I look over to Shelby and see a frown spread across her face, I don’t know how to cheer her up, I’ve never really been good at emotions and shit so I said what I thought would cheer her up, “We can go shopping tomorrow or the day after” she smiles and turns to face me, “Really? Are you sure they will let us?” she asks quietly.
“Of course, and if Jax says no I’ll make him change his mind don’t you worry” I wink at her as I continue to grab my toiletries, we make our way outside to the prospects. “Someone’s going to have to ride with Shelby on the back, I don’t ride with others, no offence Shelbs” I turn to face her and she smiles and nods her head “None taken girl, wouldn’t want to ride with you either, I don’t have a death wish”.
I chuckle and shake my head before throwing my leg over my bike, Wood instructs the other prospect to take her, I think his names, Angus. He nods and we start our bikes bringing them to life before heading down the road towards the compound.
Wood and I notice we are being followed by three bikes so he instructs Angus to ride ahead with Shelby and that we would meet him back at the clubhouse once we deal with them. As he rode of infront Wood and I got off of our bikes shooting at the others that were riding towards us, hitting their wheels and causing their bikes to slide out from underneath them, skidding along the gravel.
We get back on our bikes before making our way over to them, we drag them into the ditch on the side of the road slitting their throats before dumping the bikes on top of them, Wood and I walk backwards until I deem it to be somewhat a safe distance before I shoot the gas tank of one of the bikes sending them up in a big ball of fire, beautiful.
We get back on our bikes and ride towards the compound, as we pull up I notice the increased amount of brothers around the perimeter of the compound, on the roofs and stationed out the front. I pull up my bike and get off earning a few sideways glances from the members that I have not met nor seen before and the rotters that are hanging off of them like a fly to shit.
“Shit seems pretty serious” I say turning to wood as he takes off his helmet and gloves before turning his attention to me, “You could say that, don’t expect to go anywhere without a guard until all this dies down, if anything happens to you Jax will set fire to the country” I nod and smile before he heads inside, I stand out the front a little longer taking my time to look at everything, some kids play outside on a playground with some older women, I can only assume they belong to some of the older members here.
I make my way inside the place is completely packed, people drinking and smoking, some dancing, some talking shit. Some people look at me with small grins on there faces, I look down at myself to see me covered from head to toe in blood and dirt, I probably look like I’ve just crawled out of a slasher film, I chuckle to myself before I allow my eyes to roam around the room until i see Jaxs face.
He looks worried or stressed so I give him a reassuring smile, He starts to make his way over to me as i return my attention back to the people infront of me, but there’s one that catches my eyes, i can’t see his face only the back of him but something looks familiar. Before I notice what’s going on he turns to face me and the blood drains from my face as does his, the once loud room falls silent and the only thing i can hear is my heartbeat pounding through my chest.
His hairs the same colour as my natural hair, his face similar to Matthews, almost identical. And then those eyes, the exact same as mine and my brothers, there’s no mistake that this man is my father. But he died all those years ago, I close my eyes tightly before opening them again, maybe my brains playing some cruel trick on me.
He can’t be here, he’s dead, isn’t he? Did Matthew know the whole time? Why didn’t he come for me? Why did he leave in the first place? Did my mother know he wasn’t dead? A million questions run through my head at once. I watch his every move, once I get a better look at him there’s no denying it, that man is my father, my blood runs cold.
He takes one step towards me dropping his hands to the side dropping his beer bottle he was also holding. I’m too scared to move, in case this isn’t real and he vanishes, my breathing increases again the more I stare at him. My hands begin to shake and twitch the more this sets into my mind, the more it becomes real, as a tidal wave of mixed emotions comes crashing over me sending me into a full-blown panic attack
I see Jax in the corner of my eye as I keep my main focus on the man infront of me, Jax had stopped a little bit next to me leaving some space between us, guess he’s learnt well, his eyes watch my hands and my body language, he knows im going to explode any second. Like a landmine, one wrong step and this place will be blown to shit.
I slide my hand over my pocket knife touching the cool metal and calming down at the touch. He must have known about what Brett was doing to me? Why didn’t he take me with him? Why? Why didn’t neither of them fucking rescue me?
A thousand more questions run through my brain but they all come to a stop as soon as he speaks.
“Princess?” His voice spills out, he drags the word out slightly, I can hear the emotion in his voice as it slight cracks when he speaks the one word, he’s trying to hold back. Tears fall freely down my blood-stained cheeks.
“Daddy?” I whisper.
“Is it really you?” I question still believing it’s not real and that my mind was playing a cruel joke on me, he takes one more step towards me. I still standstill, I don’t dare to move, even if i did my body was glued to the spot. “It’s me, princess,” He says the name again and a flood of memories swarm into my brain that I thought I had forgotten about. Dad and I at the park chasing butterflies, dad riding his bike with me in between his legs, our usual Sunday lunch date down by the water feeding the seagulls.
My body begins to shut down, I look beside me and see Jax and Matthew standing there, “You knew?” I scream at Matthew, he takes a step towards me and I take one backwards away from him, “Davey please, let both of us explain” He takes another step towards me as i move one step back, the more I move away from him the more hurt he looks, oh well.
“Explain what? How you neglected to tell me that our father wasn’t dead at all and that you fucking knew all this time?!” I look back over my father, “And you? You left me and him behind, you were supposed to be the man of the family, you were supposed to be the leader of the pack, you were supposed to save us, to save me!” I scream the last part and finally I turn to Jax.
“And I don’t know what hurts more, the fact that my so-called brother hid this from me, or you. You had every chance to fucking tell me over the past 2 months and not once did it slip your mind huh? Is that why you keep trying to keep me around here? Were you just helping him?” I point at my father, he takes another step towards me and i put my hands up, “Don’t, just don’t” I turn around and make my way outside walking towards the gates of the compound.
“Yeah that’s right slut, keep walking out. Happy you finally got the idea that no one wants your psycho ass around here” some rotter yell’s out and i stop dead in my tracks, all common sense has left my body as I turn around to face her, she’s got frizzy blonde hair that seems to be dead by how many times shes bleached it, caked-on makeup, short skimpy outfit that covers nothing, stick-thin too, yuck she looks like a fucking rat, I’ve never seen this bitch before so fucked if I know what her damn problem is.
“What? Upset because the pres doesn’t want you anymore?” She grins after she says it, I slowly take a step towards her as she keeps going, this bitch doesn’t know who she’s messing with, an evil smile comes across my lips. “Or is it that you brother thinks your a freak, oh what about your dad I’m guessing that’s why he walked out on you he didn’t want a psychopath for a daughter”, one of the men next to her try to warn her to shut her filthy mouth but she keeps running it, good I need a new play toy.
I take another step covering the distance between us still with a smile on my face, the walking slowly becomes skipping, one of the bikers tries to shut her up again but she keeps yapping her mouth like an annoying fucking dog. “Or is it that your daddy never loved you, never wanted you, is that it?” I look over her shoulder to see almost everyone inside now standing outside, time to put on a show, I’m now standing inches away from her.
“Don’t worry Hunny, I’ll take care of all of them for you” she winks at me and my ears start ringing, one of the men grabs my arm dragging me away from her trying to hold me back, I elbow his nose breaking it instantly as i make my way back to her, another one tries to grab me but I punch them in the throat still marching towards her, one more man stands in the way of us he walks towards me and I kick his legs out from underneath him and pistol whip him knocking him out.
I grab ahold of the bitch by her hair and drag her into the middle of the yeard, I throw her to the ground as I lay into her face, her nose crunching under my fists only edging me on more, she screams underneath me begging me to stop but I’m not human anymore, my demons have all the control and nothing will stop them from getting what they want.
I roll her over onto her stomach grab a handful of her hair before smashing her face into the ground beneath us before I lean my knee into her lower back pulling her head back so she can see my face, “Y-your eyes” she whispers before I take my blade out and slice her throat from ear to ear dropping her head before getting off of her, everyone’s still standing out the front watching me “WHAT” I scream and they all turn around before making there way back inside, someone touches my arms and I throw my elbow back but its caught by someone.
I turn to see jax who immediately pulls me into him as he hugs me tightly, my demons still looking for blood I don’t return the hug, I just stand slightly trembling while I still have the blade in my hands, he lifts my chin up to his eyes meet mine and his face looks confused, “Your eyes” he whispers, i have no idea what hes talking about so I close them tightly.
The voices in my head scream for more blood to be spilled, I shake my head to get the thoughts away, I won’t hurt him, I can’t hurt him. I drop the pocket knife and wrap my arms around his waist holding him tightly, I don’t know how long we stood there for but eventually, my breathing was back to normal and when i turned my head the rotter’s body has been removed and cleaned up.
“Let’s get you cleaned and then I want you to talk to your dad, just hear him out,” I say nothing but I make my way inside, Jax takes his hand in mine and he leads me into his room. “Bathrooms over there, grab some of my shit to wear and then make your way downstairs” I nod saying nothing and get into the shower. I let cold water run over my body attempting to cool myself down, I wash the blood off of me and get out grabbing one of Jax’s shirts to throw over myself, luckily it was 4 times too big for me so it sat comfortably on my tighs, I go through his draws and pull out a pair of his boxers, I put them on and use a hair tie to tighten them so they wouldn’t fall down.
I make my way downstairs, all eyes turn to me before I make my way over behind the bar grabbing a bottle of whiskey, Matthew comes up to me and I wave him off before he speaks, Jax walks over and pulls me into his embrace “Do you want me to be there?” I nod my head, he looks down to me and kisses me passionately, “Let’s get over there then, I’ll take you out for a ride if you want to afterwards to get out of the clubhouse” I nod before taking a few mouthfuls from the bottle, I kiss him on his cheek and we make my way over to my father and brother who are both sitting at a table in one of the corners of the room.
I sit down across from them Jax by my side and take another swig from the bottle before pulling a joint out of my cigarette packet, “I’m not here to fuck spiders, start talking already” I say as I light my joint waiting for one fo them to speak. My father speaks first, “Brett is in some dirty business, runs a few prostitution rings around the country when he met your mother she told me she didn’t love me anymore and that she was in love with him” I watch his face change slightly, his eyes slowly lose colour as his pupils dilate taking up most of his iris causing him to look like he has pitch-black eyes. “He used to be in dirty buisness” I corrected him with a smirk on my face as I remember how I tortured the bastard.
“I didn’t believe her I fought for her, I fought for our relationship but she had made her mind up. Brett came over the day I was moving out and threatened me saying if I didn’t disappear forever that you and Matthew would be sold as sex slaves, I couldn’t let him hurt you’s so I faked my death and left, as you know a few years later Matthew left, because I had contacted him and asked him if he wanted to come and live with me, I couldn’t get you because you were his favourite, I knew he wouldn’t care if Matthew left, but I knew if you did you would have been in even more danger, I couldn’t let him hurt you” my anger overcomes me with the last 6 words he spoke, i couldn’t let him hurt you.
I slam my fist into the table, “You couldn’t let him hurt me?! Did Matthew even tell you what that fucking bastard did to me!” He looks over to Matthew confused and then faced me again, “No he never said anything” I scoffed and laughed crossing my arms over my chest, “Of course not, wasn’t worth it was i matt?” I look over to him, “It wasn’t like that Davey, I couldn’t tell dad, I knew it would kill him”, I shake my head as my father continues, “The day I came back to find you, you were already gone, I tried finding you but I couldn’t, I’m sorry I failed you, princess”.
I stand up from the table and look at both of them, “I need time” I go to walk away but stop and turn my head over my shoulder, “Oh and matt, why don’t you tell dad exactly what happened to me, don’t leave any details out either”I turn around the half-empty bottle in my hand as I walk outside to my bike getting on instantly.