Camila laughs still looking at me with curiosity. “Come on Thea, what is it? That look wasn’t just nothing.”
“You’ve been using pills right?” Camila paused then laughed in disbelieve.
“Are you suggesting I’m pregnant right now?”
“You never know.”
“I use pills.”
“Even on your free period?” I countered and she remained quiet for a moment. I could tell that she was thinking about it.
“Uhh… We… Did.” She said sounding unsure.
“Camila?” She shakes her head as if to shake out the thoughts that were swarming into it.
“Caspian and I were not… I mean sometimes, I think we didn’t use pills and I wasn’t sure if he pulled out.”
“Camila?”
“What? It was just this one time before we went to the penthouse. I did take pills but it was a little late.” She is as confused as fuck! “I really don’t know Thea…. it was just that one time and the pills does delay my period sometimes.” She said looking nervous.
“Sounds familiar. I thought the same too when I got pregnant with Angel’s baby.”
Camila seemed speechless for a moment and her eyes looked scared but then she laughs uneasily. “Come on Thea don’t do that to me.”
“I’m not doing anything that isn’t helping you out.”
“You’re getting my hopes high.” I pause wondering what she meant by getting her hopes high.
“Do you want to have kids now?”
Camila shrugs pinning her lips together. “I mean, it’s not a really bad idea.” She said but then sighed in frustration. “I don’t know what to think Thea.”
“I don’t know if you’ve been like this other days but you’ve been acting dull today and now tender breast?”
“It’s the period… I’ve been having pre period cramps so it’s definitely it.” She said and I didn’t want to argue.
“Okay….”
“Any other symptoms I should watch out for?” She asked seeing that I didn’t drag on.
“Nausea?”
“No, none at all.” She said and I’m having a headache trying to solve this situation. The best way was to run a test and save ourselves the stress of figuring it out.
“I had that a lot during my time.”
“Then I guess it’s just my period cause I haven’t felt that nauseous.”
“Who knows, we can’t really say for certain. People’s body and symptoms differ.”
“Thea?” She called expressing her frustration. I guess I was getting her hopes high and shattering it at the same time.
“We can’t know for sure except we have Florentine run a test.”
“No, we are not telling her.”
“Why not?”
“If the symptoms persist then….
“You’re nervous Camila.” I said holding her shoulder gently hoping she’d feel calm.
“It’s scary and exciting at the same time Thea. I’m not ready for such pressure on my emotions.” I understood her and didn’t want to convince her to run one anymore. I believed if the symptoms persisted then she would have no choice than to have a test.
Florentine and camila had gone to freshen up and the others had been informed to gather at the house Theatre room to watch a movie.
Mike was invited as well. I wanted to invite carl but I felt Florentine would feel uncomfortable. I looked at Camila where she sat with Caspian and thought about what we discussed earlier. She and caspian looked so happy and I hoped that the news of a child would make them happier.
Only if Camila was really expecting. I looked at Angel who in turn locked eyes with me. I forced a smile and returned my gaze back to the movie.
Angel wanted children too but I was afraid. Especially after losing our first child. I didn’t want to go through the pain of losing another.
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By the end of the movie there were some left over cookies. Florentine had been present with the rest but carl was stuck in her mind all through. She was hoping Thea would invite Carl. She thought things would be less awkward after he joined in the weekend’s game last time. She went to her room but her feet had been itching her to go to his room. She didn’t want to think about the reason she was craving to see him, she just wanted to go over to his room and hand him some cookies… Although the cookies were just an excuse to see him.
The door to Carl’s room opened and Florentine startled a bit seeing him. She unconsciously looked behind his back searching to see if he had company. Carl noticed and he chuckled amusingly drawing her attention back to him. She feels embarrassed knowing he caught her.
“What were you searching for?” He asks folding his hand across his chest as he stared down on her.
“Nothing.”
“Okay….” He says and holds the door frame leaning further to her.
She gulps hard and avoids his eyes. Her hands are a bit shaky and Carl noticed that she was nervous. He steps out and holds the package touching her hand in the process. She immediately feels sensual chills and withdraws her hands from the plate but carl holds the plate with one hand and held one of her hand with the other.
She startled feeling shocked.
“It’s okay, I just wanted to say thank you for this. It’s for me right?”
“You already took it so…” She said still avoiding his gaze. He slowly let’s go of her hand but then moves closer and touches her chin
“Carl….” She calls as her lips quiver.
“I missed you.” He said surprising her. They had not had a proper meeting since that night they strolled together or maybe she was avoiding him.
He didn’t know just how much he missed her untill she was standing right in front of him.
He had not been able to get his mind off her since that night. He couldn’t even believe he just said those words but he meant it and letting go of her hand seemed to be the hardest thing he had done in a very long time.
“I should be going now.” She said and left without waiting for him to say anything else while he stood there watching her. Florentine got to her room and exhaled deeply as if she had been holding back her breath for long.
Her entire body filled with chills as Carl’s words kept playing in her head. The words” I missed you.” They lingered and made her heart explode with feelings she refused to admit.
She was just trying to be inclusive because she felt bad for him that was why she went to hand the cookies to him in his room. That was the lie she made up in her head but it didn’t work.
Deep down she knew she had feelings for Carl.