“It really has always been my dream.” I agreed with him.
“The path of life you’ve always wanted.” He rested his elbows on the edge of the ship and folded his arms across his chest.
“Yeah. It has.” I nodded with a long sigh. “Wendy is the reason we are here. I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for her. It would look cruel to be the happiest wolf here. You know, with everything going on, I should compose my excitement.” I reasoned. “I’m grateful to her. That’s all I know for now.” My smile widened at the thought of Wendy and how she giggles when she is excited about something.
“You should be. After all, she made your dream come true. Even though she didn’t exactly come to the outside world because of you.” He moved away from the edge and turned his back to it. Gazed up at the sky and bent backwards as his waving hair faced the sea.
There were a lot of questions I wanted to ask him. Lot of things I wished to discuss with him. How does he know Sihwa? Why didn’t he ever tell me he had a sister?
Why did he and his family move to the Twilight Springs? How does he truly feel about me as his mate?
And many more questions.
But I was afraid to start up the topic and make things awkward between us. There was so much about Larcade that I don’t know. I thought I knew everything about him.
“Let’s go separate ways as soon as we are back.”
My face darted to his blank gaze at the bright blue sky. I clenched the hem of the blanket with a shocking heart.
What did he just say to me? Did I hear that right? Let’s go separate ways as soon as we are back?
I asked, with a lump in my throat. “What do you mean?”
“Sihwa knows where my sister is.” He began. “He’s the only one who knows where I can find her. I’ve yearned for this moment to happen for a long time. I couldn’t come to the outside world because my parents were worried about me. They didn’t want to let me out of their sight. Until my father got murdered by Sihwa. That ended it all. My mother clung to me until her death. I lived with my aunt and uncle for years in the Twilight Springs, waiting for this day. Wendy gave me an opportunity to prove to my parents the type of alpha I have become in their grave.”
Where was all this coming from?
“What are you talking about?” I couldn’t say anything more than that.
“I know you’ve always loved me, Courtney, and I felt the same way, too.”
I almost shouted at him, but I held back. My trembling lips emptied my words. My mouth got stuck. I couldn’t say anything. I wanted to scream and tell him he never loved me.
To stop lying to me and tell me the fucking truth about his feelings for Wendy. Instead, I tightened my fist on the hem of my blanket.
“I was happy to find out you were my mate. It’s beyond what you think but…” he paused. “I want us to go for what would make us happy.”
“What would make us happy?” I whispered. “What are you even saying?”
He stood up properly and walked past me, then stopped, without looking back, without taking a glance at me. “Let’s talk later, Courtney. This is your first trip to the outside world. I don’t want to ruin it and make it the worst day of your life.”
He walked.
“Are you planning on ending our relationship, Larcade?” I asked, barely able to hide the ache in my voice. What’s he hinting at? Why was he explaining himself to me? I don’t get it.
I have loved him for years. He knows. Why does he want to hurt me so badly? Does he intend to reject me? I had the impression he was trying to make us work.
“I told you.” He calmly spoke. “I don’t want to ruin your first day in the outside world. Let’s talk about this later.”
“We are not talking about anything later.” I retorted. “We are doing this now. If you wanted to talk about anything later, you wouldn’t have brought up the conversation talking about going separate ways.”
“Courtney.” His back facing me. “Don’t wake the others up. It’s a frosty night.”
“I don’t care.” I took a few steps. My heart was pounding at the worst that was about to transform into my life at this second. “Whatever you got to say, say it now.”
“Courtney.”
“I’m sad, anyway. You already ruined my first day in the outside world. If you didn’t want to ruin it, you would have…have…” my eyes welled. “You would have waited.” My hands clenched. “But you didn’t.” I slowly added.
He exhaled, his shoulders slumping, and turned to me. “You are always so impatient and annoying. You do things your own way without considering how the other person would feel.” He faced the sky and then at me. “You have the worst behavior I could ever ask for.”
~ Gerhard’s Pov ~
I can feel it.
I can feel the bond. The red bite marks on her nape connecting us to each other like a circle.
Her tears. Sorrow. Her aching heart and her troubled thoughts of coming back to the clan.
The bond I’ve been suffering from for years. The agony and scar it has caused me was coming back to the clan.
I know she is coming back. She knows we know of her coming back to the clan.
SHE IS FUCKING COMING BACK.
Why is she coming back after four years of disappearance? Could it be that she couldn’t tolerate the pain of the bond anymore and changed her mind to return?
I thought she was tough, gone for good and determined to never set foot in our world again. Why is she coming back after what she has gone through from us?
Was she nuts? I thought she had disappeared. Why the hell is she coming back? This is grating on my nerves. I feel like pulling my hair off.
Did Sihwa lure her out for her to come back? I don’t get it. He should be the one to lure her out because of how crafty he is.
Why would she come back to this family of filth?
“Gerard.” Donovan called me and wrapped his arms around my waist. “What are you thinking so deeply about?” He licked my left ear and slid his right fingertips up my right nipple.
“You can feel it, don’t you?” I questioned, staring at the view of the city inside the luxurious hotel we booked.
He drew a lazy sigh and pulled away from me. He went back to the white bed and sat down on it and his left leg majestically crossed on the other.
“What’s the matter?” I turned to him with a sharp look. “What are you thinking about?”