Chapter 114: Get your girl!
Alexander’s POV
As I stood at the door, alone calling out to her, I knew in my heart that she wouldn’t come back, but I had to try. Her scent lingered in the air and it felt like she was still her but the absence of her beautiful face a reminder.
I sighed and took a seat on the front porch. The neighborhood was quiet and empty, people were barely up, except a few like Lily and I but you wouldn’t know that because the streets were empty. Exactly how I feel inside… empty.
Empty without my Lily, without her in my arms. Few minutes ago when I was buried deep inside her, I felt like I had it all, I felt full and complete but now all my hopes and dreams are shattered.
It breaks my heart that she runs away from me, that she doesn’t want me in her life and that is my earnest desire… to have her to myself. I want to be in her life forever, grow old with her and watch our kids grow.
These past few months has been the worst for me, I must confess. I might act like I’m okay but deep down it’s a disaster. A lot had happened and I’m not quite sure how to react or feel about most of the situations. It was all quite a lot.
When my Lily was kidnapped, it was a horrible night mare for me. I had horrible dreams of terrible things that could possible happen to her or the children.
I had finally gotten to her but then all the things that were revealed to Lily about her family was heart wrenching. I saw the pain in her eyes as she watched all of them that day. I wish I could take it all away from her. I didn’t want her to suffer any kind of pain.
I know that up until now she still carried some of that hurt and pain but I’m glad they’re all gone. I’m glad that I also removed that witch of her sister Rena from her life permanently, I never liked her. I always felt like there was off about her. Although I killed her in the course of self defense, I’m glad I did it. She was an undetected menace.
Concerning the truth about her father, it came as a shocker. I would have never guessed. Although even I would have never guessed that Daniel wasn’t my real father. Irrespective of the fact that I knew he never loved me, I still didn’t think he wasn’t my father but here we are.
I was truly a Dankworth, but my father was dead. Dead and gone. In all honesty, it hurt me. It hurt me that I never got to know him or see his face, to be able to experience that pure fatherly love. I would never get that and it hurts me.
Everything was a mystery and I just wonder how everyone had moved around carrying huge secrets within them.
Well, who was I to judge. I too had killed somebody. Not just any person, but my dear Lily’s mother. I wouldn’t say that before I knew that it was Lily’s mother that I had killed, I felt any remorse because I didn’t, but now that I know everything surrounding the life of that woman I murdered years ago, I wish I could take it all back. Day and night I think about my actions and regret them.
I wish I never involved myself with my parent’s problems or felt like I had to revenge Daisy in that way. Now look where it got me. Lily was still Herat broken about her mother and whenever she looked at me, I’m sure he would loathe me.
I really wish I could go back in time and make things but alas, it was not possible. I only hoped she would find a place in her heart to forgive me. Maybe not completely yet e abuse it was her mother we were talking about here but at least a chance for me to be in the children’s life try to make things right a bit.
I know that the reason she suffered so much especially in the hands of Chase and the rest of the family was because her mother was no longer alive, and that was my fault.
The only way I could atone for my sun truly was to do right by her, not because I have to but because I want to. I have to treat her right, make her feel all the love that have been deprived of her, treat her like the princess that she is.
Al these and more I desire to do for her only if she would give me a chance. I swear to do everything within my power to keep her happy.
I was done hiding my feelings and making everything complicated when it wasn’t. I had to be a man now and own up to my feelings. The only problem was how to get hee audience.
I sighed and placed a knock on the door again, calling o it to hee softly but there was no response. I’m continued for a while until I decided to take my shameless ass to work.
i drove back home, took a shower and made my way to work. It had been the only thing keeping me sane. It helped me to forget everything , just a for a little while.
In that moment while I worked, my mind was focused on the task at hand, blueing everything else. Although Lily was a constant on my mind, it seemed my work just thought about good times with her, it always suppresses the fact that we were not together. It was strange but I was thankful for it.
I got to work in record time and buried myself in a pile load. I could have easily shared some of this work to my employees but I was glad for the distraction.
I think I had been working for a few hours when a soft knock was placed on the door. “Come in”. I called out with my nose in a file in front of me.
“Someone is here to see you sir.” My secretary said.
“I don’t want to see anyone.” I said in a cold tone with my eyes still in the file.
“Please move away darling!”. I heard a familiar thick voice and I quickly snapped my head to the door.
“He said…” My secretary tried to the stop the person but it was obvious that she didn’t stand a chance.
“Alex my man.” He called out cutting her shut and making his way into my office.
“I’m sorry Sir, he ..” She tried to explain but I just let her go.
“It’s alright.” I waved her off. I knew she couldn’t stop him. She looked afraid and nervous, that was expected because who wouldn’t be. I would be concerned if she wasn’t.
“What’s up Man!”. He said with a loud chuckle as he took a seat.
“Pablo!.” I said in a firm tone eyeing him. “To what do I owe this pleasure .” I said with sarcasm dripping off my tone.
“Let’s see, hmm?”. He held his chin with his large hands pretending to be deep in thought. “The fact that you haven’t seen me in a minute and I know that you miss me.!” He finished with a nod.
I rolled my eyes at him. ” of course.”
“Don’t deny it. I know you do.” He said with an awful wink. “I know that your ego wouldn’t let you come to me first so I decided to help you out.
“You must be out of your mind!”. I said with a dry chuckle. “Why exactly are you here Pablo, I know you didn’t come all this way for this.” I snapped.
“I just wanted to check on you honestly.” He pressed.
“Well as you can see I’m good.” I said with a wave of my hand.
“Of course you are.” He rolled his eyes. “I’m sure this is all you do all day now.” He said gesturing to my full table.
“And how does that affect you?”. I asked with irritation with raised brows.
“I want you to be happy my love.” He said with a wide smile.
“Don’t be a fool!.” I said eyeing him with a stinky eye. I don’t know why he was being weird but it was making me uncomfortable.
“Relax.” He said bursting into a fit of laughter. “But honestly, are you doing okay?.” He said in a serious tone now.
“I’m fine.” I said with a cold expression. I wasn’t one to lament and tell stories when in true fact there was nothing he could do to help me out.
“You’re not. Even a blind man can see through you.” He said watching me closely. “I know the situation with Lily and I can see how hard it has been for you, so you’re not okay.”
“We’ll Mr. know it all, what are you hoping to do about it Huh!?”. I blew up raising my voice.
“Calm down Alex”. He said softly. “I didn’t mean it like that. I’m sorry. I’m just trying to help out and be a friend or whatever you need now.” He added.
My expression softened a bit and immediately I felt terrible for blowing out on him like that. “It’s alright.” I said in a calmer tone. “I’m sorry, I just… , I don’t know anymore. I don’t know what to do. Everything just moved so fast, one minute I had her in my arms and the next she was gone.”
“So many things were revealed and it appears that she may come back to me and I can’t have that. I don’t know what I would do without her. I don’t know what life I would have without her.” I cried.
“Wow, you really love her don’t you?”. He said softly.
“Duh?”. I rolled my eyes.
“I’m sorry.” He laughed. “But why don’t you try telling her all these. If you do from your heart, I’m sure she would give you a chance. I’m sure, Lily is a nice girl.” He said with certainty in his eyes.
“Of course she’s a nice girl, but what if I’m taking advantage of her kindness. I mean what I did shouldn’t be forgiven right?.” I said with panicked eyes.
“Don’t be ridiculous!”. He waved me off.
“I’m serious!”. I yelled. “And don’t you think I’ve tried telling her how I truly feel and how sorry I am?”.
“Wow, this is even more serious than I thought!”. He sighed rubbing his bald head.
“She wouldn’t even hear me out. Always running away from me.” I sighed.
“Maybe because you’re going about it the wrong way.” He stated. “Have. You thought about that?.”
“I don’t understand.” I said with curiosity, giving him my full and absolute attention.
“Have you tried doing a grand gesture?”. He asked with raised brows.
“A grand gesture?.” I asked with confusion etched on my face.
“Yeah, chicks love that.” He shrugged.
“Chicks?”. I eyed him.
“Sorry, women like that.” He said adjusting himself.
“Right, look at you giving me lessons.” I rolled my eyes.
“I’m serious. You just have to do some beyond the ordinary and usual, something that she would like, something that would mean slot to her and instantly melt her heart.” He explained.
I rubbed my chin absorbing what he said and as time went by, it began to make sense. Why hadn’t I thought of that. It wasn’t full proof but it was worth trying.
“You’re right!.” I said with a wide smile jumping off my seat.
“I know.” He shrugged with a wide smile.
“I have to go and make preparations now. Thank you man!.” I said rushing out of the office.
“Anytime!” He called out.
I had to get my girl. I would do anything to have her with me.
I knew just how to get her out of her house but I just had to think of this ‘grand gesture’. It had to be superb.
Whatever I was doing had to be great and it had to be today. I didn’t have much time on my hands so I had to act fast.