Chapter 98: what do you believe?
Lily’s POV
“Well firstly, I’m glad the baby is doing fine.” She flashed a twisted smile at me before continuing. “And he won’t kill you until the child is born, courtesy of me.!” She said in a sing song voice.
“What!!?”. I screamed out. “W… what do you mean?. Courtesy of you??” I spluttered out. I did not understand what she meant by that or maybe I refused to understand.
“Please eat.” She smiled and spoon fed me some fruits which I willing opened my mouth and accepted them, not like I could refuse her. There was something strange and twisted about her. I just couldn’t understand anything now.
She placed the spoon down and straightened her dress. “I mean that Chase will kill you, after you have the child.” She said in a low tone.
“Why, I don’t understand . What does he want with my baby!?”. I asked in panic, holding my belly tightly.
“Oh Lily.” She sighed. “Always so naive and silly.” She said through gritted teeth. ” it’s not about Chase, it’s about me. It’s about what I want with ‘My’ baby.” She said with a sinister chuckle.
“Your baby ?!!” I yelled. “I don’t understand you.” I said narrowing my eyes at her.
“Slow and dumb as always.” She shook her head and sighed. “In Lay man’s terms, I’m going to take the child when it’s born.” She said with a wide grin like she had just shared the best news to me.
My eyes widened. “This is my child. I am carrying this child and it’s mine. What do you want?!” I screamed as tears pooled from my eyes.
I just couldn’t believe what was going on. These past few days just feels like a terrible nightmare. Rena was my only sister and the only person I believed was sane and a probably a good person, despite the fact that she didn’t try to save me from Chase. But I figured it’s because she just wanted to mind her lane and not interfere with anybody’s business. That was the Rena I knew.
But now, everything seemed strange. Could it be that this was her true self all along and I was only just seeing it.
No, it couldn’t be…
“Screaming won’t save you now, it would only stress my child. Quit doing that.” She snapped at me. “Once that child is born, I’m taking it and there’s nothing you can do to stop me because you’ll be dead by then.” She chuckled darkly.
I just stared at her in shock, as tears continued to flow endlessly from my eyes. ” I don’t believe you Rena.” I said quietly, my delusion getting the best of me.
She scoffed. “Believe what you want, I don’t care. Only time will tell.” She laughed as she pooped a cherry into her mouth. “Why else would I send you meals or why do you think Chase has not killed you already.” She said with raised brows. “Learn to think for once.” She said eyeing me with disgust.
For once, I listened and thought about everything. She was right. Perhaps this was the motive I had been trying to figure out for days. It all made sense now.
The only reason I was still alive was because of Rena. Not because she was trying to protect me as her younger sister or for any just cause, but because she wanted to take my baby away from me.
I let out a loud cry as the realization of everything dawned on me. “But why?.” I cried. “why would you do that to me?.”
“Why?.” She snapped as her face twisted into a scowl. “You dare ask why?.” She scoffed. “The real question is how could I not!. All my life, I’ve been hidden behind your shadow. It’s was always about you Lily. Always you. My mother loved you more than me, father also and even gave you to the Dankworths instead of me, his oldest daughter.” She said with a scowl.
“Everyone always favored and loved you, even when you are nothing. I even got a medical degree but still, I was nothing compared to you!!!!” She cried out with tears pulling harshly from her eyes.
“Rena!!!”. I cried. I never thought she saw things this way. I had always envied her for how smart she was, how it seemed like she had everything in control without needing help from anyone and everything else she has achieved. Never would I have thought that the great Rena wanted to me, even when I was nothing, like she said.
It’s a strange world indeed…
“Shut up!!.” She snapped. “You’re nothing but a used rag but still Alex loves you and now you want to have his baby, when I can’t even bear children?!!, Never!!!. Never!!.” She let out a loud cry.
My eyes widened in shock at her revelation. I never knew that she hated me that much. It was very strange and hard for me to process yet my heart softened at the heart wrenching information she had just shared. “You can’t ask children?. How is that possible?.” I asked softly before my brain could have time to process.
She stared at me for while contemplating if she should share with me or not before shrugging her shoulders. “I found out some months ago that I was pregnant for my supposed boyfriend .” She sniffed. “I was so happy, beyond elated. I felt like finally, I could be somewhat equal with you. I have something that you have.” She smiled but her eyes were dark and gloomy. “Excitedly I broke the news to my boyfriend, whom I believed was in love with me as much as I loved him.”
She sighed and shook her head in dismay. “To my surprise, he wasn’t as thrilled as I expected, and almost immediately he asked me to get rid of the child.” I gasped as I knew exactly how it felt for someone to not feel as excited as you are for a child you both created. Although I did not know the feelings she felt when he asked for an abortion.
“I refused of course. This was my opportunity to finally feel whole, to know that you’re just a human and I could have anything you have.” She sneered. “Of course, he didn’t accept my decision, claiming it wasn’t the right time and all but now that I think of it carefully, he never loved me.”
“He had the means to take care of me and the child, that aside, there was nothing keeping him back, he already had his whole life in check. He just didn’t want a future with me but I guess it was too hard for him to say.” She sighed.
” I guess you’re right.” I added quietly.
“Yeah. I’m right.” She narrowed her eyes at me. ” After Some weeks of ghosting me, he appeared back into my life and apologized for the way he acted and promised to be with me all the way.” She smiled, her eyes looking distant. “Stupidly I feel for it. One day he drugged me and I woke up in his room tied up.”
“Turns out that he had contacted a doctor to abort the child without my consent. It was after the procedure, I was informed that my womb was ruptured in the process. I was beyond dismayed.” She said sobbing.
“I’m so sorry.” I cried as well. I felt so sorry for her. To think that the Rena that we thought had it all, always calm and collected was going through something as terrible as this.
She cried her eyes out for while before continuing. Her face was red and swollen as she wiped her face with a handkerchief. “True love, I can’t have neither can I have children. All these you have and more when you’ve done absolutely nothing to deserve it!!!”. She screamed in my face.
I let out a squeal as I held myself tightly, shaking uncontrollably.
“”I have to accept it.” She said in a broken voice and lost eyes. “There’s nothing I can do now. I can only utilize this opportunity that has presented itself to be a mother.” She said with a snarl. “Perhaps love may find me some other time but for now, I’ll have this.” She laughed darkly.
“Rena please, there is another way out of this. Please don’t take my baby.!” I begged. I don’t know which one I dreaded the most. The fact that Rena intends to take my child or that I would die after my child is born.
“There is no other way!.” She snapped. “And even if there is, I would still choose this way, so that I can watch you suffer before you die.” She spat out with a menacing look. “You’ve had enough love and enjoyment in this life. You deserve to suffer a little, I’m glad I even let Chase have you then. You deserve nothing but pain, nothing but pain!!.” She screamed.
Enough love?, could I of all persons, claim to received enough love?, considering all I’ve gone through in such a small duration of my life.
What exactly was even enough love?…
“How could you say that?!. How could you even allow someone to molest your little sister. How?!.” I cried out.
She laughed at me. “Has it occurred to you that maybe that’s because I don’t care?!.” She laughed again.
I just stared at her in horror. I tried to tell myself that it wasn’t true, and that at least someone in this wicked world loved me, but the truth was glaring at me, telling me that I had to accept it.
I looked into her eyes, trying to find Rena but I couldn’t. It seems she was gone, or perhaps never there and so I burst into tears. “You’re supposed to be my elder sister. You’re supposed be look out for me. I’m your sister. Your little sister, how could you possibly want for such a thing.” I cried.
“Sister, sister, sister, sister!.” She yelled. “You think you’re my Sister?”. She scoffed. “You’re not my sister!”. She said bitterly.
“What?!”. I spat out. “I’m your little sister, please rethink your decision and save me.” I begged. Why should she say that i wasn’t her sister. She was probably telling herself that to relieve her conscience of her actions but I had to remind her that she was my only sister.
I had always looked up to Rena. When our mother died, she was like a mother to me m, in my head. I loved her, and I believed she did the same.
So all these was a joke right?…
Howbeit, the next thing i heard scooped me out of my delusional world and kept me in the thin line. I was in the middle between the real facts and my delusions, perhaps because I wanted to hold on to the reality I had always known. “It seems you’re not listening, you’re not my daughter Lily. ” The familiar voice of my father resonated in the room. I didn’t realize when the door opened, revealing my father my and chase.
My breath hitched as I came face to face with them. This was a terrible nightmare that I desperately need to wake up from.
What the hell was going…