Alexandra’s POV
When I got the information that Lily was out driving around with Mr. Mark, I ordered him to report back to me of their every movement. I had even requested for some pictures and god! My wife was beautiful.
I guess it’s safe to say that those pictures slowed my down today from working. Lily was just like that. She had a way of drawing everyone’s attention to her like a magnetic pull and keeping that attention on her effortlessly. It seemed like voodoo.
I had just reluctantly dropped down my phone after hours of drooling over a photo of my wife shopping cute baby wears. She looked so adorable just standing in that shop. I was bit sad that she did not think of inviting me to shop with her for our baby but I realized it went both ways.
If Lily did not invite me to go shopping with her then why didn’t I or why didn’t I offer to take her shopping, it was our baby at the end of the day.
I got pushed out of my thought when my phone pinged again, indicating that I received another photo from Mr. Mark. I almost broke my legs running to check it out immediately. I couldn’t get enough of seeing her adorable face and her very hot body.
To my surprise, it wasn’t just a photo of my wife but there was someone else with her. My smile dropped immediately, replaced with an ugly scowl on my face.
My body itched with jealousy and before my brain could think or react in a calculated manner, I was already out of my office, in my black Mercedes speeding off to her location.
I had managed to get the leach off my wife’s skin without killing it and was finally able to smile and spend time with her.
Everything had been going well so far and we had just shared a kiss and it was refreshing. it was exhilarating to feel her soft and plump lips again.
I recalled the softness of her skin, the gentle pressure of her lips, and the sweet taste of her mouth. As I relived the moment, my heart swelled with emotion. I remember the way her eyes locked onto mine, sparkling with desire and curiosity. The way she melted into the kiss, giving me full control of her.
I feel a pang of longing, a deep yearning to relive that moment, to taste her lips once more. My mind wandered to the countless kisses we had shared in the past, each one a thread in the intricate tapestry of our strange love.
But it hurt my heart that Lily does not remember any of that. She foes not remember any of the sacred moments we had shared together and those memories only live with me..
It had been a really long time since we got intimate because Lily had been really closed off because she claimed to have lost her memory and all.
It’s not like I don’t believe her or anything but I just had a hunch and the stories were not checking out. She acted like ‘loosing her memory’ made her forget her love for me but I see a different thing in her eyes. So many other things that she did and said were a contrast to what I truly saw within her. Perhaps this was why I was reluctant to try to get her to remember everything.
I just had to know this truth so we could move on from this. If truly she did hen I suppose hence I would dedicate my days to helping her remember and if she doesn’t then we would create new ones.
“Well, are you going to say something?”. I asked again when I realized that she had been staring into space for so long.
I had been watching to get a reaction from her and as much as she tried to conceal it, I knew Lily more than she knew herself. The way she acted so nervous about the question made me even more nervous about her answer. Despite the fact the I wanted to know the truth, I was still scared.
In one stance, I wanted her to tell me that remembers us and everything. I desperately wanted everything to be good again for us. But on the other hand, I don’t think I would ever be able to look Lily in the face again or believe whatever she says. I don’t think I would be able to take such deceit and betrayal from her. It would kill me.
I watched as she swept her tongue across her pink lips and swallowed. “What was your question again?”. She straightened up, putting up a brave stance.
She was definitely playing with me and my anxiety was eating at me to know the truth so forgive me if I didn’t have it in me to play twenty questions. “I asked if you truly lost your memory or some parts of it as you said or acted like in the hospital then.” I said with a stern look. She needed to take this as seriously as I did.
“Okay, that’s a good question. Thank you for asking.” She said as she matched my look.
Yep, she was definitely playing with me.
My patience was already worn out but I did not want to burst out on her. She was pregnant and I just didn’t want to be that person to her anymore but boy she was testing it. “I know so what’s the answer to that question.” I sighed. “And stop playing around.” I warned.
“I’m not playing around.” She rolled her eyes at me and defended. She had the audacity to roll her eyes at me. If it were any other time, I would have pulled her across the table, laid her on my thighs and spanked her until she was red and sore. But it wasn’t just ‘any other time. ‘
“And what prompted this question.” She added as she titled her head. Lily was smart and I saw what she was getting at. She wanted me to provide the evidence I found that induced me to ask this question. She knew I wouldn’t just ask without probable cause.
She wanted to know what I got against her so she could get the facts and make a good defense. She would make a great lawyer. But all these tactics, although amazing were adding to the fuel. If she didn’t have anything to hide she wouldn’t need a good defense.
Fuck, this was killing me!
I decided to give in. She could create whatever defense she wanted but I need my answers before I loose my mind. “Well for starters, earlier you made mention of the ‘circumstances that brought you to me, how did you remember that when clearly you made it seem that you did not recognize me as your husband nor our marriage.” I narrowed my eyes at him. “Care to elaborate on that?”.
Earlier we had been making small talk and when she said this, I was shocked for a moment that she remembered this but I tried to mask my feelings.
She sat in front of me quiet for a while. I could practically hear the wheels turning in her head. I knew when she was thinking but I didn’t interrupt her. I wanted her to come up with the best that she could.
All these were pointing to the fact that she was indeed guilty of the accusation and a part of me knew that but I refused to take it. I waited to hear from her.
“How wouldn’t I remember the ‘circumstances that brought me to you?”. She finally spoke up.
My heart hitched for a minute. Was she admitting that she in fact remembered everything. “Then we’re saying the same thing.!” I bursted out. “If you remember that then certainly you remember everything else.”I added.
I didn’t know if I was happy or hurt by this news but the wheels were rotating in my head putting everything together until her next words created a U turn.
“I think you’re high on something because now I don’t know what you’re talking about.” She said casually with a shrug as if she was not indie my head moving things around.
This woman could literally make my heart stop beating and she had no idea.
Stop it Lily!”. I spat out. I was tired of the games. I hated going back and forth.
“You and I know all too well about I’m talking about. You lied to me and everyone else and the evidence is glaring. How could you?”. The reality of the situation was finally settling in and I think I knew where I would stand at this point.
All these time that we could have spent loving each other, She deliberately lied and all that time is lost. Did she really hate me that much that she would lie?, what could possibly be the reason for such a tremendous deceit.
“What ‘circumstances’ are you referring to, cause the ‘circumstances’ that I am referring to was the fact that you and your family showed up with some pictures and implied that I’m married to you when I work up in the hospital.” She explained as she narrowed her eyes at me. “So tell me Alex, what ‘circumstances’ are you speaking of?, did you and your family lie to me and forced me to be with you?”. She gasped like she had just discovered a shocking secret that I had been hiding.
My brain spiraled at this sudden revelation from her. Apparently she had been speaking of something else. My body relaxed involuntarily and didn’t realize how happy I was that she indeed lost her memory. “Woo, calm down baby”. I rushed out. “That’s not what I meant. I mean that uhm, fuck!”. I exclaimed. I didn’t want her to think anything else of the situation. I was beating myself up for even asking her that question in the first place.
What is it Alex?.” She pressed eyeing me. Lily had always been too curious for her own good.
“I’m sorry, I just misunderstood you. I thought that the ‘circumstances’ you were referring to was…” I was about to talk about the contract before my caught my tongue and stopped myself. “You know what never mind. I should have never asked”. I tried to brush it off. This whole situation was seriously stressing my out. I should definitely stop by the hospital after now and check my blood pressure.
“What other ‘circumstance’ were you referring to?”. She leaned forward as she asked. Her eyes were trained on me watching like a hawk to calculate my reaction. It seemed that was her method of getting me to break and tell her whatever she wanted.
But there was something that Lily failed to understand…
You can’t play the player.
I was calm and calculated, not too careful and not too careless to reveal my emotions. She couldn’t read me.
“No, nothing. Forget I ever questioned you.” I said with a small apologetic smile etched on my face. I had contemplated on telling Lily about everything until I remembered what the doctor said when I had inquired about how long it would take her to recover her memory. He had informed me to be careful about reminding her about the things of the past or forcing her to remember because it could be a trauma response. Her brain could be forcing her to forget everything she went through and forcing her would lead to a worse cause.
I wouldn’t dare put her in such a position over nothing.
“Okay”. She said quietly. Her eyes drifted far away from here and I could tell she was thinking deeply about something. I could tell that whatever it was left her in a whirlwind of emotions. Pain, hurt and anger all flashed across her face interchangeably. Was she trying to remember everything. Was it why she was feeling that way.
It hurt me to see her struggle like that so I tried to bring her back here. “I think we should go now, let me drop you off at home.” I know it wasn’t best but at least it snapped her back to reality.
We had both gotten into the car quietly and I was taking my brain on a conversation to bring up so she wouldn’t fall back when her soft voice rang through my ears. “Where’s Mr. Mark?.” She asked as she looked around the driveway.
“Oh, he should be on his way to the house now.” I responded. Now I know that there’s one thing she wouldn’t be good at, An assassin or a spy. I had discharged Mr. Mark a while ago and I guess she been to engrossed in her meal that she didn’t notice his absence.
She leaned her head on the window and I began the journey, soon enough I had stopped thinking of conversations to bring up and my mind drifted into another puzzle Zone.
“Hey I..” I was about to say something when I noticed she was already sleeping from the corner of my eyes. “Oh I’m sorry for waking you up.” I apologized quickly.
It’s alright.” She said with a tired voice.
“No, I’ll just have this talk later.” I waved her off. I was already feeling terrible about the question I wanted to ask and now this!, waking a pregnant woman up?, Nah, i deserve jail time.
“It’s too late for that now and I don’t think I can go back to sleep knowing that we need to have a ‘talk.” She said. In a duh voice and flashed me a look that said if I didn’t speak up soon, she’ll gut me.
Okay.” I sighed and ran my hands over my face. “I know that I apologized earlier about that question but I think I need clarity on something else, just for my sanity.” I tried to tread cautiously.
She gave me an ‘are you serious look?’, before speaking up in a tired voice. It made me only feel worse but I guess it just had to be done. “Shoot!”. She sighed.
I took a deep breathe before spilling my question. “How come you remember Martin and not me and our marriage?”. I glanced at her shortly before looking back on the road. It was killing me not to give her my full attention. I needed to watch her every expression.
There were only two things involved. It was either she indeed lied about losing her memory, bringing us back to my earlier accusation which was blatantly denied by Lily or her brain wanted to forget all about me and our relationship but did not forget Martin.
It could mean that Martin was the only person she felt safe with or maybe even loved. You wouldn’t forget your true love right?.
All these thoughts spiraled in my mind and I almost broke the wheels as I tightened my hands around them.