Chapter 82: Searching for the truth
Lily’s POV
“Well, are you going to say something?”. He pressed.
I licked my dry lips and swallowed before speaking up.
“What was your question again?”. I asked straightening up. I wanted to do this right. I had already messed up by allowing the question affect me and I’m pretty sure he had caught on to it, but I still had a chance to redeem myself.
He gave me a stern look. “I asked if you truly lost your memory or some parts of it as you said or acted like in the hospital then.”
“Okay, that’s good question. Thank you for asking.” I said as I matched his stern look.
“I know so what’s the answer to that question.” He sighed. “And stop playing around.” He jutted a finger towards me.
“I’m not playing around.” I rolled my eyes at him and defended. “And what prompted this question.” I inquired. It was really unusual, and I wanted to know what he heard or saw that made him doubt me.
“Well for starters, earlier you made mention of the ‘circumstances that brought you to me, how did you remember that when clearly you made it seem that you did not recognize me as your husband nor our marriage.” He narrowed his eyes at me. “Care to elaborate on that?”.
I sat quietly for a while, calculating each and every word of mine before speaking up. “How wouldn’t I remember the ‘circumstances that brought me to you?”. I eyed him.
“Then we’re saying the same thing.!” He exclaimed. “If you remember that then certainly you remember everything else.” He added.
“I think you’re high on something because now I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I accused while shrugging my shoulders.
“Stop it Lily!”. He said in a firm tone. “You and I know all too well about I’m talking about. You lied to me and everyone else and the evidence is glaring. How could you?”. He said in a broken voice.
For second I wanted to give in, to just admit the truth and apologize for deceiving them all until I remembered how differently things have been for me so far. I didn’t care about anything or anyone else now. I needed to protect myself until I was ready.
Initially this was supposed to be a punishment for them but it seemed not to affect anyone truly but Alex, still I wasn’t near over.
“What ‘circumstances’ are you referring to, cause the ‘circumstances’ that I am referring to was the fact that you and your family showed up with some pictures and implied that I’m married to you when I work up in the hospital.” I narrowed my eyes at him. “So tell me Alex, what ‘circumstances’ are you speaking of?, did you and your family lie to me and forced me to be with you?”. I gasped as I stared at him with a shocked look.
“Woo, calm down baby”. He said calmly. “That’s not what I meant. I mean that uhm, fuck!”. He exclaimed.
“What is it Alex?.” I pressed.
“I’m sorry, I just misunderstood you. I thought that the ‘circumstances’ you were referring to was…” He paused. “You know what never mind. I should have never asked”. He rubbed his chin.
“What other ‘circumstance’ were you referring to?”. I leaned forward as I asked. My eyes remained focused on him as I gauged his reaction.
Was he going to say what really brought us together or will he uphold my statement. Whatever decision he makes would shed a light on Alex’s true character. I know that at this point I shouldn’t be the one to judge based on my deceit but still I had to know.
I had to know what Alex would really do if I truly lost my memory, and so far it has been nothing but chaos. I expected that he would try to win me over or make me believe that we were actually together but the reverse is the case. It feels like he doesn’t care or he just knows what I’m up to.
“No, nothing. Forget I ever questioned you.” He stared at me apologetically with a small smile etched on a his face.
I narrowed my eyes at him. “Okay”. I responded.
So now we know that if I truly lost my memory, Alex wouldn’t give me all the true details.
But why?, why didn’t he expose how we got together. Did he do it to protect my feelings or just to hide it from me. If he did it to protect my feelings per se, would that mean that he truly cared for me but if he just wanted to hide it from me then he would have ulterior motives.
“I think we should go now, let me drop you off at home.” He offered as he stood up from the chair and walked around to my corner.
“Alright.” I responded as he helped me out of the chair.
He led the way to the door and I followed behind closely. When we got to the ca, he held out the passenger door for me and I got in. “Thank you”. I said quietly to which he responded with a curt nod as he went around the car to the drivers seat.
“Where’s Mr. Mark?.” I asked as I looked around the driveway.
“Oh, he should be on his way to the house now.” He responded as he ignited the engine and zoomed off.
I have my a curt nod as I leaned on the window to rest my head. I’ve had the longest day today and I think I over did myself.
I was slowly drifting into sleep when Alex’s deep voice boomed in the car, startling me wide awake.
“Hey I..” He paused as he watched me from the corner of his eyes. “Oh I’m sorry for waking you up.” He apologized.
“It’s alright.” I said with a tired voice.
“No, I’ll just have this talk later.” He waved me off.
“It’s too late for that now and I don’t think I can go back to sleep knowing that we need to have a ‘talk.” I rolled my eyes at him.
“Okay.” He sighed. “I know that I apologized earlier about that question but I think I need clarity on something else, just for my sanity.” He rambled.
I immediately sat up in the car seat as I watched him with hawk eyes. What else did he want to ask now!, I groaned internally. This was getting exhausting. “Shoot!”. I sighed.
“How come you remember Martin and not me and our marriage?”. He glanced at me before focusing back on the road.
I watched as his hands tightened on the wheels as he looked at me expectantly for an answer.
I guess Alex was on to me. I don’t know why but it seemed he was desperately searching for the truth.