TWENTY.

Evelyn POV.
I’m dead, I’m dead, what did I just do, how did yesterday pass like that? It’s William’s effect on me, maybe it’s the effect of the sex, it had me going insane, I couldn’t think straight, and then the next morning I slipped, Katie never saw me slipping, she didn’t know about me slipping, this was a part of me that’s supposed to stay hidden, and still here I am, sitting in the bed, she was next to me, sleeping hugging her sheep teddy while William was on the other side, hugging Tiger.
I slipped last night, I went full-on little mode, but thankfully I remembered that I’m her mommy, I remembered to take care of her, but I wasn’t being too much of a mommy, maybe a big sister instead, I knew that I had to take care of her, that I had to be on her side, but I’m a little at the same time.
We drew together, we showed William, and I went ahead and called him daddy, I haven’t done that in over three hundred years but I have called him daddy, it felt so natural and I didn’t care that my little one was standing right next to me and she didn’t know that I’m a switch until now.
“Stop groaning, you’re going to wake her up,” William says all of a sudden and I jumped up with fear, I thought he was asleep.
“I thought you were sleeping,” I mumble.
“No, I’m awake, you’re thinking too loud,” he says looking at me with a small smile on his face.
“Sorry,” I say feeling guilty, I look at Kitkat and am relieved seeing that she’s still sleeping.
“You shouldn’t be sorry, I’m sorry for scaring you, do you want to talk about it?” he asks me.
“Yeah, I should talk… to her,” I say looking at the one sleeping in the middle of the bed.
“I know, but how about we have a chat first?” he suggests, and I nod, I got out of bed and he followed me, we closed the door behind us and went down to the living room, I looked at him with worry filling my eyes, I was terrified, what if Katie hates me now, what if she doesn’t want me anymore, she wants a mommy, not a switch who needs someone to take care of her too.
“Eve, talk to me,” he says looking at me with worry filling his eyes now, he was worried about me and my emotions but I’m not the one he should be worried about, it’s Katie.
“What if she doesn’t want a mommy who’s a switch,” I say out loud, it’s terrifying.
“What if she wants a mommy who’s a switch and a daddy who’d take care of them both?” he asks me.
“You don’t know that William, I’m not going to force my lifestyle on her,” I say explaining to him what I’m really thinking.
“Isn’t forcing our lifestyle the way we took over this world?” he says with a chuckle, and I punch him in the shoulder.
“It’s how we took over but I’m not forcing Katie into anything,” I scold him.
“If she says she wants you, but doesn’t want you to be a little,” he asks me.
“Then I’ll drop being a little,” I say with full confidence, I’m not going to hurt Katie, I promised her forever.
“What if she’s fine with it?” he asks and I groan out loud.
“William, I don’t know if she’s okay with it or not! I can’t just decide for her,” I say on the verge of a temper tantrum.
“Watch the attitude Eve, big or small, I don’t take being rude to well,” he scolds me.
“You don’t get it, I’m terrified of hurting her,” I say on the verge of tears now.
“You’re thinking too much, how about I go up and wake her up? Then you can ask her,” he says looking at me with too much confidence.
“William, why are you too sure about this?” I ask him.
“I have a hunch, call it a feeling, I’m very sure that she’ll love having you both as a mommy and older sister who helps her climb trees,” he says making me smile, I remember yesterday when I helped her climb the tree, she’s too little to do it alone, but she loved being up in the tree and I loved climbing and forgetting about everything, that until Wiliam dragged me down against my will.
“Fine, but I need coffee first,” I say getting up and walking toward the kitchen, I saw our drawings on the fridge, both of ours, I usually only have hers put up, but William had both of our drawings up on the fridge, I missed this kind of attention, this kind of praise, little Eve loved this.
“Can you make me a cup as well?” William asks from his place on the sofa, while he looks through his phone, he’s a workaholic, I know he’s trying to avoid work, but he sure as hell can’t help but check at least, with a sigh I made the coffee.
I turned the machine on and waited for the coffee, getting our mugs ready, I needed a giant one, I needed all the liquid courage I could get and I was not about to drink any alcohol this early in the morning.
I added sugar to my cup, needing an extra boost of energy, I gave William his cup, black like his heart, and we both started to drink our coffee in silence, him busy with his phone, while I was busy thinking this through, I’m ready to be rejected by her and to be hated. I should call Logan and tell him to be ready to come and get her if we fight, maybe I could send her to the neighbour’s place until Logan comes here and takes her back to school.
“Mommy… William?” we heard her voice coming from upstairs, I looked up and I was terrified, but I had to move, I got up and walked to that room my knees shaking with fear. I made it to he room, opening the door my heart beating like crazy, I tried my best to smile at her but the smile sounded too fake, too forced on my face, but it was there at least.
“Good morning Katie,” I say but I didn’t sound like myself, I sounded off.
“Morning,” she answers me, Tiger has moved to cuddling her now.
“Are you ready for the day?” I ask her and she nods her head yes.
I walked into the room and changed her, getting her ready for the day, this might be the last time I get her ready, the last time I get to hold her and hug her, or even touch her, I wasn’t sure how she’d react after all of this.
“You okay mommy?” she asks me.
“I’m fine sweetie, but I want to talk to you,” I say taking a deep breath, trying to be strong for the both of us.
“Okay?” she says worriedly, I felt like I was pushing her out of her little space, and I’m not too proud of that, but I had to do that, just so we could talk this through.
“Back when William and the vampires first took over the world, you all got tested, remember that?” I ask her.
“Mhm, in the hospital I think,” she says, she doesn’t remember that it was our headquarters, but the room was similar to a hospital, it’s a clinic.
“Yeah, there, but you know that you’re not the only one that got classified,” I say explaining to her what happened back then.
“You did it too?” she asks me.
“Yeah, well I had a long time before that, I kind of knew what I was, I had the lifestyle even before we took over,” I say.
“What was your classification mommy?” she asks me, I didn’t expect that question, but she should know the truth.
“I’m code blue, just like you,” I say with a tight smile.
“Blue is for littles and mommies?” she asks me next.
“Yeah, exactly blue is code for those two, but sometimes the vampire or human, they aren’t just one thing,” I say.
“Ohh… like Darjin? Sometimes he’s black, sometimes he’s green?” she asks me.
“Yeah, correct some people can be more than one code, they could be both, but it’s not just that,” I say wanting to tell her more about being a switch.
“Can you be both mommy?” she asks me next.
“Both how?” I ask her hoping she has discovered the meaning of a switch on her own.
“Both little and mommy?” she whispers to me and it was finally time to come true.
“Yeah, you can be both, a mommy and a little, it’s called being a switch,” I finally explain to her.
“Mommy, are you one of those?” she asks me, she’s my smart girl, and I knew she’d found out the truth soon.
“I am one of those,” I say coming clean finally.
“Ohhh…” she says looking at me with wide eyes.
“Are you okay Kitkat? Do I need to call Logan for you?” I asked her, I knew that Logan was a good uncle and he didn’t mind taking her for a day or two.
“Why?” she asks me confused.
“If you need to get away from me, if you’re too mad,” I say, worried about her, she looked at me confused and then she jumped toward me, she hugged me tight.
“Are you okay Katie?” I asked her confused, I was worried she was going to be very mad at me, or that she’s gonna hate me.
“I’m okay,” she says still hugging me.
“You’re not mad at me?” I ask her just to be sure.
“No, I’m not mad, I love you,” she assures me.
“You don’t mind that I’m a switch?” I ask her just to be sure.
“Nu-uh, you cute little,” she assures me and I chuckled, that’s not what I expected, but I was very happy about it.
“Thank you sweetie,” I say hugging her back, holding her closer to me, finally able to breath.