Micah POV.
Hide, stay quiet, keep down, my wolf is blond, he’s sensitive to the winter sun just as much as my human form is, we went to our secret hiding place, staying away from all the other wolves, the one ordered to hurt us.
‘Why they’re doing that! Let me fight!’ my wolf begs me, but I didn’t want to fight them or get away, he’s ready to go rogue to escape the pain we’re going through every day and night, my wolf and the human form are both struggling with the miserable life we call ours, we want to get away, but we can’t trust anyone, not my father either, he’d hunt us down and kill us.
‘Stay down,’ I order my wolf, ordering him to stay down to keep quiet while letting this day pass, it’s better to be alone, it’s better to be banned that going back and getting hurt again, although wolves can heal themselves, with how often I get injured, my body is filled with bruises, ones don’t get enough time to heal before two others show instead. I closed my eyes and went to sleep, enjoying the quiet of being alone, the snow was cold, but my secret point, a cave, it was dry, not warm, just dry enough, my thick fur helped keep me warm.
‘I want a mate to cuddle with,’ my wolf demands, he’s an innocent thing, he doesn’t know how hurt we can get, although he helped heal me growing up, but now ever since we became twenty-one, all he wants is a mate, someone to hold him, but we aren’t submissive neither are we a child, we were denied to have a childhood, instead he had to grow up early, and grown-up don’t get anyone to cuddle them.
‘We’re better off without them,’ I argue with my wolf, but he’s a real brat who shook his head, still wanting the mate, although we don’t need them.
After my nap, I woke up hungry, I only had the small bread and honey, shifting takes a lot of energy out of me, I need to hunt to eat, a rabbit would be good enough for me, but in the dead of the winter, a rabbit is harder to come across, I could shift back and get to the local cafe, but dad would know, they’d report to him before serving any of us especially me. The only good side of me being such a light blond wolf, almost white, I could blend in with the snow, the small animals that are out and about couldn’t find me, and neither could my pack.
Being light on my feet, my eyes tuned on the small white rabbit, my dinner, I was salivating, although I don’t enjoy raw food in wolf form, I still need the energy to stay warm the whole night. I bent my knees down, my fangs out, in one swift move I jumped attacking the animal, my teeth closing down in a painful bite trying to kill the animal right away, I didn’t want him to suffer like me, I wanted it to be quick and painless, I could taste snow in my mouth, pain in the back of my teeth, and that’s it, not blood, no animal, nothing, I’ve missed.
Damn it, I growl out loud, kicking the snow with anger, small wolf tantrum was broken when I heard footsteps behind me, I got the attention of the rest of the pack, great, I’m hungry and dead meet now. I looked behind me expecting an angry wolf or maybe my father to come out to hunt me himself, but instead standing behind me with a smug look on his face was Joshua.
“You’ve always been a bad hunter,” Joshua says, I wolf rolled my eyes at him, why doesn’t he go and tell his best friend my father.
“Hey I came here holding a peace offering,” he says holding a bag up, now that I wasn’t focusing on the rabbit, I could smell the burgers in his hand.
“Why don’t you shift back so we can eat,” he says, now I wasn’t mad at him anymore, I turned back, going behind the tree, although my clothes shifted with me, I don’t like shifting in front of anyone, not giving them a week moment to be able to hurt me as my bones break and shift back to my human form.
“How did you get the burgers?” I ask him, I know father didn’t just allow him some.
“Well, I sweet-talked the alpha, maybe I sucked his…” he starts but I stop him right away, I don’t want to hear anything, even if he only means it in a joking manner.
“Don’t wanna hear it, hand me the burger,” I say lifting my hand up, he gave me my share of the burgers, I sat on the cold floor and ate my burger, I was starving the food was much better than a stupid rabbit, let the poor thing live for now.
“You know the alpha ain’t that bad,” Joshua says, I rolled my eyes at him, he tries to tell me the alpha isn’t that bad, but he never endures his beatings, or his cruelty, sure, he likes my father who actually likes him but hates me.
“You coming back home? Your mother asked about you,” he says, but mom never asks about me, she doesn’t care, she hates me so much, she wishes me death, I’m the fruit of a bad relationship, I’m a reminder of what’s dad is capable of.
“Dad told me to stay out,” I remind him, I got kicked out for remembering the guy’s name that’s it.
“I talked him into letting you back in, if the boy is coming tomorrow, we can’t welcome him in with you sleeping outside,” Joshua says, I wanted to yell at my friend and beta, but I had no real reason to be angry at him except I was, I was angry at him for calling a random guy that I don’t even know boy, I was angry at the look Joshua had in his eyes, the way he was thinking about him like he’s his next meal, but Jordan won’t be it.
“Right… thank you,” I say with a tight smile, now we have to get back in the house, my peace was broken now.
“Let’s go, we can join the practice,” Joshua says all excited, I hate the practice, but I will join, I’ll fight and always show that I’m strong, even when I’m falling apart.
“Let’s go,” I agree.