Jason’s POV
I stared at the ruins of the library and anger filled me up to my eyes level. It was smelling of stagnancy, I wondered what had caused it and what sort of coincidence would make it be that it was when I needed something that it had happened.
“I’m sorry alpha,” a wolf I didn’t recognize said as he passed me by, the debris of the building was being moved into a truck. I had requested that they cleared it up so no young wolf got injured from the ruins.
“This is really crazy, I’m sorry Jase,” Chloe said but I couldn’t comprehend a thing she was saying, words were jumbled in my head and I wanted to go far away.
It was right there and then that I realized I needed to go far away, maybe move on with my life, return to my profession and do exactly as I pleased.
“It’s fine, it’s alright. Can we just return back to the packhouse,” I muttered and she looked conflicted then heaved a deep sigh of apprehension.
“I know you may need someone now but I got to do something real quick, can you excuse me?” She asked and I stared at her for sometime then nodded, it looked like it was really urgent.
‘It’s alright, you even need alone time’ Black, my wolf muttered and I realized I actually did.
“Yeah it’s fine,” I muttered and turned, hurrying back to the palace. I wondered when I had gone wrong and what sin I had committed that brought me a penance so grave.
If the light of the day had been thwarted by my refusal to dance to the tune of the elders or if it was the sins of my forefathers that had allowed me to suffer a heartbreak as wicked as this one.
I slipped into the pack house unnoticed going up to my room, I took the stairs three by three leaving trails of mud on the stairs. I was alpha and could do exactly as I wanted.
Hate and anger were the reigning emotions in me and I was not in the mood to think positively or allow good energy. I wanted to kill someone, to watch someone suffer, I wanted to hold Evelyn, an Evelyn that knew me but since I couldn’t get that, I slept instead.
Before that, I called a maid and asked her to pack up my things, she did so, between scowls and murmurs of insults she didn’t deserve.
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I woke up a good thirty minutes later and put on a shirt. I had torn the previous one off my body before going to sleep and I wondered what the maid would have felt. We have a monster for an alpha or something along that line.
I went down after a good ten minutes of staring into space, nobody had to tell me I had an awful scowl on my face, I knew and I also had no plan of taking it off my face.
“Let’s go hunting,” Black’s intruding thought became my own. I took the back door and hurried into the wilding night, I remained in my wolf form as I stayed in one spot overlooking the waters as the sound felt like it was happening live in my brain.
I involuntarily thought of moments we had shared in this same spot, when we had made promises of fate thought were not good enough. I wondered if fate had laughed at us and spat in our faces that night, that night I knew I loved her.
“What would you do if I was not here again?” She had joked as she deeper her barefoot into the ocean, she made a move that looked like she was twirling.
“Don’t say that, you’ll always be by my side,” I responded, allowing myself to imagine a world without her. I had immediately snapped out of it and I told her exactly what I knew would happen.
“I’ll probably be miserable, I won’t go out, I will remain a sick old man till the day I die because I would feel like I was cheating our memories if I dared to be happy.” I had responded with all the honesty I could muster.
“No, No, no. That’s the wrong answer to give,” she warned and drew me closer to her. She jumped on me and I caught her, as her lips stayed two inches away from mine, teasing and seducing me. “If and when I am not there you will not live like a miserable no good who has nothing to do with his life. You will enjoy every single moment of it and do all the things you want to do, I even grant you permission to have fun but don’t fall in love with another.”
I had laughed at that. “We’ll see about it, I love you.”
“I love you,”
I was so violently removed from my thoughts by a ruffling in the trees not so far from me. My leader instinct immediately put me on the defensive and it was still in my wolf form.
I wasn’t used to being surprised but nothing prepared me for the sight of Johnson cuddled up with Chloe in a full make out session.
I released a growl and it was then they noticed another presence and Chloe’s head snapped up and looked at me, she couldn’t decipher who I was.
“Can’t you allow some privacy, leave please!” She shrieked and Johnson threw a stick at me.
I didn’t know why but as I raced back to the pack house I wondered how many times a wolf could get his heart broken in one day. I didn’t love Chloe in that way but I always thought she felt something real and strong for me.
I wolfed all the way to my room before I was back in my human form, I didn’t waste any time leaving. All of my vital documents in one bag, I hurried away from the packhouse leaving behind a cloud of self pity and carrying a rebranded rage.
I would be back,