Chapter 88
Missing?
Chris’ POV:
“Hailey is missing and no one knows where she will be at the moment!” Megan told me as she paced up and down the room.
“What do you mean?” I was shocked to hear that story.
“She is not in the psychiatry anymore!” She replied.
“Yesterday, I went to see Miles, then he suggested that we go…” Megan started then I interrupted her.
“Miles!” I emphasized.
“Yes, Miles!” Megan responded.
“I thought we spoke about him, and I said I do not like him!” I asked Megan.
“Well, you did not say it like you meant it! You said it casually Chris!” Megan disagreed.
“What if he is just trying to lead you into his trap?” I asked her.
“Or what makes you think that he is genuine?” I asked her.
“That does not matter now Chris!” Megan tried to convince me.
“At least, he has been of help… even if it is a little!” She said.
“Fine!” I replied.
“But he was seen holding your hands in public right?” I asked as shock was written all over her face.
“You know what, do whatever you feel like is right for you to do!” I said and walked out.
I went to the park to get my head off all that happened, but the thoughts would not stop pouring in:
She did it again. She went behind my back, she lied to me, she betrayed my trust. And yet… and yet… I still love her. I still want to be with her. I still want to hold her in my arms and tell her everything will be okay.
“Why do I do this to myself? Why do I keep letting her hurt me? Is it because I’m a glutton for punishment? Or is it because I truly believe that she’ll change, that she’ll finally understand how her actions affect me?
“I’m so angry right now. I’m angry at her, at Miles, at the whole situation. But most of all, I’m angry at myself. For loving her despite everything. For being so weak.
“I feel like I’m stuck in this never-ending cycle of hurt and betrayal. Like I’m trapped in a prison of my own making. And I don’t know how to escape.
“I try to tell myself that it’s not my fault. That she’s the one who’s flawed, not me. But deep down, I know that’s not true. I know that I’m just as flawed as she is. Maybe more so.
“Because what kind of person stays in a relationship like this? What kind of person keeps going back for more, despite the pain and the heartache?
“I guess that’s just the thing. I’m not just any person. I’m a person who loves Megan, flaws and all. And I’ll keep loving her, no matter what she does.
“Even if it kills me. Even if it destroys me completely.
“Because that’s what love is, right? It’s this all-consuming, soul-crushing, heart-wrenching feeling that you can’t escape. It’s this thing that makes you do crazy things, like stay in a relationship that’s toxic and harmful.
But it’s also this beautiful, wonderful, amazing feeling that makes life worth living. It’s this thing that makes you feel alive, that makes you feel like you’re a part of something bigger than yourself.
And that is what I feel when I’m with Megan. That’s what I feel when I look into her eyes, when I hold her in my arms, when I kiss her lips.
It is this feeling of being home, of being exactly where I’m meant to be. It’s this feeling of being loved, of being accepted, of being understood.
And that’s what keeps me coming back for more. That’s what keeps me trapped in this cycle of hurt and betrayal.
Because in the end, it’s not about the pain or the heartache. It’s not about the lies or the betrayal. It’s about the love. It’s about the feeling of being alive, of being a part of something bigger than myself.
And that’s what I will keep holding onto, no matter what happens. That’s what I’ll keep fighting for, no matter how hard it gets.
Because in the end, that is what love is all about.
I was still lost in thought when I saw Megan, coming towards me.
“How did she know that I am here?” I wondered.
“I never told her that I was here!” I thought.
“What?” She asked as she approached me.
“Are you shocked that I found you here?” She asked me.
“This is your favorite spot, you know!” That was when it dawned on me. She was right after all.
“I am sorry for not listening to you and going to see Miles.” Megan apologized.
“That is not a problem!” I told her.
“I am glad that you learnt your mistake!” I made it known to her.
“Okay, so there is this party and I would love us to go there.” Megan announced.
“As a couple.” She told me smiling widely.
“Your wish is my command!” I said smiling.
We were finally at the party, and it felt like it was made for just celebrity boxers.
We were still having fun and exchanging pleasantries, I became uncomfortable. I did not know why I felt that way though.
All of a sudden, Miles shows up unexpectedly.
“I knew it!” I said under my breathe and he approached us.
He soon got into a conversation, and I noticed how Megan got carried away immediately.
“Megan!” I whispered.
“I think I will just take my leave!” I said and tried to leave.” I told her but she’s not having.
In the end, Megan won me over and I decided to stay.
As the night goes on, I became increasingly uncomfortable, convinced that Miles is trying to sabotage my relationship with Megan.
“Why did he have to show up here? Why did he have to ruin everything? I was having a good time; I was finally relaxing… and then he shows up.” I told Megan when miles took out a little time to speak to the hosts.
“I can feel his eyes on me, I can feel him watching me. He’s waiting for me to slip up, waiting for me to make a mistake. He wants to break us apart; he wants to destroy what we have.” I tried to make her understand.
“I will just need a little fresh air!” I told her and left.
“Megan doesn’t see it, she doesn’t understand. She thinks he’s harmless, she thinks he’s just a friend. But I know the truth. I know he’s a snake, I know he’s poisonous.” I said in my head.
“I need to get out of here, I need to get away from him. I need to protect Megan; I need to protect us. Before it’s too late.” I concluded.