“Ma’am, this is your wedding gown.”
“Just put it in the bed and you can leave.” The maid put the box on the bed. But she didn’t leave and she just kept standing on the side. “What are you waiting for? End of the world? Because if yes, I’ll kill you first.”
“Sorry, Ma’am, Ma’am Daze said not to leave the gown here.”
“Then why did you bring that here?”
“So you can see.” I roll my eyes and walk toward the bed. I don’t know if my sister is smart or if it’s really easy to guess what I will do.
I am planning to wear a gown. Because they say that if the wedding dress or whatever the bride or groom will wear is measured, the marriage will not go ahead. And that’s my plan. The wedding will not go ahead for three days from now.
I tried to run away but I couldn’t run away because there was a guard outside my room. I can’t even go through the window because I can’t do what those who run away will hang on the blanket. Later I will miscarry and my child will still feel sorry for me.
I opened the box but did not remove the gown. I just looked at the appearance and what was designed was there. The details that I can only see when I look.
“Ma’am, do you want me to take it out so you can see it fully?”
I designed it on my own. An elegant mermaid trumpet with real diamonds around the neck. Diamonds that cost millions. Sleeveless with a long veil covering the whole face. The color is pure white.
“No need.” Then I put back the cover of the box. “Alright, take that and take it to my sister’s old room. If you have time to burn it, do it and I’ll pay you.”
But she left with the box without saying anything.
There are no wedding items in my room. Everything is in ate Dane’s room. As per brother Dylan and sister Dane’s order.
I lay down on the bed when the maid left. Three days from now, Enrique and I tie the knot. I’m going to be the wife of the man I’ve followed and dreamed of for a long time. I will now be the legal wife of the man I have long dreamed of and longed to be mine.
But I’m not happy. I don’t know. I just feel like I’m not happy. It doesn’t seem worth it. It doesn’t seem like it should happen. Maybe because of the fact that I know he was forced. He had no choice because even if he didn’t say it, he was afraid of our family.
This is not what I want. I want to marry him because he wants to, not because he was forced. Not that he considered anything. Not because he was afraid of anything. But because he wants to.
It’s annoying.
If only that gay hadn’t left I wouldn’t have been so upset. The devil is really gay. I hope he is not happy now, I hope he has been kidnapped and had his kidney and all his internal organs removed. I will really kill him if I saw him. I’m really going to disembowel him. He and his brothers. They are devils.
My phone suddenly rang. I didn’t intend to answer it but didn’t want to stop ringing so I looked to see who called. And speaking of gay demons, he called so I quickly picked it up.
“You gay animal! Why did you call? How dare you call after what you did to me!” I opened it right away. No hello-hello because if this guy was in front of me I might have slapped him with my heels.
But he didn’t answer. As in, the other line was literally silent.
“Hey! Answer! I will kill you, you animal!”
“Daze. I am sorry.”
“What sorry? After you left me, will you just say sorry? What If I drown you?!”
“Don’t scream and the baby will harm.”
“Many people have been with me for a long time. Ever since you left, I’ve felt bad. Everything is just bad.”
“I’m sorry. Please, let me explain, okay? Hear my side first before you get angry. I will do it for nothing. I’m not like that, Daze, and I’ve never left you.” I was suddenly silent because of what he said.
Ervic and I have a deep bond and I know that he will always be by my side. One call when I need him and he is there for me right away. He never let me down. I didn’t ask for anything that he refused and above all, he didn’t leave me in the air.
“Fine.”
“Are you relaxed?”
“Do I have a choice? Go ahead and explain.”
“Your brother Dylan threatened me.”
“What?”
What he said suddenly made me nervous.
“Your brother knows our secret. He sent someone to take me. I have no choice but to agree with everything he says.” I swallowed because of what he said. I don’t know what to say because of what I found out. I thought that gay left me in the air, but my brother had a plan for this.
He was still very angry with Enrique and said a lot that he was the only one with a plan for everything.
“Believe me, Daze. I can’t leave you in the air, you know that. Our friendship is more important to me than anything. You are important to me and you know that. I love you. Especially now that you have my brother’s baby. Of course, I want to make you happy. I want to be by your side always. But what do I have against your brother?”
“But I don’t want to marry your brother.”
“You have no choice. We have no choice. Also, isn’t that your dream? Do you dream of marrying my brother?”
“But not in this way. I don’t want him to be forced.”
“Leave it alone, who knows he might fall for you when you’re married. Isn’t that like the novels you read when we were in high school? Arranged marriage until they fell for each other? Or hate and love then fell later. Then the son hid it and then it was discovered that it was his son and then they were ok. Isn’t that the kind of reading you often read, who know you and my brother are the same.”
“That’s a scam, don’t believe it because there’s no truth in it. Writers are liars. They let their readers believe in lies. There is no truth in what they write.”
“What do you mean nothing? There is. Aren’t you the ones who meet foreigners, those who get hurt, and then after the pain meet true love? Their love story is no different in a novel.”
“Stop believing in such things, I don’t want to believe in those fictions and hope.”
“Daze, accept the reality. Because first, you have no choice, second, you will only be hurt if you don’t want to accept the reality that against your will and your will you will marry my brother, and thirdly back to one, and repeat.”
I didn’t move because he was right. I had no choice when brother Dylan made the decision and acted. Unless it’s Enrique who refuses. Should I call him? Should I ask him to back out on the wedding? Should I beg and cry?
“Daze?” Evic called me.
“Ervic, do you think if I talk to your brother and I kneel while crying in front of him, will he listen? He will feel sorry for me and he will not want the marriage?”
“No.”
“No?”
“Yes. Because my brother has something to stand for. It doesn’t matter if he is put in the electric cell or hanged or put on the firing squad, just don’t break his promise—-, especially our last name. Especially since he knows it’s Locsin—even if he thinks it’s just a nephew, he’ll stand up for it.”
“So I really have no choice?”
“I don’t want to hurt you but yes, you have no choice, and the baby will only feel sorry because he will also be hurt inside. He is also sad when you are sad. So you should be happy.” I let out a loud sigh. I really have no hope.
“How are you?” I ask. Even though he’s an asshole, of course, I’m still concerned.
“I am perfectly good. Your brother provides all my needs. He gave me everything I wanted and he made sure that I was ok. I’m living like a king. But sorry, Daze, I can’t tell you where I am. I can’t go out until the wedding is over.”
“I understand. The important thing is that you are ok.”
“I am, I hope you are too, we can do nothing, fate doesn’t want to be with us, and your brother is really our enemy, it’s hard to fight.”
“I miss you, bro.”
“I miss you so damn much, Daze, I fucking miss you.” There was a moment of silence until he spoke again. “Gotta go, I have limited time and I have a guard. Always take care. Ok?”
“Okay.”
When Ervic dropped the call I just lay down. Even if I cry blood, even if I lose my mind, no matter what I do, I can’t do anything. I will marry Enrique whether I like it or not.
I held my slightly bulging stomach. Caressed and felt motherhood.
‘Sorry baby, but I’m still not going to tell your father that you’re his baby. I don’t care if he gets old and mad thinking you’re his nephew. He will have a child with someone else if he wants a child. You’re my baby, no matter who you are, I’ll be your mother, Period. And your daddy——let him take care of his life.’