He pushes me inside his grip, making me feel uneasy. Everyone’s staring, wondering what my move will be, but I do nothing. I let him push me to the bedroom, not knowing what he’s about to say. I’m nervous. It has been almost a month since I have seen him last. I watch, I’m waiting to see his lips move, wanting to hear what he has to say.
“Lilly, I have looked everywhere for him. I can’t find him. He is gone.”
I watch as he falls to his knees crying in despair, my heartbreaking for him. And my body builds up with anger, knowing that his mother is making him feel this way. I ran over to him and let him sob in my arms. Not knowing what to say, I know that I can’t tell him what I know. If he found out that his mother had been behind all this, I’m not sure what he would do.
“Landon, I’m so sorry that all this had to happen to you. I wish I could take away all your pain.”
I feel bad for Landon, but I will not jeopardize saving Jayden just to make him feel better. The truth be told, he’s not ready for the truth, it will blow his world up. At the state that he is right now, I don’t believe he could handle it. He is an alpha and one of the strongest people I know. But right now, at this very moment, he is weak. He needs to rest.
“Landon, you’ve been running yourself ragged. I know that you want to find Jayden, but you also need to take care of yourself. How are you going to continue to look for him? You need rest to build up your strength to continue the search.”
“Lilly, anytime I stop searching, I feel that I’m wasting time when that time could be spent looking for him. I’m so terrified of being too late to save him that I’m unable to stop.”
“Landon, I promise you I will find him. I know that it seems impossible, but I have found something out, but I can’t tell you until I know for sure.”
I don’t want to tell him it might ruin everything, he might overreact. Then it’s all over. The chances could be gone getting Jayden back. And I will not risk that for anything I can’t. My body is then jolted and thrown up against the wall. I’m surprised at first, but then when I see the darkness in Landon’s eyes, it’s the first time that I’m truly afraid of him.
“Lilly, if you have any kind of information about my son, I demand to know, and I want to know now.”
I try to control my anger. Becoming an alpha, anything sets you off so easily. I know that I have the strength to overpower him, but I don’t. He has lost everything. I don’t want him to lose anything more. But I will not tell him I can’t. As I watch the darkness fade from his eyes, I can see the tears that surround him. My heart aches for him, but in time, everything will be OK.
“Landon, if I could tell you I would, but I will not. You can threaten me all you want, but I won’t risk the chance of saving him. Just trust me, please, I have never given you a reason not to ever.”
“Lilly, I do trust you. I just want to know if my son is ok.”
“We both want to know that, but I can’t be for sure. What I do know is if he felt any kind of pain, we would feel it too. So, wherever he is, he’s not hurting.”
Landon’s grip loosens up. I can see relief in his eyes like he never thought of that. As my feet touch the ground once again, I take my hand. I put it on Landon’s back and rub him. Wanting to comfort him, wanting to take all of his pain away. I can feel tingles shooting through my body everywhere. Trying so hard to ignore it, almost feeling impossible.
I then watch as my bedroom door swings open. Angry that the person did not knock before entering, then realizing it is Mary Landon’s mother. She runs over to him and hugs him, asks him have you found anything out about my grandchild. It sets a fire inside me. I’m so furious that I could just punch her out. Acting like she is so concerned, and she knows where Jayden is, exactly.
My anger is exploding. I’m trying so hard but nothing I do is working. I grab her and throw her up against the wall. “How dare you just barge into an alpha’s room without even knocking. Who do you think you are.”? I say to her, my canines coming out, but then I feel His touch, and it brings me back to reality as I loosen my grip.
I feel so ashamed, not being able to control myself. I’m not sure what to do. I need to keep her trust. Then I remember what I did to my mom when I was in so much trouble, and she always fell for it. I start to fill my eyes with tears and just become hysterical crying.
“Oh my God, Mary, I’m so sorry. What have I done? I can’t believe I just did that.”
I act as if I am so disappointed in myself. Then I begin to pace back-and-forth in my bedroom, trying to act hysterical, like I feel so bad for what I have done. Hoping it works, I can’t blow my chance of her trusting me. She will never trust me again, and if she doesn’t, then how will I ever find Jayden?
As I go to turn around, a body stops me. I feel as the arms are wrapped around me. All the tension in my body just releases as I let the warmness of her body Calm me. As much as I want to hate her, I truly can’t. Her touch reminds me of my mother, how she would grip me so tight like she would never, ever let go.
Lilly, stop, I tell myself you can’t fall for her tricks. She isn’t your mother, she is a treater. I keep repeating it in my head until her hug turns into ice. I can’t allow her to trick me. I need to stay on track with what has to be done. As I back out of her hug, she puts her hands on my shoulder.
“Lilly, it’s okay dear. I’m aware that it’s hard to control all that comes with an alpha. I should have not just come in, I should have knocked first. I was just so happy when I saw Landon.”
“I just can’t believe I reacted that way. I’m so sorry.”
She smiles and rubs my back, “it’s ok, all is forgiven.”