So much for church only taking an hour. My mom had left not that long ago, and I was sat at the bar watching the night unfold in front of me.
No matter how much I tried not to I couldn’t stop thinking about that girl that showed up today. How unwell she looked and yet couldn’t wait to get out of there as soon as Duke gave her money.
Feeding her addiction.
“I don’t like you”…
Huh? Was she talking to me?
“You think you can come around here and steal all our men”. She slurred.
“Are you talking to me?”. I asked getting to my feet. Pregnant or not I would knock the bitch out.
“Thinking you’re all perfect. Look at you”. Drawing her eyes up and down me she held onto the bar to keep herself up.
She was drunk, great.
What in the world was going on today. It’s not as if I’ve just showed back up here. This was my home, my family. I didn’t even know who this girl was, had never seen her before but I’m guessing she was a new club girl.
“Fight me”. She slurred. “Whoever wins gets Blaze”.
I burst out laughing. She couldn’t be serious. Whoever wins gets Blaze?
“Ask your man where he was last Friday”. She smirked.
My stomach dropped.
“Ask Jared, he’ll confirm it”.
He wouldn’t I know he wouldn’t do that. He had too much to lose if he cheated.
“Best you get out my face”. I snapped my teeth clenched.
“Just letting you know the truth honey”.
Hands balled into fists I took myself away from the situation. I wasn’t going to cause a scene; I wasn’t going to embarrass myself. So, I did what was best and took myself home.
That girl was drunk, and I wasn’t going to jump to conclusions until I knew what she was talking about. Opening my car window, I enjoyed the small breeze coming in whilst I drove home.
He wouldn’t put me through that again, right?
My mind was working overtime. I was trying my hardest not to think the worst but his reputation in the past wasn’t helping.
He was a biker, bikers slept around, had bits on the side but not Blaze, right?
“Fuck”. I hissed gripping the steering wheel tighter. After everything we had been through surely, he wouldn’t ruin it by sleeping around. He went 4 years without sex…. or did he?
Was that a lie?
This is why I couldn’t handle club girls. They would run their mouth and then I’d make up scenarios in my head and doubt everything we have.
Now I really wanted a cigarette.
Turning into my street I pulled into the driveway and turned off my engine. I didn’t move. Going into my glove box I pulled out my stash of cigarettes and took one out. Bringing it to my nose I inhaled deeply.
I would never have one even though I desperately wanted one. Cigarettes calmed me when I was stressed, and I was fine until that girl opened her damn mouth.
Sighing I put the cigarette back in the packet and put them back in my glovebox. I was stressing myself out over nothing. Grabbing my bag, I opened my door and got out locking my car behind me.
I needed a bath and some chilled-out music. Stressing out wasn’t good for me or my baby. Heading inside I locked the door and went straight up the stairs. Flicking on my bedroom light I went about getting clean pjs. Going into the bathroom I put the plug in turning the taps on and adding some bubble bath.
Yes, this would help. Lighting a few candles, I placed them around the tub. God help his soul if that girl was telling the truth. Not only would it break my heart, but it would destroy our daughters.
Stripping out of my clothes I went in search for my speaker so I could connect it to my phone. Searching through my bag for my phone I noticed the messages I had missed from today.
Having my phone on silent was no good. As it started to vibrate, I jumped a little before answering.
“You couldn’t stay put, could you?”….
“I waited around long enough Blaze”. I wasn’t in the mood for it tonight. It was all going to blow up in my face the minute he walked through the door.
“I did say and hour tops baby. It ran a little longer than expected. You home?”. He asked.
“Where else am I going to be?”.
“Where’s my girl? Did she enjoy her first day?”.
“She’s with my mom. Are you coming home?”. Chewing my bottom lip, I could feel the nerves building in my stomach.
How could I go about asking him if he cheated? Do I just come right out and say it?
“Soon darling! Just having a few with Jared! Need to figure out what to do with Sasha”.
“What do you mean?”. She wasn’t a piece of trash you could just dispose of. She was a human being who was very pregnant.
“Whether to bring her home or not. You in bed?”.
Sasha was coming home?
“Not yet I’m going for a bath”.
“Thinking of me?”.
“When you get in can we talk?”. I was ripping the bandage straight off. There was no point in beating around the bush.
“What’s wrong Ava?”.
“Where were you last Friday?”.
“I don’t know it was last Friday”. He laughed. “What’s going on baby?”.
“Nothing I’ll see you when you get in”. Not giving him time to reply I ended the call. If he couldn’t remember I’m sure Jared would. Dialling his number, I put the phone to my ear.
“You do know he has his own phone, right?”.
Rolling my eyes, I didn’t know how to go about asking him this. He wouldn’t rat out his best friend. But on the other hand, Jared and I were close.
“You called me sweetheart. What ups?”…
“He’s with you right?”. I asked.
“Aye darling! You all right?”.
“Last Friday were you with Blaze?”.
“I’m always with Blaze”. He chuckled. “What you getting at Ava?”.
“I just want to know where you were”. My stomach was in knots. I wasn’t sure if I was going to get an answer.
“Taking care of some business in private eyes. Why?”.
The strip club, his strip club! Maybe that girl was a dancer?
“Ava?”.
“Huh?”….
“Why you asking that sweetheart?”.
“Did-….”. I was so nervous I felt sick. “Did he cheat on me?”. I whispered.
Silence….
I could hear my own heartbeat!
“J-Jared?”. I stuttered. His silence was frightening.
“Darling”….
“It’s a simple question Jared”.
“Has someone said something to you?”.
I hated that he answered a question with another question. I just wanted the truth not some bullshit lie.
“Just tell me the truth Jared please”. I could already feel the lump forming in the back of my throat, my mouth becoming dry.
“He loves you Ava, remember that. He’s not stupid, he wouldn’t ruin what he’s got! He knows he’d lose you for good if he did”.
He still didn’t answer me.
“Okay”. Ending the call, I wet my bottom lip with my tongue. I couldn’t help but think the worst especially after that phone call.
Turning off the water I connected my phone to my speaker before stripping out of the rest of my clothes.
I had no idea how long I spent in the bath. The water was Lukewarm, and my skin had wrinkled. Blaze still wasn’t home. Standing up I grabbed a towel from the rack wrapping it around my body. Grabbing my phone, I opened a new message.
‘Doors locked and I’m going to bed. I hope you have your key!’
Knowing him he’d get caught up and end up blind drunk meaning he’d spend the night at the clubhouse. Drying off my body I slipped into my pjs and put my dirty clothes in the hamper.
I wasn’t staying up. It was my first day back at work tomorrow and I wanted to be well rested. Turning on the tv I turned the lights off before jumping into bed.