Then she pulled out my phone from her pocket and put a call through to Markian. She stood up from her chair and walked behind me again to place the phone in my ear.
“Hello, Sophia?” Markian called out angrily.
I could feel his anger and helplessness through the phone. What would happen to him if never finds us in time?
“It’s me.” I let out softly.
“Oh my God, Livy?” He called out with concern in his voice and that broke my heart.
Since I got my memories up till now, I’ve been in constant debate of whether I deserve to be loved while my sister was nowhere to be found. I didnt want to keep living if my life meant Sophy’s would be taken away.
But through all those dark days 3months ago, Markian’s voice was the only thing that would knock me back to reality every now and then. I want to save Sophia by any means necessary, but not at the expense of my life and that of my unborn kids, and definitely not at the expense of losing my life with Markian.
I should have thought this through before coming out here. If anything happens to me, I don’t think Markian would survive it. He’d blame himself for a mistake i made.
Sophia is right about one thing, I am just plain stupid.
“I’m so sorry Markian, I messed up.” I stated as tears formed in my eyes.
“My love, are you ok? You’re not hurt right?” He asked hastily.
“I’m fine now that I heard your voice. I missed you so much I even wore my wedding ring today just to help me feel that you’re here with me. But hearing your voice now is way better.” I replied coyly.
Please understand what I meant by that, I prayed in my heart.
“Just tell me where you are and I’ll come get you.” Markian urged earnestly.
“I don’t know… but till you find me, I’ll make sure to be ok. I promise.” I said with tears rolling down my cheeks.
“That’s enough…” Sophy ordered as she pulled the phone away from my ear and ended the call.
“… let’s get to why we’re here.” she added as she turned off my phone.
She placed it on a flat surface few inches beside her as she came in front of me again. She then pulled out a handgun from her back, and held it on her thighs as she sat back down on her chair and crossed her legs.
“Sophia… what… are you doing with a gun?” I asked terrified to see her with such a dangerous weapon.
“It’s to send you to the afterlife. Don’t worry, I plan to come along. The only problem is that I ran into a bit of a mishap while trying to get mom here and I had to use one of the bullets which was meant for me. But you don’t have to worry, even though you’d go before me, I’ll come to you as soon as I can.” She replied deliriously.
“Those are very dangerous words to joke with Sophy. You don’t really plan to kill us both, do you?” I asked trembling in fear as I wiggled to be free.
“Oh it’s not a joke sister. We came together, so it’s only natural we leave together. See, unlike you I don’t think I can live in a world without you, be it here nor the fu’king afterlife.” She replied with so much seriousness to my dismay.
Oh God. Sophia wants to kill us both, out here.
“Sophy, what is it you want? I can help you get anything you want, but killing us both isn’t going to solve anything.” I tried to bargained.
“I fu’king told you what I wanted but you couldn’t give it to me. So why the hell are you asking again? If I didn’t know your lying ass any better, I would have really believed you’d give me anything I ask for this time.” She replied disdainfully.
“Where is these coming from? Sophia, I tried to protect you from everything i thought would harm you, God knows I tried. I put myself in harm’s way just so you’d be safe, but all I got in return was your hatred and meanness. You hated me, hated the air I breathe and even the ground I stepped on. You even framed me for your death and made me believe I was ever capable of hurting you. I tried to make you into a better person countless times, but you turned all of my efforts futile. What didn’t I do for you, and you have the nerve to call me a liar and a deceiver? What did I do wrong?” I ranted and questioned in anger as I let my emotions explode.
She looked at me with tears in her eyes and a sad tremble of her lips, but I looked away. I can’t bear to see such pain in her eyes but I need to know why she has turned all of my love into hate.
She stood up and walked to the dusty dark smudged window that let in no light at all. She stood there for quite a while before she turned to me and smiled. It’s creepy watching her cry and smile at the same time.
What does she have to say? I’m trying to buy enough time for Markian to come find me. From Heather’s house to the Schmidt bridge isn’t going to take up to 20mins. And judging by the isolation and quietness of these place, I’m thinking we’re at the abandoned Schmidt’s brewery building less than 5mins away from the bridge.
“Do you really want to know what you did wrong?” She asked still smiling at me and it was creeping me out.
“Yes… I really want to know why you hate me so much.” I replied calmly.
But her eyes changed into something between regret and bitterness? Sophia Luthel, what exactly is eating you up?
“You want to know what you did wrong? Everything you’ve done is wrong!” she yelled at me.
“What?” I muttered to myself.
How dare she stand there and say that to my face? I was kidnapped and molested, messed up inside my head for 3 solid years all because her, and she says this to me? I mentally questioned upset.
“Yes. Everything you did was wrong. From the broken promise, to the sacrificing yourself and getting kidnapped for my sake, making yourself forget about everything leaving me alone with the memory of what happened. You ruined my life! And the little time we had with mom became all about you too. So tell me, what exactly did you think you did right?” She ranted on insanely.
“I tried to protect you. Yes, I broke my promise to do that more than once but we were little kids back when I made those mistakes. Still I tried to do right by you because you are my sister and I love you…” I stated sternly with all the emotions I could muster.
“Your love was poison, don’t you understand that?! I open my eyes and I see you, I hurt and I see you, I breathe and I see you. I turn around and you are there, it’s suffocating being your family let alone your twin sister because you destroy everything you touch. And when I finally got married, there you were still in my husband’s mind and in his heart. I don’t know how you do it but you always end up winning every fu’king time. I decided 9 months ago that I didn’t want to live around you anymore, but did you let me leave? No! You chased after me to Shire woods and because of you, your husband took away the love of my life!” Sophia yelled at me, confessing and pouring out her heart.
I don’t understand. I never knew I was hurting the very person I claimed I love, the very person I had sworn to protect.
“I’m so sorry Soph, I didn’t know. I didn’t know you were suffering that much because I loved you. But I don’t know how not to love you that’s why I hold on. I thought co-dependence was what would help us heal and be better…” I said as teared poured down my face uncontrollably.