Zanaya’s POV
It has been two days since I woke up without Seth beside me.
After what happened, I fell asleep and he had to go because they have a concert in Singapore that day. At least, that’s what it says in his message.
To be honest, I was awake before he goes but I pretended to be asleep.
The memories of what happened to us still linger in my mind.
Our marriage has been finally consummated.
Just remembering the things that I did that night is enough to make me pretend to sleep in front of him.
And the fact that he was still confessing to me while I was supposed to be sleeping doesn’t really help at all.
I remember how he hugged me tighter with my face on his neck while my arms wrapped around him.
I can’t really move because we’re both naked and I don’t have the courage to face him at this time.
I was already awake for more than thirty minutes but Seth kept on stroking the back of my head as he hums one of their songs.
If not for the continuous ringing of his phone, I’m sure he wouldn’t stand up.
He actually tried to wake me up but I stood firm on my stupid facade and still pretended to be asleep.
“I don’t want to leave you like this especially after what happened but I really need to go,” he whispered as I felt him tuck a few strands of my hair at the back of my ears.
My heart flutter at his simple gesture.
“But I promise to text you every time. I will miss you, my princess,” he whispered before I felt his lips on top of my head.
Jesus. Way to make my heart ran wild inside my chest.
I count a few minutes in my head making sure that he’s really gone. The moment I was sure he was already out of the dorm, I immediately covered my face in embarrassment.
“I can’t believe I gave myself to him after all that happened,” I grunted as I pull every hair on my head.
I quickly stood up to lock the door but I stopped midway after I felt the pain between my legs.
“Shoot,” I muttered as I slowly went towards my door and lock it.
My body feels sore.
I gathered my dress and decided to take a shower.
My body ached a little so I decided to sleep in my room the whole day.
The girls occasionally visit me but they didn’t ask anything. They probably thought that I wasn’t feeling well which is partly true, except for the fact that I will never ever share with them.
I can’t possibly share my sex life with the girls, can I?
Since I can’t pretend that I am sick when I’m obviously not, I went out of my room the next day. I don’t want the girls to think that something is wrong with me. Though I actually wish to stay in my room for a few more days to think about our relationship.
And now, the girls and I were now watching a movie in the living room. I am sure the boys are slowly invading even our interests as we ended up watching weird shows.
The truth is, nobody is even paying attention.
Cali seems to blush on her own every now and then. Max was staring at her phone into deep thought and I swear she wasn’t aware of what’s happening around her. What’s even weirder is that she keeps on touching her lips. And Tokyo, that weird kid. She had been giggling on her own as she continuously taps her phone.
All four of us seemed to be caught up in our dramas and we don’t even realize.
I was startled when I heard my phone beep so I grab it and decided to check who sent me messages.
To be honest, I haven’t been checking my phone because I knew Seth had been contacting me since two days ago. My stupid heart wanted to answer his messages and tell him I miss him, while my mind wants me to take my time.
Before I can even read his message, his name flashed on the screen of my phone indicating that I have an incoming video call request.
A sigh escaped my lips as I stood up from my seat.
I walked back to my room before answering his call, not even bothering to fix myself.
What for? He’s already seen all of me.
Once I answered his video call, his face flashed across the screen and he seemed startled when he realized that I finally answered.
Seth was biting his fingernails and I feel like a damn idiot for finding him cute with that.
“What?” I greeted him and he pouted.
“I had been contacting you for days. Are you not feeling well?” he asked worriedly and I hate that my heart wavered a little because of what he said.
“I’m fine.” I smiled curtly.
His brows furrowed as he saw my reaction.
“Is there something wrong?” he asked and I hesitated for a moment before I decided to answer his question.
There’s no point in keeping it from him.
“I don’t know..” I started. “I feel like there’s still something wrong,” I told him.
Something may have happened between the two of us but that doesn’t erase the fact that everything is still a mess.
Things aren’t as simple as it seems.
“I thought we’re okay?” he whispered and fuck Seth for looking so damn hot while biting his lower lip.
“Stop pulling back your hair,” I grunted and he grinned at my reaction.
“I miss you,” he said while smiling at me.
Fuck this.
“I miss you too, Seth. But,” I stop myself and sigh in frustration. “Seth, we can’t always be like this,” I told him. “You have to fix this mess. I need my ring back and I want you to get it before I do it myself. But I promise all hell will break loose if I do that myself. I’m not kidding.” I warned him.
“I will. I promise. I’m sorry about that. I will make sure to get your ring back as soon as we land back to Seoul tomorrow, okay?” he assured me.
“And you have to fix this mess Seth. There’s only so much I can forgive and I’m getting tired of this drama with Sally. It’s either you don’t date her or we break up. That’s the only choice you have. It’s either you fight for me or we end whatever this is that we have.”
There, I said it.
It’s not okay that I am always the one who is understanding him. He needs to do his part.
I won’t let this drama control my life.
I have a life of my own and my world will not revolve to only him.
Seth almost jumped from his seat when someone tapped his shoulder.
“Seth!” he muttered as he looks up.
Before I knew it, Storm’s face was on the screen.
They were inside of a room, maybe their hotel room.
“She’s right Seth. Be a man for your girl before we beat the hell out of you,” he muttered before he winked at me. It feels like I’ve found an older brother with him and I appreciate the fact that he cares for me. But then my brows furrowed when I remembered something,
“By the way oppa, were you with Seth last time?” I asked.
“Yes, with Sky and Gold, why?”
So that’s why the girls were acting like that, huh?
“Nothing. It just that Cali seemed to be pre-occupied and I thought maybe-” he coughed continuously at the sound of Cali’s name and I laugh as he’s no longer showing on the screen.
I stopped myself from laughing when I realized that Seth seemed a little angry.
“You call everyone oppa but not me,” he said and I stuck my tongue out to him.
He chuckled at how childish I looked and then I saw another person behind his back.
Soon enough, Mono’s face was shown on the screen.
“Hello!” he greeted and I greeted back. But then he started squinting his eyes.
“Hi?”
“Is that a hickey?” he asked and my breath hitch at his words. I immediately covered my neck.
I totally forgot that I was wearing a sleeveless top and my neck is showing.
“Hey, get lost!” I watch as Seth pushes his bandmate out of the room. The screen was shaky for a moment while my cheeks are still burning red.
“Sorry about that,” he said and I almost choke as his cheeks are also red.
“Are you blushing, Seth?” I teased him.
“What, No!” he stated and I laughed really hard.
He started pushing back his hard a few more times and I grunted.
He’s going to kill a thousand girls because of that habit of his.
“I told you to stop doing that, you little flirt,” I told him and before he can even respond, his eyes landed back on his side as I heard the door opening. Soon enough, Gold, Sky, and Demo’s voice echoed in the room.
“Here’s little Seth, guys!” I heard Demo sing-songed and my brows furrowed.
Who is he talking to?
“Hey, what are you—”
“Oh my God.”
My mouth hangs wide open once Demo bent down to show Seth’s face on the phone he is holding while Sky and Gold were playing around.
But what shocked us all is that my face was clearly visible and was definitely caught on camera.
They are doing a Livestream.
And I was caught with it.
“Hey!”
“Holy–”
Gold and Sky screamed once their eyes landed on the screen and Seth immediately put the phone down as he must realize what just happened and the screen went black but I can hear the ruffling from the other side.
My heart was pounding really hard.
What just happened?
Fuck.
Did just a million of their fans saw me on a video call with Seth?
I’m dead.