Seth’s POV
“No,” I told her as she stood on the ground, her eyes bloodshot and it pained me to see her having a hard time.
But I can’t let her go. It’ll kill me.
I won’t let this happen.
She looked at me painfully.
“Please…” she pleaded. “This relationship started wrong anyways. For all we know, you don’t even love me and you’re just being caught up in this stupid wedding so now, you think you love me. Loving me isn’t your responsibility,” she whispered and somehow, I felt a sharp pain in my chest.
“Is that how you feel?” I asked her.
My feet walked on its own until we’re facing each other.
I brush the hair covering her face. She looked like a mess because of the tears and the drops of water from taking a shower.
“Don’t you love me?” I stared at her eyes and tried to check how she feels but she avoided my gaze.
She looked thinner.
And I wanted to blame myself for everything. It was all on me, my fault. because I was stupid and reckless.
I wanted to take care of her when she was admitted to the hospital but I can’t. She might get angry when she sees me so I visited her in secret.
“Are you having a hard time because of me? Because of our relationship?” I asked her and for once, I felt goddamn scared for what she would say.
“Do you want to give us up? ” I whispered.
My heart feels heavy but the sound of its beating is surely loud enough for even the older members at home to hear because of my nervousness.
The tension between us is strong enough for me to feel weak in the knees.
Please say no. I silently wished.
But she did not answer.
“Our relationship is not healthy,” she stated, her eyes excreting such loneliness I feel like I am being enveloped with sadness all over me.
“We don’t have the proper foundation because we ended up getting married before liking each other.” she looked at me in the eyes and I had to remind myself that we need to settle things first before I end up pulling her for a kiss.
“You don’t trust me,” she added and I closed my eyes in defeat.
I will forever be haunted by this mistake I know but I don’t care.
“Then let’s start from scratch,” I muttered as my right hand reached for her chin.
I slowly tilted her head up.
God, I miss this beautiful face.
I am so goddamn stupid for hurting such an angel like her.
Slowly, my face moved closer to hers, my eyes not closing, afraid that I might wake up one minute and realized that she’s not really in front of me.
“Zanaya… you’re mine.” I gave her a peck on the lips and her cheeks blushed as she tried to avoid my gaze.
“What?” I can’t help but teased her, the redness of her cheeks even more visible.
“Stop it,” she whispered, her voice was shaking and I was kinda hoping that it was because of my presence and her emotions towards me.
“Stop what?” and then I kiss her again, this time, I bite her lower lip and I heard her groan after I pulled back.
I smile as I watch her close her eyes as I move closer and closer and once our lips touched, my eyes automatically close as well.
This time, our kiss started gently as our mouth moved in sync, savoring the taste of each other.
I miss her lips.
A groan escaped her lips when I forced my tongue on hers and I felt her hands reaching my chest.
“I miss you,” I said in between kisses.
“I miss you too,” she responded and my right hand reached for the back of her neck as I deepen the kiss.
This time, a moan escaped my lips as I felt her tongue meeting mine.
“Fuck, Zaya.” I pulled her away for a little and my lips slowly travel between kisses from her jaw down to her neck.
Her body arched forward as I suck her soft spot. In an instant, I started leaving trails of kisses on her neck down to the top of her breast.
Her left hand landed on my hair and I felt pleasure as she pulled my hair a little.
I smile at her action. Before I knew it, I was already carrying her to her bed.
Once I put her down, I quickly went back to check if the door was locked.
“Thank God, ” I sigh in relief.
We always end up getting into trouble for not locking the door.
As I turned around, I pulled my shirt out of my body and I smirk as I see her checking out my abs.
Her cheeks blushed when she heard me clearing my throat.
“You, I enjoyed that time when you licked my abs.” I teased her and she looked away.
A chuckle escaped my lips as I jump on her bed, pinning her between my arms as my knees were situated between her legs.
“You don’t know how much I wanted to rip that small shirt of yours,” I whispered and she covered her face in embarrassment.
She really is so cute.
I slowly removed her hands from her face and hungrily kissed her again.
“Seth…” she whispered.
“Hmm?” I asked still kissing her passionately.
My lips started tracing back her jawline down to her neck.
She groans every time I suck a part of her body. I know it will probably leave hickeys all over her but I don’t mind. Marking her makes me want her even more.
“Sorry babe but that will definitely leave a mark” I chuckled as our lips parted but she pulled me back and kiss me really hard.
I chuckled as I pulled away from me a little, “Too eager, aren’t we?”
My right hand started moving on its own and I felt her body arched forward as I started pulling her shirt off her.
I bite my lips on her chest greeted me.
“Fuck,” I whispered.
She covered her face in embarrassment and I took that time to kiss the top of her cleavage and her hand landed back on my hair.
I started kissing the top of her breast while my other hand tried to remove the hook of her bra.
After a second, my eyes were shining at the sight of her.
“You look beautiful..” I told her as she looks so shy.
“Stop staring,” she muttered as she tries to cover her bare chest but I was easily able to remove them.
She was a moaning mess as I suck into the crown of her chest while my other hand plays with the other.
“Shit Zanaya,” By this time, tasting her drives me crazy.
Slowly, my lips went down until I reach the band of her shorts.
I was slowly giving kisses on the top of her shorts and she groans in frustration.
“Too eager are we?” I teased. I kiss her back on the lips as my other hand slowly pulls down the zipper of her shorts.
Once open, I pulled it down using my free hand.
My hands slowly slid within her laced underwear, touching her center, making her squirm in anticipation. Her hand pulled me closer and I felt her tongue sucking mine.
I bite her lower lip as I’m loving the wild side of her.
Without wasting another moment, my other hand traveled back to her center as my finger starts to slowly rub her.
A victorious smile escaped my lips when I heard her moan making giving me one heck of a boner which I am sure she’s already aware as my erection is now rubbing her.
Her hands started fumbling with my belt and before I even knew it, she was helping me pull down my pants.
My eyes caught the triumphant smile on her lips as she threw my pants on the corner.
I chuckled once I noticed her staring at the bulge below me.
“Oh God, Zaya, you’re making me go crazy,” I muttered as I put my mouth on her nipples and started sucking her.
Her breathing started to become quick and heavy as I continuously suck her breast while my other hand continuously rubs her fold. Without a warning, I slowly let one finger enter inside her and I heard her moan, her body arching, even more, her breast brushing against mine. And then I added another finger and I earned a loud moan in response as I alternately thrust my fingers into slow and daunting to fast and needing.
I noticed as her breathing started to be quick and heavy.
My lips touch hers again and I kissed her hungrily.
“You have to tone down a little baby or everyone will hear you,” I teased and she bites my lower lip in response.
“You think I give a fuck about them right now?” She snickered and I wanted to laugh at her eagerness.
My moan had gotten louder when I felt her hand slipped inside my briefs and she started stroking my member.
Holy Shit.
I pulled away and stared at her.
“Sorry, babe, but I can’t hold back anymore. Will you let me?” I asked and I smiled as she nodded, and I pulled down her panties and admire the gem in from of me.
Again, I grunt internally once I realized that I don’t have a condom with me now.
I guess I’m gonna have to pull out.
She bit her lower lip as she started pulling the waistband of my briefs and soon enough, we were both naked, her eyes widening at the sight of me.
I situated my self between her legs.
I stared at her and realized how scared she looked.
“Do you trust me?” I asked her. She bites her lower lip and then she nodded.
“I want you to be my first,” she stated and my heart skipped a beat.
“This will gonna hurt, babe but I will be gentle…” I warned her and her eyes got misty for a moment.
And then she looked at me determined.
“I want this, Seth. I’m all yours,” she stated and I have never felt so happy hearing those words from her.
I promise I won’t hurt this precious girl anymore and I will fight for us until the end.
“I love you, Zanaya….” I whispered as I kiss her lips once again, getting ready for what’s about to happen. I lowered my body and teases her entrance and I saw her bite her lower lip in anticipation.
Slowly, I started pushing my length inside of her and I felt her squirming under me, her hands immediately started scratching my back and I realized how her eyes started to moist. My other hand brushed the locks of hair covering her face and kissed her lips to distract her mind from the pain she must be feeling.
“I love you, baby,” I whispered between kisses as I slowly thrust in and out of her, her legs immediately wrapped around my waist.
I started gently and really slow and I felt her slim fingers tangle themselves on my hair. My mind went clouded, overwhelmed by the emotion I’m feeling and the ecstasy that is taking over within me.
“You’re so tight baby,” I whispered before started kissing her again.
After I felt her body relax, my pace fastens a little and she started to moan under me which made me thrust into her deeper.
“Fuck Seth!” She whisper-moaned and that’s what it took for me to rock into her, again and again until we’re both in a moaning mess.
“Say it, baby, tell me I’m making you feel good,” I whispered to her and she pulled me by the neck, kissing me passionately and as she pulled away, she showered my face with soft kisses.
“Harder baby, I’m coming,” she whispered, and I watch her beautiful face every time my length thrust against hers.
“I’m already close too. baby,” and in a few more thrust, I felt her contracting inside until I felt he shaking as she orgasm, falling completely under me and that’s all it took for me to pull out as I release.
Once I did, my body lay flat beside her, my other hand reaching for her head until it was laying on my arms. pulling her closer.
We were both panting, our fast breathing echoing inside her room.
I looked at her and saw her eyes closed, but my heart fluttered even more at the sight of her smile. Slowly, I moved forward and kissed the top of her head.
“I love you Zanaya, so damn much, baby,” I whispered before pulling her even more until sleep and exhaustion consumes both of us.
And I’m happy.