Bella’s POV
It has been 5 days since Xavier walked out of that door. 5 days since I have been stuck in this room. Everyday it is the same routine. I woke up at the bay window as I did not want to sleep in that bed. I take a shower with the spare clothes that were placed in the closets. I spend my day at the bay window, just staring out at the forest. In the morning, afternoon and evening, there would be a guy coming in to give me food and refill the water. And at night I will end up falling asleep with tears flowing freely.
I had not touched the food that was brought to me, hence I could physically feel myself becoming weak. I have tried to escape. But it was up to no gain. I tried to break the window. But it was a bullet proof window. I tried banging the door but no one could hear and even if they did they did not care. I even tried asking for help from the person who brings my food. But all he does is give me a long sigh.
After some time, I gave up. Now as always I was sitting at the bay window. Tears were flowing freely. The person who brings me food, left awhile go bringing the untouched, cold food along with him. I got up from the bay window seat to go to the washroom to wash my face.
As I saw my face, I cringed internally. I had sore red eyes due to all the crying. My face looks dull. All the light that I had has been gone. I could not even recognise myself anymore. It is like someone had replaced me. Before, no matter how sad I was, there always was a light, a spark in my eyes, as I always had hoped. But now having all hope gone, there was not light or spark there in my eyes.
If Alec and Avery were here, they would have cheered me up. We would sleepover with movie marathons. I would have finished 3 tubs of vanilla ice-cream before the movie would have even finished. Before going to bed we would have destroyed all the pillows I had by having a pillow fight. we would have been completely worn out.
Thinking about all this brought a sad smile as a lone tear drop from my left eyes. As I washed my face, I saw a blade. That is when something I never thought came into my mind. I grabbed the blade and walked out the bathroom.
– SELF HARM AHEAD.-
I took a sit at the bay window. My head started to become heavy as I thought of what I was going to do. I did not want to do it. But I had no other choice. As I thought of everything that I had lost, I came to realise that there was no other reason for me to live anymore. I had to do this.
I took one long, deep breath as I placed the blade at my wrist where my radial artery is. I closed my eyes and thought of Alec, Avery and their parents for the last time. “I am going to go to the same place my parents are.” I whispered to myself.
As I opened my eyes, I slid my right wrist with the blade. I placed the blade under the pillow. I saw the blood flowing freely. I placed my hand at the seat. I felt myself becoming weak. Just then, the door swung open. There stood Xavier. He scanned the entire room, looking, searching, for something or someone. That is when his eyes found what he was looking for. Me. he came running to me at an inhuman speed.
He kneeled in front of me as he took me in his arms. He was shaking me. I could see his lips moving but I could not hear anything he was saying. He kept shaking me vigorously. He took my wrist and when he saw it, his eyes went wide.
I could not keep my eyes open any longer. As I closed my eyes, I felt a drop of tear.
But it was not mine.