Bella’s POV
I stirred awake. I swear I keep fainting a lot these days. As I realised why I fainted, I jolted awake. My eyes scanned the right side of the room, and as I turned my head to the left, I saw two blue eyes that was filled with concern and worry which was directed at me. I quickly scrambled away from him. Hurt was evident in his eyes. But the only thought I had was the fact how he simply killed the wolf. Goosebumps run down as I think about it. Seeing my discomfort, he tried to reach for me. I just scooted away.
“I know it is hard to take everything in. But it is the truth. Please trust me.” he said as he stared at my eyes. “Y-You ki-killed that wo-wolf.” I said as I stuttered. As I said this, his features went rigid. His muscles visibly became tensed. My eyes still were wide. “I had to. If I didn’t he would have hurt you. I could not let him hurt you. You were the only person that was in my mind at that time.”
I could not accept his reason. The way he killed petrified me. It was as if he was a beast. And the worst part is that I am supposed to spend the rest of my life with a person like him who made me want to just bury myself.
I stood up, standing at the opposite direction of him. “Please let me go home. I want to go back home. I am so scared. Please let me go.” I begged him to let me go. “Y-You a-are sca-scared?” He asked as I felt hurt in his voice. But I was just too scared. I nodded my head rapidly to show how scared I am. “Are you- Are you so-scared of m-me?” he questioned me.
I slowly nodded my head at him. I felt him take a deep breath. In milli-seconds he was hugging me tight to his chest. Again he started to sniffle at the crook of my neck. That is when I remembered what he said. I really want to pull away. As I tried to pull away, “pl-please just for awhile.” he asked as I felt his voice shaking.
I stopped from pulling away. I don’t know why it hurt when I heard his voice. It was filled with desperation, guilt and most of all, despair. I let him hold on to me and smell, which was weird, as his uneven breathing came to normal. As he took one long deep breath and let it out, his breath sent me tingles and sparks from my neck to my stomach.
He slowly and reluctantly pulled away. He pulled away and looked straight into my eyes which was covered with fear. As he took one last look “I am sorry” He said as there was hurt evident on his face and I knew it was because of me. He nodded his head. “May I know what your Name please.” he asked in the hope of telling me. As I debated whether or not I should tell him, the hurt in his face made me tell him. “Bella”. “Bella” he said as if testing my name. He gave me a sad smile as he turned on his heels and went out the door . I just stood there knowing very well that he had locked the door hence there was no way out.
Tears start to fight its way out. But I did not let them out. I was too tired to even cry. I did not want to hurt him. But I am just so scared. First I was taken away from my life. secondly I came to realise werewolves are real. And thirdly, I was told that I had been mated to werewolf by the moon goddess and had to spend the rest of my life with him.
Not knowing what to do next, I decided I should take a shower. I came to realise that it was almost night time as the sky started to change into dark blue. As I saw a closet, I had no other option but to use the clothes temporarily.
I grabbed the smallest size t shirt and sweat, which was still too big on me, I entered the bathroom. As I opened the shower, my tears that I kept at bay also came out. I let myself cry as there was no other option to keep me from going insane.
Soon I showered. When I came out, I saw a tray of food. Not wanting or being in the mood to eat them, I straight went to the bay window. As I sat there I realised I had not eaten for a very long time. I just shrugged it off. Soon sleep took over me. The last person that was in my mind was Xavier.