Ranulf’s POV
It had been days, I was upset when Durwin came back obviously ignoring my instruction.
“I think me being there reminded him too much of you my king. And it was affecting him, he hadn’t eaten in days and just been sleeping in his room. You’re hurting him, why can’t you just go to him?”
Durwin must’ve felt something for Rain, a kind of urgency. No other being had ever questioned me, their king. But Durwin had blatantly asked and second-guessed my decision.
“And you’re leaving him alone in his house?” I snapped at him, my fingers gripped my throne trying to calm myself down.
“I visited his pack house before coming back, I had discussed his issue with the pack leader. We talked and he convinced me to give Rain some space and that he will send his beta and his healer if needed.”
Durwin stood before me and look me straight in the eyes, he was not afraid. He wanted me to…
“But why can’t you?”
“I wish I can…”
“My King, please go see him? Just from afar… you will see for yourself, then you can decide. I just, he’s been through a lot and you’re…”
He seemed to have stunned himself to even suggested me with the idea. And he must’ve realized that he had gone too far.
“I’m so sorry my king, I shouldn’t have doubted your decision.” He said kneeling before my throne.
“You can punish me as you pleased.” He said lowering his head down, surrendering himself to me.
“Get up Durwin, you’re dismissed. Go to the quarter until I summoned you, and do not discuss this to anyone.”
“As you please my king.” He slowly got up, his head was still down in respect to me then he retreated himself to the harem’s quarter.
Two days after pondering on Durwin’s words, I finally couldn’t take it anymore and decided to see him. I was worried and I’ve missed seeing him. I was just going to see him from a distance and was going to make sure that he was good.
Standing at the tall tree branch, I could see him clearly on the field. But what I didn’t expect was to see him laughing with another man. He was happy, I was glad that he was happy.
Was I?
Nope, I was crazy jealous of the other man. It looked like he was training Rain, but the way he looked at him was different. And I should’ve let them be if I wanted him to move on, but I was upset that he had forgotten about me in days. About us.
I groaned and cracked a tree branch with my bare hand. I regretted my action as the sound had made Rain turned around, and the buff man shielded him at an impressive speed. At least he could protect him.
I cursed on the inside, I was definitely not ready to let him go as I was boiling with anger and jealousy.
But they didn’t act further when the trainer picked up his stuff and wrapped his arm around Rain’s shoulder. Damn it!
It seemed like they were heading back, I slumped back to the tree trunk behind me. And was about to go, when I saw him touched and kissed by his trainer.
The pain shoots to my chest in an instant, it wasn’t long but felt like it could destroy me. My chest hurt so bad, and I had to resist my deepest urge to not run to him and kill his trainer.
The feeling was far worst than what I felt decades ago when I was betrayed by my lover then cast down to hell.
But somehow I managed to stay back and just watch as my Rain was being touched and kissed by another man. My palm was bleeding from crushing a large tree branch, but the sting had made me occupy my murderous mind and taken a step back.
It was dark when I decided to flap my wings and get down from the tall tree. I’ve seen the trainer checked the parameters hours before sundown, and I’ve hidden myself higher up the ground when he was picking up my scent.
I was feeling defeated and was going to go back to hell and live the rest of my casted life like my old self again. But I needed to see him one last time just to say goodbye to him and hoping that he’ll be asleep by that time.
His house looked quiet, the trainer had gone back and so did Grey. At least he had his pack loving him as he deserves.
I was quietly opening his bedroom door, he was sleeping peacefully. I sighed as I watch him sleeping, from the corner of his room. But then an hour later he started getting restless, then he was crying in his sleep. His tears were trailing down his cheeks, I thought he was dreaming about his mate.
Then I decided to go wonder into his mind, and immediately start feeling his hurt. But I didn’t expect that he was sad about me, about us. He was missing me, hoping that I would go back to him and love him forever. He was hoping that the universe would be kind, and let him have me. His tears fall and he sobbed when his mind was crying out my name.
And that was when I decided to join him on his bed and hold him. He was snuggling closer to me, then slowly opened his damp eyes and was surprised to see me.
“You came… you finally came for me.” His voice was croaked, and he was holding on to me tightly.
“I’m so sorry Rain… I’m so sorry…” I caressed his hair while cocooning him under my wings.
“I’ve missed you, I missed you so bad that…”
He was about to say some more when I remembered his kiss.
“You kissed another man?” suddenly my jealousy was back from nowhere.
“Actually yes…” his sounded defeated, but he roughly wiped away his tears and tried to move away from me. But I was not letting him go, so he put his cheek back on the crook of my shoulder.
“I was upset that you leave me so easily…”
“Rain, it’s not that…”
“But that’s exactly what you did, you leave me so easily like I meant nothing to you…”
“I’m a cast being. If you’re with me, then you’re never going to reunite with your mate in the afterlife…” I cupped his face and wiped his tears, I looked him in the eyes trying to make him see what his future would be if he didn’t let go of us.
“But…”
“Yes, and I love you too much that I didn’t want to stand in your afterlife happiness. Cause I’m nothing but a fallen angel, I’m a castaway from heaven. But you… you have the most beautiful soul, and I could never dream of parting you away from your mate.”
Rain looked at me with his reddened eyes, his hand caressed my jaw. I closed my eyes for one second, taking our feelings, our closeness once again. My chest hurt, thinking this might be our last. That I was actually wanting him to be happy, even my selfless self was for once ready to let him go. Maybe.
“Can I? I’ve missed you…”
He was pleading with me and pulling me down to kiss him. And I was letting him, and we were once again kissing and eagerly engulfing ourselves in each other’s embrace.
“Rain…”
“My King… I need you…”