A few days later, I resumed writing, and the first thing I did after logging into my account was going online and updating the novel I was writing. I knew that I had done injustice to the readers just because of a misunderstanding, But I couldn’t help it! I was really not motivated to post anything. It was good that my husband stepped up and brought Vampire him to solve our misunderstanding. Otherwise, I knew that I wouldn’t have updated anything, and would have deleted everything from the computer.
But thankfully, I still had original drafts in my personal file.
So that day, I opened the computer and started writing. This time, I wasn’t turning the entire story into a tragic love story with a bad ending. Since I had already dedicated this novel to Vampire, I would only write something that was happening in my life for real.
So if my editor left me all alone, how would I be able to write at peace and portray a good ending while making the main character go on frequent dates with the female lead? I couldn’t because since the main character of the book was portrayed after Vampire, the female lead was me. How could I even think of spending the time even in my book with someone who stabbed me in the back?
That was the sole reason why I wasn’t able to write a single word!
But thankfully, I could write as much as I like now that the misunderstandings were solved. With a big smile on my face, I turned the storyline in the new Chapter and made the protagonists solve their problems similar to what happened in reality.
I even mentioned that the husband compromised and decided to keep the wife happy while bringing Vampire home. Since the female lead was in depression and only her editor could make her smile, the husband in my book gave up on his happiness and decided to keep himself busy while the leads could spend more time with each other.
After that, I continued writing the Chapter with a big smile on my face.
It was already afternoon when I felt my husband tapping my shoulders. I stretched my arms and glanced back at him. “Lunch is ready.”
I smiled at him and turned off the laptop. At this time, I already knew that my husband could go to any length to make me smile. At this thought, I felt both guilty and moved. If I hadn’t been feeling affectionate toward Vampire already, I would have made plans to improve our relationship.
But now, it was too late. My heart already belonged to someone else whom I could never have, and my husband was still diligently trying his best to make me feel blissful.
I really wanted to open his brain and see what the heck this guy was even thinking about all day! It was like he had sacrificed his own feelings for me, and he still wasn’t willing to let me go. What kind of sacrificing person was this?!
I sighed and shook my head. No matter what, I should first focus on my novel and nothing else.
After eating food cooked by my husband, I headed back to the computer and started writing the Chapters. And just like that, I wrote about 10 more Chapters within a few days. I worked day and night to produce the perfect piece of writing that could touch millions of hearts. Even I got emotional at one Chapter to the point that I had to keep tissues beside me while I was writing.
But the only thing that made me feel even more guilty than earlier was my husband’s question every night. After lying on the bed every night before sleeping, he would tap on my shoulders and say, “Are you happy?”
He would ask this question with a straight face. If you didn’t look carefully at his expressions, you would fail to notice a trace of anxiety floating in his eyes. So I could only sigh and force a smile. “I’m happy.”
It wasn’t like I was lying. I was happy because Vampire and I were back to chatting as before. He would text me every now and then, flirting with me at the same time. We still hadn’t cleared up whether we were in a relationship or not, but one thing was clear. Even my editor had feelings for me that went beyond friendship.
But the only thing that made me feel depressed and guilty was my husband’s expectations. He still thought that I would come back to him, and that I would start feeling emotions for him again. I even tried to think of him as a romantic interest again, and tried replacing him with Vampire in my mind, but remained unsuccessful.
I never felt a single thing in my heart after thinking of my husband. It almost felt like me and Lewis had become close to strangers. So I had no choice but to give up, and just live in the present.
But I never thought that my husband would actually have expectations beyond my imagination. After talking to me for a while, he would scoot closer to me and bring me in his arms before placing a kiss on my forehead. Some days, it would be only limited to that, but other days…
His lips would linger on my forehead before he would continue to kiss my face before reaching my ears. “Can we do it tonight?”
When this had happened for the first time, I was stunned and couldn’t react for a long time. Then I gently pushed him back and forced a smile. “I’m tired. Wrote a lot, you know?”
I could see a trace of disappointment flashing in his eyes, but he nodded and closed his eyes to sleep.
I released a breath of relief after that before moving away from my husband’s embrace. I could feel an emotion of guilt rising in my heart for some reason. I had already given my heart to Vampire at this time, and here I was sleeping with someone whom I had fallen out of love with. I couldn’t tell whether this guilt was for Vampire or Lewis, but I knew that I was doing wrong. But did I have any choice?
I could tell that Lewis wasn’t ready to let me go, and I wasn’t ready to forget Vampire either. I had tried, and it resulted in depression. I knew that if Vampire hadn’t come back in my life, I would have committed suicide.
That editor was my heart and soul. He was the sole reason I was breathing, and he gave me a reason to live my life everyday. He helped me achieve my dreams. How could I let him go? He had rekindled the emotion that was dormant in my heart for years. And now when I got him back, I was even more reluctant to let him go.
This was the last thought before I slept that day. And a few weeks passed by just like that. One morning, I got up and headed over to the computer before opening the novel website. As soon as I opened the notifications, my hands paused after seeing a certain message.
The company texted me saying congratulations for rising to the top ten level. As a gift, they would give me the weekly feature where my novel would be advertised at the topmost banner for a week!
I stared at this notification with widened eyes.
How could this be possible?! An emotion of happiness burst in my heart. I didn’t move, and even my husband, who was cleaning the kitchen, paused and glanced at me. “Is something wrong?” He asked in a worried voice?
I got out of my trance at his voice and grinned. “Nothing.”
I took my phone and quickly texted Vampire about what I just saw. At this time, my heart was jumping out of my ribcage wildly as if it would just burst out without any prior warning.
I just couldn’t believe it. How could I reach the top ten so easily?! I had even stopped publishing for a few days in between, and the website still managed to push me to the top just like that! Was there a glitch in the website?