I changed my sight. I looked at my son sleeping. Daniel is now married with Ewan, the priest of frost wolf clan, right hand of Samuel, meaning, they share sympathy this time.
They are divided by their race, Daniel from our Inferno wolf clan, while Ewan for the frost wolf clan. This reality implies a lot of possibilities.
Daniel might slide and tell Ewan anything that will be discussed in this room.
Yes, I love Samuel, but where did that love brought me and my clan? Did it not result to the near death of my fathers?
For the mean time, I have to lie to Daniel.
“I am not sure if what I had for him was love, and until this very day I cannot even say if I love him.
But one thing is for sure, I don’t trust him. And I won’t fall into his trap again in case he has a plan.”
Daniel did not say a word. He stood up, tapped my shoulder then went out.
I know what he wants, if I had the chance to ask him, he sure will suggest that I will give it a try with Samuel again.
But I am not buying anymore.
I have to take things sure and slow. Not even my love for Samuel can change that. Not this time.
Samuel’s Pov
For everything that I heard from Daniel and Kolten’s conversation, Kolten saying he doesn’t love me turned my world upside down.
I felt so small, and I seem to have lost every strength that I have. Does this mark the end of us?
Should I go back to my clan and leave Kolten behind? I think if him not seeing me makes him happy and comfortable, then I guess I should leave the soonest.
I have no place here.
It doesn’t need for Kolten to pressure himself pretending.
What if it takes years for him to test me? That would add another suffering for our son’s longing to finally interact with Kolten like normal.
I took a deep breath. Shook my head twice, then enter the room.
When I entered, I saw Kolten lying in bed with his arms wrapped around Hale.
His eyes are closed, but I know that he is still awake.
“Kolten, can we talk?” He raised is head.
“I am sorry, I know that it is late and you need rest, but can you please give me a moment?” I am scared, not even sure of how to start the conversation.
But I made my mind.
“Is it urgent?” he asked me as he positioned himself to sit.
I took another deep breath before I continued.
“Kolten, I know that I have caused you a lot of pain and troubles. If I am to ask, I can say that even my death is not enough to pay back. Allow me to say my sincere apologies to you tonight.”
His eyes frowned.
“What do you mean?” he looked a little bit confused.
“I cannot force you to forgive and trust me easily. I know it is hard. And if you, not seeing me gives peace to your life and your entire clan. I will leave.”
Kolten’s Pov
Samuel talking with his teary eyed in front of me, I don’t know what to feel. Why is he suddenly saying these things to me?
“Kolten, I am sorry but I heard everything, you don’t have to burden yourself pretending inf ront of me. You don’t deserve to waste your times pretending that you are sick just to test me. It is not worth it.”
Samuel suddenly broke down. His tears are flowing this time.
I was totally shocked. So, he found out I was pretending? It is a surprise that he did not ride on this time like he did before.
“Samuel I-“ he interrupted.
“You don’t need to explain. You don’t have to. Tomorrow before dawn, I will be leaving. Even if I want to leave now, I know it is not right to just get lost with out Hale knowing. “
Hearing Samuel bid his goodbyes, my heart feels like it is being bitten very bad. I feel suffocated. I cannot breathe freely.
“I have one request to you.” Hearing him say those, I almost wanted to stop him.
I almost wanted to tell him that what he heard were not all what they meant.
But I am lost for words. And I don’t even know how to start my words.
“When our son cannot wait and will start to look for me, please tell him to not expect for me. Also do not let him go to frost wolf castle and find me because for sure, I wouldn’t be there.”
What does he mean? Where will he go? Why is he saying this? And why am I hurting? Why do I feel fear for not knowing where will he be?
“If it is okay to you, can I get Hale? I will sleep with him to make sure that I will talk to him before I leave tomorrow. Also, I want to cuddle him.”
I was left speechless, right after I nodded, he carried Hale.
While they are heading out, my heart is racing. I cannot believe what I just heard.
Did he really meant everything he said? Where will he go?
Will it be for good? He is not coming back to see us after he left?
What are his plans?
Thinking that he will be away, my eyes started to wet. I didn’t notice my tears started to run down.\
Patrick’s pov
I saw Samuel went out Kolten’s room. He has their Son with him.
I cannot see the point of Kolten with his plans.
Why too late for the test he was saying. A selfish person will not sacrifice their lives for the people they love.
Right when I saw Samuel entered his room. I went to Kolten. As his father, I know that what I will tell him can help him decide.
When I entered, I saw Kolten laying with his face down.
“What happened?”
He is not answering me.
“Kolten, I know you are awake. Can you tell me what happened?” r
Right after I finished talking that he sat down. His eyes are red, he is weeping.
“Father.” The only word that I heard from him.
“Daniel told me your plans, don’t you think you need to reconsider your reason and your theory?”
I am trying to convince him but he answered me coldly.
“He is leaving tomorrow for good. Let him be. I want to rest, if you go out kindly close my door.”
After his words, he laid again. Covered his face with his blanket and did not answer me again.
I had no choice but to leave him. why are the youths today becoming so unreasonable?
They decide so easily?
It is true that time changes people.
During me and Elvis’s younger years, we fought over things but did not come to the point of compromising our son.
Samuel’s pov
I feel sorry for my Hale, only if I could take him with me. We will live in the normal huma’s world.
We will go away from all the wolf things. Go abroad together and start a life.
A normal life.
I wish I could do. But I won’t add up any problems anymore. Maybe I will just sneak here from time to time. Looking at him from a distance is going to be okay.
Just to make sure that he is always safe will be fine with me too.
Lying beside me, he is sleeping, displaying a very innocent face.
I know, one day he will understand things. Not today but one day.
I know how it feels to grow without your parents. When my mother died, I felt so alone and empty.
After few years, my father died too. He died because he chose for me and Alex to live.
I was deceived and lied for a long time by my grandfather, it was too late to know that all I believed were not what was right.
I hated the inferno wolf clan for my family’s fate.
I hope that, that history won’t happen again, that fake teachings will not instill anger towards every clan’s child of their children and the next generations to come.
I hope too that Kolten will mold our son rightfully, that however he hates me, I hope that he will still make my son remember me through the years.