(Harry’s POV)
In everyone’s life there exists a person whose presence makes them smile a little more, whose absence makes them mad to the core. The person in my life was granny. From the day when I started to learn to walk to the day I became the support for her walk, she was with me, always. But she left me blasting a dynamite in my heart. Now I’ve no one to support me whatever wrong I do, none to hit me if I drink more, no one to pinch my ears while teasing.
I was in the balcony looking at the view of the town still imagining my granny would walk to me with a cup of tea in her hands like she always does. But as I said, it was a imagination. Not the reality.
“Harry!” My mom shouted walking towards me. I turned back crossing my arms leaning to the railing.
She asked “Are you sure you want to come?”
I nodded my head in positive. She touched my cheek and looked into my eyes with the look I hate the most. Concern, sympathy and pity. I rolled my eyes shifting my gaze away. She then walked away saying “I’m glad you want to. You need to distract from your thoughts.”
I sat on the couch thinking if I could ever get distracted from all the things after I went to the city. It’s been many days since granny left us. My mom and dad stayed in this town for me leaving all their works. They kept asking me to go to city along with them but I didn’t. But as time passed, I decided to go with them. I mean, why should I stay in the town anymore? I don’t see any reason for staying. Granny, because of whom, I came to the town in the first place, was no more. My cousin and my town friends would call me if they ever get time. Then what else? Oh about Stella, nothing to think much. It’s clearly visible that she doesn’t loves me anymore, the only feel she had towards me was pity. I always make her cry. She is the princess and she shouldn’t shed her tears because of me. It was already over and I shouldn’t keep hope though it hurts.
At present, I didn’t want to think or care about anything. I just wanted to go far away from everyone and do whatever I wanted to forget everything and everyone. I fucking wanted one thing. Relaxation. And I’m on my way to it. My thought was simple. First, go the hell away from this town then come back for exams, take the degree then leave for Australia. I guess I’m gonna do it.
(Stella’s POV)
With the news, Harry was leaving the town, I was upset. I didn’t want to let him go. I wanted to stop him but a part of me kept saying he needed distraction from everything for few days. It’s not like Harry was leaving the town permanently. He would come within few days to attend his final exams and the real problem starts after that. I won’t be seeing him often once we graduate. He might leave for another country for his higher studies as his father wanted him to study business management and god knows what I would be doing.
Aunt Charlotte and uncle Zach were at my house talking to my parents. Harry was on the couch beside them not even looking at me. He was silent all the time except nodding his head to whatever my mom said or asked. After few minutes of talking they left the town.
Everyone started to prepare for the final exams and there I was, living in my thoughts, which were making me restless. It feels like I’d been searching for answers for the questions which were unknown to me. I didn’t know for what I was sad, for whom I had been feeling or anything. The only thing I’d been doing was either thinking or thinking to not think. I wonder if I could even pass my exams if I kept neglecting my studies.
While I was in my thoughts, Anna entered in with few books in her hand. She looked so irritated and tired. She dropped the books on the bed and lay beside me mumbling “If I get the chance to erase anything from this world, I’ll erase these exams. God! I hate them.”
“Tired of reading much?” I smiled looking at her.
“Hell tired.” She replied keeping her gaze on the ceiling.
She then looked at me saying “You have to explain me few topics.”
“Can you believe if I say I didn’t even start anything?”
“As much as I want to say I don’t believe… your eyes say I should believe you. What are you doing all the time?” she asked.
I shrugged my shoulders saying “I don’t know. A lot of thoughts, memories, future and all other shit. I can’t concentrate on anything, Anna. I feel like I’m so tired.”
“You are tired with all the thoughts and I’m tired with all these books.” She sat straight saying “Let’s do one thing. Let’s just forget everything for now and decide next about what we should do.”
She took out her cell phone and ordered pizza with coke. She put aside all the books, set the bedroom and turned on the Netflix. Within few minutes, we got our food and she licked her lips looking at it.
“Put aside your thoughts, Stella. Let’s just… eat.” She said sitting beside me.
We then started eating, watching Netflix, talking and began to ignore everything. After many hours of spending time like that and refreshing, we both went for our walk.
“I feel like all my burdens have vanished from me.” Anna said while walking.
“Don’t consider reading as too much burden. It would be fun too sometimes.” I said looking at her.
“I don’t think so.” She rolled her eyes.
We then walked in silence for few minutes then she asked “With what your brain filled with, that left no space for anything?”
“I don’t know. Messed up. From seeing Harry the first time to seeing him leaving the town recently. From visiting granny with him to sending her our good byes. Everything.”
“There is no everything. There is only one thing in your thoughts. It’s about Harry. What are you thinking about him again?”
“Maybe about the things that happened between us recently.” I put my palms on my face mumbling “Not again. God! Kill me please.”
“Stella! If you won’t perform well in this exams then the efforts you put from the beginning of the college would get wasted. Don’t think about the past or the future but think about the present. This moment, Stella. Let the things go with the flow.”
I simply nodded my head as a response to her as I got no words to reply. Then she distracted me with few other things and we reached our homes. From that day, Anna started to study with me and in her presence, I concentrated only on my books. But after she left, the same thoughts started to haunt me.
With each day passed, my heart to began to quiver with the fact that I won’t be able to see him again. But I don’t understand why I was thinking about him.
After a long day of preparing, Anna left to her house. From the next morning my exams start. I wondered Harry came to the town or not as I had not heard anything about him. Apart from these thoughts, in few days I’ll be a college graduate. What future behold for me is really a mystery. I didn’t plan what I would do after my college. Might be I’ll take rest from all the things. Go to any hill, roam around the holy places, do meditation… wow! What a liar I am. Thinking about the things I never do for nearly an hour, I drifted into sleep.
The next morning I went to my college with Anna. I noticed everyone reading and talking. Among all the students, I saw him. Harry. He was with Roman talking to him. I stared at him for a while until he stared back at me. It was really awkward when someone caught our glances.
The exam had started and I did well. After that, I came out of the room and waited for Anna, who had been writing still. I saw Harry at a distance and suddenly my foot stepped forward towards him. It’s just a week, then he will not be in the town anymore. I wanted to talk to him. But what should I talk? If I say let’s be friends forgetting everything then it would be a fake statement because I still have feelings for him.
I backed off realizing I had nothing to talk though I had a lot more to speak. Anna and I started to go away while my gaze was still on him.
“Want to talk to him?” She asked.
I nodded my head in negative saying “Nothing to talk. Let’s go.”