It’s been a week now and guess what? School is back to normal. I had a presentation with Raymond that day and I think I did pretty well there or because he couldn’t give his part well but I decided to help him out. Even after all that he put me through. But I figured it out. I told myself that it doesn’t matter to him and I’m still telling this to myself every time I see Raymond and Ellen together.
It’s not him who has to be convinced it’s me. I am still convincing myself that I fell for the wrong guy and I’ll keep telling myself that every moment until I get over him.
Dany is always there by my side. He’s been helping me with this. He’s there with me at the lunch, at P. E, at labs.
He keeps talking to me so I don’t zone out. It works pretty well but only till we’re in school. Dany goes for his football practice and I go home.
School is again as it was. Everyone always gossiping about the latest hot couple of school or as they say Mr. Popular meets Ms. Popular. Yeah, Raymond and Ellen are together.
No. Don’t even think I am affected. Why would I be? They can do whatever. I don’t even care whether they are alive or not.
Okay. Yes. You’re right. It hurts. It hurts badly like someone is backstabbing like you’re betrayed like you don’t mean anything like someone played on you with your emotions. It’s like you mean nothing again.
Dany has gained popularity now. I hear girls whispering about the ‘new hot guy’ in school. Every time I’m with him girls throw daggers at me. Believe me, these girls are going to kill me someday.
I was walking towards my locker while finding Danny when I saw them making their way through the corridor. Raymond and Ellen were crossing the corridor and everyone else was behaving like they saw some celebrities. They were walking too close to each other. Hand in hand.
I’m strong. I’m strong. I’m strong. I’m strong…… I kept chanting that to keep myself calm and unaffected by what I saw. But as usual, it didn’t work. I was still chanting when Raymond walk past me. For one second his eyes met mine. For one second my world stopped. His eyes showed concern.
It’s like we can communicate through eyes.
My breath hitched. I choked. I was shivering only because when he walked past me he was too close. I clutched my books tightly when his skin brushed mine. It was warm. But what I was seeing was painful. Painful enough for me to make my world shatter. I saw Ellen. She had a smirk on her lips and as they reached her locker. She claimed Raymond by kissing him.
I couldn’t see it. So, I started walking where I don’t even know. I closed my eyes and started to breathe in breath out…… and kept chanting. I’m strong… I’m strong…..
I didn’t realize that I was still walking down the corridor until I bumped into someone.