GAVIN’S POV
“I love you too Seb and I miss you more.”
That’s what I hear over and over again since I got home. I almost never knew how I was able to go home.
I almost lost myself when I heard those words from Aubree. Those are the words I have long wanted to hear from her.
I did hear it but those words were not for me.
I never thought that it hurt so much to be heartbroken. It may sound gay but she is my first love and my first heartbreak.
I was there when she entered the restaurant. I was done with my meeting. I was about to approach her but I decided not to when I found out who is she meeting with in that place.
I felt scared when I saw them together. I know how much they love each other. I don’t know why Seb agreed to marry Sam even though he still loves Aubree.
I knew that I am nothing compare to him when it comes to Aubree. They are so attached with each other, and they love each other deeply. But I have to take a risk, because I do not want to regret it in the end.
I knew that I need to leave them alone. But I can’t move my self out. I was there listening to their conversation while hiding myself to them.
There I found out everything. The plan of Seb and Sam. I was shocked with their plans, especially with Sam. I know that the relationship we had were not that deep. We were both aware about our feelings with each other. We see each other more of a sibling than a lover.
I remember the first conversation we had when she was in America. She’s telling me about a certain guy she likes, but unfortunately that man doesn’t notice her.
Then one day she’s so excited telling me that the person she like will finally be her husband. But I also remember that a few days after that talk she was sad and she tried to change the topic when we talked about her fiancee. So that explain it.
Maybe Seb wasn’t aware yet, but I know Sam. She just said that just to save her face from Seb.
I clenched my jaw. I know how hard it is for Sam. She doesn’t deserve that. And that bastard has no clue on how much she loves him.
And then I stood up when I saw Seb hug Aubree and he started confessing to her his feelings. It was as if I was stabbed when I saw Aubree’s hug in return and her reply in his confession.
I knew that time that I need to hide myself but I can’t move. Especially when Aubree saw me, I know she saw the pain in my eyes. I can see the change in her expression. She feels sorry for me.
I know I’m the loser here. But I wish I had been given more time to let her know how much I love her. Maybe everything will change. Maybe she will choose me.
I really love her. I really do. But as they say,
if you really love the person you should set her free. And I am setting her free.
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AUBREE’S POV
Until now I still can’t believe in all the things that happened. It all seems like a dream.
Would you believe that we are all pretending?! I pretended with Gavin just to save my face and not to look like a loser, while Gavin did that so that Sam will not be guilty anymore. Then Seb to have a way to come back to me and Sam to win Gavin back.
Though I’m still doubting Sam. I knew that she doesn’t feel anything towards Gavin.
If she really love Gavin she don’t need to agree on that arranged marriage because surely her family with choose Gavin over Seb. Gavin’s family business will be a great help to expand their business.
I am very sure that Sam has a feeling for Seb. The way she look and smile on him, it is full of love and adoration. But why the things that Seb is saying about Sam contradicts with what I am seeing from her?
Seb asked me to help Sam with Gavin. But I told him that I don’t think I can do that. I don’t want to push him to others just because we can no longer be together.
I owe Sam a lot. Even though I still doubt her true feelings toward Seb.
But part of me is not happy. When I saw Gavin earlier in the restaurant I felt a pain in my heart.
I saw in his eyes the sadness and pain. Gavin is a great guy. Without Seb I would probably have fallen in love with him.
He’s perfect. Handsome, hot, smart, gentleman all that you would want in a man is in him. He is not hard to love.
But I guess we’re not meant for each other. He deserves someone better.
I’m going to Gavin’s office today. We’ll discuss my schedule and projects for the coming month.
Honestly, I don’t know how to face him. But I know that I need to apologize to him. Though I didn’t mean it, but somehow I knew that I lead him on.
He is a great friend. And that’s what I don’t want to lose him because he is the only friend I have.
When I arrived at his office, his secretary immediately greeted me. I told her secretary that Gav and I have a schedule today. He immediately let me in when he called Gav to inform him that I was already here.
The atmosphere of the two of us was very awkward. He’s so serious during our meeting.
As soon as I entered, he immediately made me sit down and he started our meeting.
I honestly don’t understand what he is saying.
I try to read his eyes but I see no emotion from it. But one thing is for sure. Something has changed. And that’s what I’m afraid of.
The sweet and gentle Gavin is gone now. The Gavin I see now is the business man Gavin and not my friend Gavin.
I can’t help it anymore so I already spoke.
“I’m sorry” was the first thing that came out of my mouth.
“What?” He asked in astonishment. But the escape of his gaze on me did not escape me.
“I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to lead you on.” Even though it was difficult, I tried to keep my voice intact.
“You don’t have to say sorry. Its my choice.” He said coldly.
I was about to hold his hand, but I could see him suddenly avoiding his hand.
I gasped. “I’m sorry.”
“It’s not your fault that he is the one you love and not me. That he is the one you chose and not me.” He said softly but firmly.
I close my eyes. I feel pain in every word he utters.
“Gav, you’re the only friend that I have. I hope nothing will change.” I bravely said.
I know the request was very selfish. But I don’t want to lose him.
“That’s impossible Aubree. I won’t be able to move on if we are still close to each other.”
It was as if I was stabbed by Gav’s words. I want to fight but I know he is right. Even if it hurts I must accept his decision.
I just nodded in response.
“Now that you and Seb are okay. What are your plans? Don’t get me wrong, I just wanted to know your plans because of Sam who is also involved there.” He said coldly.
I don’t know but I felt disappointed when I heard from him that he only cared about Sam here.
“We will still continue the pretend plan. We will wait for the right time before we execute their plan.” I was embarrassed to say.
“Good for you two. But how about Sam? What will happen to her after your plan?” He said seriously.
I swallowed. I want to cry because of the coldness of Gav’s treatment to me. But I can’t blame him. I hurt him. Maybe I deserve it.
“I-i d-don’t know.” I stuttered.
I could see her touching his forehead as if massaging it.
He sighed. “Okay. I’ll take care of her.” He said coldly.
“And also I want to inform you that starting tomorrow, Anthony will be your new manager. As you-”
My eyes widened.
“What ???” I cut to what he was saying.
“As you can see, I’m am loaded with too much work load and I will be out of the country most of the time because the business is expanding.” He said in a formal and cold voice.
“Is that really because of the expansion of your business or is it still because of me?” I could not hide the bitterness in my voice.
“That too.” He said briefly.
I do not know but suddenly my tears flowed. I can’t stand the way Gavin treats me, his decision to disappear from my life.
I never thought that when I got back with Seb but I lost Gavin.