Chap 39 

Book:One Sided Love Published:2024-6-3

After a week
Kate
‘Emma, you know how to tie your shoelaces… so no more help…’ I said in a mom tone
Emma replied ‘ OK mama’
‘ where’s Aria ‘ I found her watching cartoons
‘ Aria come here… we are getting late for school…’ she came running
then said ‘ Look mama I wear my school clothes without help’
I just smiled… she did wear the shirt, but the buttons were put so wrongly
I said, ‘ oh wow… such a big girl but let be put buttons in their place….’
I said to both girls ‘ OK girls come let me do your hair … so who is first?’
Emma said she wants first… Emma. hair is just like Emily. light blonde so I secure it with a high ponytail
I make both side braid of Aria brown, blonde hair… finally they were ready
Alex was waiting for them….
Emma nagged then said ‘ it’s so unfair… Aria will be back in 3 hours, but I have to be back in noon ‘
I replied ‘ because she just started the school and you are in prep, so timing changed baby’
Usually, driver drive them to school, but he has gone home for family emergency…. I started dropping them, but it becomes too hectic for me … so I reluctantly asked Alex to drop girls in the morning, but I will pick them afterwards …. Alex says he has no problem, but I told him that Aria school is two blocks left for Emma. he became still like he remembers that Aria is also going to school…. I don’t want to make things more difficult between Aria and him so I said I will drop them it’s no problem, but Alex stopped me and said he will drop them in morning …. so, this is the first morning Alex is going to drop them
Alex saw us coming and said ‘ ready!’
I said ‘ yup just let me put them in their car seats’
I said to Emma. ‘ Emma eat your lunch’
Emma ‘ okkkk mama’
I kissed my both girls… then I give Alex his office bag and kissed his cheek …  goodbye … I hope everything goes well.
Alex
Both girls were chatting, I was waiting for traffic light to turn green
Emma said ‘ I got A on spelling test…. what you got’
Aria thought a little ‘ I know 1 to 15 counting and a star on my writing’
Emma said ‘ silly that’s it … I know all the counting… ‘
Aria replied ‘ because you’re five and I’m three tomorrow…. Miss Rose says I’m pretty with smart brain’
I just smiled at her reply…
Emma ‘ I’m more pretty than you… you stupid…. daddy tell her? ‘
I said ‘ OK girls enough … don’t fight… and Emma. don’t use such words… ‘
Emma said ‘ Sorry ‘
I stopped at Emma school … I unbuckled her seats then picked her … kissed her and says goodbye ‘ bye baby ‘
I started my car again… I then start taking route to my office … when I heard voice ‘ Daddy’
I looked at Aria ‘ shit’ I forget she was there too
‘ shit’ Aria said
Fuck what’s wrong with me to use such words in front of three-year-old…
‘ OK don’t say this it’s a bad word’
Aria smiled…. I looked at her she is really a beautiful child
But I ignore that feeling and shake my head…. after two blocks I found Aria school
I said ‘ here’s your school… come on… I hope we are not late’
I was waiting for her to go but I found her to be fumbling with the seat belt and then I mentally slap myself how the hell she is going to get out of this car its fucking jeep I’m driving
I get out and open her door to unbuckle her seat belt, I hold her…. hold her for the first time in my life… she is so small and tiny … her little toddler feet her hanging just by my chest… holding her does some things to me… she looks so innocent … she was smiling at me like she is happy her daddy finally accepts her…. fuck I can’t do this… then she kissed me on my cheeks and put her hands on my neck tightly like she doesn’t want her daddy to go …. she is so innocent but I’m the monster to treat her like that…. it’s too much I suddenly put her down and said ‘okk now you go… it’s getting late’
I turned when Aria said ‘daddy’
I annoyingly replied, ‘ what Aria?’
She looked down on softly said ‘ you must go with me and dropped me in my class
Fuck… I replied ‘ If you know the way then you can go by yourself’
I know its harsh in sound, but I can’t do this… Aria expression looked sad like she is going to cry but just nodded…. I looked her going with her small feet looking so lost… then I saw every kid is going with a parent and I feel something … I feel protective for her… damn if I can hold her then I can also drop her to class… it’s no big deal … yeah no big deal.
I followed her’ Aria come I will take you ‘
She smiled and picked my hand with her small hand
When I reach her class, she said ‘ goodbye daddy… love you daddy’
That hurts… because I can’t love her… and I don’t want to hurt her so without saying anything I had gone from there.
Kate
Aria was extremely excited and happy that her daddy picked her and dropped her at her class … honestly, I didn’t believe her when she told me but looking Aria so happy … I thank God that may be Alex, just a little bit is opening up to my daughter, it makes me so happy … I wish this day would become a fresh start for them … I was thrilled with the news that I hugged her and kissed her forehead … this is really important thing for me… Alex came home at 7 o’clock … I took his brief case… Alex kissed me then smiled …. Emma runs to him and says excitedly ‘ good evening, Daddy ‘
Alex picked her and kissed her both cheeks ‘ hey baby girl… good evening’
Emma said’ did you bring chocolates daddy I told you ‘
Alex laughed and said ‘ yup, Martha has put the grocery in kitchen you can find it from there’
Emma excitedly runs…. Aria saw her daddy that puts a big smile in her face, and she run to him like Emma. … I tried to stop her like always, but she never loses hope …
Aria said ‘ hello daddy’ she puts her hands in air … indicating that she wants to be picked like Emma.
Alex looked at her strangely then he said ‘ good evening, Aria ‘ in his emotionless voice
Aria face dropped, she looked so confused… my heart breaks for her every time … she runs to me and hides her face behind my leg …. like she is embarrassed her daddy ignore her again… I gently picked her and kissed her cheeks … why Alex why … after all this time when she gets a little attention from you … you take away from her again.
Alex looked at me awkwardly’ I’m going to take a shower ‘ then he was gone
Dinner was silent except Emma was chatting about her day, Aria was quite
Emma said ‘ I want to eat chocolates ‘
I replied ‘ no … you are not … first dinner then sweets OK’
‘ But mama…’ Emma. fussed
Aria also replied ‘ I don’t want to eat… ‘
Emma said ‘ Looked mama we both want to eat chocolates ‘
I replied ‘ Emma. … I told you first dinner’
Emma said ‘ no I’m going to eat chocolates first… come Aria’
I replied ‘ Emma … don’t misbehave … it’s bad manner and doesn’t teach that to your small sister … you are big sister she learns things from you’
Alex angrily replied ‘who are you to say this to my daughter?… I know that’s bad manners, but Kate don’t use this tone in front of her again … use it with your daughter and teach her all manners you want’
I looked shocked at Alex …. how dare he… after all this he is asking who the hell I’m to Emma… I can’t control my tears n they start falling … I said ‘ excuse me’
With that I left the table.
I was in my room… I cried … Alex can say this to me I can’t believe that… nothing is change … I’m the second best always …