Kate
‘ wow … she is soooo beau… botiful….., I’m her big sister? ‘ Emma asks in her child language
I replied ‘ yes my love you are her big sister
Emma make a O face ‘ what’s her name .. mama’
I replied ‘ I named her after your mother Emily… her name is Aria Emily Robbins…’
Emma smile ‘ its so sweet … so Emma, called her Aria ‘
I replied ‘ yup baby called her anything you want… (aria started to cry a little I hold her then start to rock her) do you wanna hold her’
She beamed with happiness ‘ please can I hold Aria’
I replied ‘ yeah sure come here we have to be very careful otherwise she will cry more and even get hurt’
I looked at my both daughters proudly … Emma. was so happy to have a sister …. at least some one is happy for Aria…
Aria start crying loudly, the whole house echo with her crys… I told Emma its her feed time
I undo my breast buttons, let Aria feed my aching breast … Emma looked so confused, then she start giggling loudly … I asked her what happen
She said ‘ she is eating bobo ..’
I laughed ‘ small babies have food from mama bobos ‘
I felt Alex standing at the outside of nursery… he looked so intense and so quite that I don’t know how long he was standing…
Emma saw Alex she ran to him and said ‘ daddy … Aria is eating mama bobo’
Alex looked disturbed ‘ Emma its your bed time… why are you not in bed?’
Emma looked a little embarrassed and scared of Alex’s tone… even I’m a little bit scared he never used this tone with her.
I said ‘ Alex I told her to sleep a little late its really OK… she already has slept till evening… ‘
He replied ‘Kate its all about routine… everything should be in order in Emma’s life… otherwise her day will become hectic … soon she is going to start school I don’t want to disturb her routine… you know that well aside from any distractions from you life Emma should be first priority … no one else ‘
And there is Alex golden words …. it still pain me a lot but I don’t show it because I know he will use these words again… he called Aria distraction he have no idea what he is missing in his life
I replied ‘ of course Alex I never forget it… cause you keep reminding me ‘
He looked ashamed but then he cover it with dominant expression, then he said to Emma to get ready to go bed…
Emma hug me and Aria and then went to bed.
I looked at my little princesses I pray that Alex also start falling in love with her like I did with herthe first time I laid eyes on her…
A tear fell to my cheeks when I realized not for once he saw her face.
Alex
Daddy why I can’t go to Aria… I’m her sister’ Emma pouted and said
I kissed her forehead ‘ its, late you have to sleep so your mama and ar… baby’
I don’t know why I can’t say her name… it pains for some reason
Emma said ‘ she name is Aria Emily Robbins’
There it is … Kate named her middle name after Emily … it truly touched me and some how make me anguish for no other reason … that’s why I snapped at Kate when I can’t control to go there and look at her and Aria
I replied’ Her name not she name is… OK time to bed … close you’re eyes’
I went to see where is Kate … when I see she was with my parents … I don’t know when they came ….
my mom scold me
‘ Alex why didn’t you tell me Kate was alone…. we must have shorten our trip’
My father replied ‘ Yes Alexander that’s was very irresponsible thing’
I said ‘ I know what I did was wrong and I’m extremely sorry but I never knew Kate wouldl go into labour so soon’
Mom said ‘ well forget about everything… I, want to see my grandchild … and why there is no celebration in this house?’
She must have seen my and Kate’s face she then shake her head in disappointment….
Kate broke the moment ‘ I will bring Aria to you ‘
With that Kate gone she brings Aria..
Kate
Alex mom take Aria from me and kissed her head then said ‘ look at her she is so cute… she just looked like Alex …. ‘
I saw Alex flinched whenever Aria’s resemblance to him is brought up… and it pains me…
Alex parents bring some gifts for Aria, I’m become happy that at least Aria will be loved by Alex’s parents
After an hour Alex parents say there goodbye and left.
It left me, Alex and a sleeping Aria.
Alex said ‘ You are coming to bed’
I replied ‘ You are going to sleep in my room?’ Alex always have sex with me when he slept in my room, he knows he cant sleep with me so that’s why I asked
He replied ‘ And why not… I know I have to wait for 6 weeks but is there an issue that I can’t sleep in your room?’
I replied ‘ no problem… let me put her in bed’
Alex and me was settled down in bed, but we do not say a word…. but Alex was spooning me from behind … I know this is his way of saying sorry… after some hour I heard in baby monitor that Aria was crying loudly … I quietly get out of Alex embrace so that he cant get wake… I went to check my little princess… after changing and feeding her … I went to my room… when I saw Alex was wake and looking disturbed…
He said ‘ Is she keep doing this whole night’
Alex asked grumpily… I replied ‘ I hope not I had put her in sleep… but you know babies keep parent up all night
He said ‘ well I have office tomorrow.. you are tired… soon Emma is going to start her school .. and it will disturb her sleep too.. and damn this baby monitor is so loud that I cant sleep right now’
I looked at Alex shocked… clearly he knows babies cry at any time but he is being unreasonable
I replied ‘ I will try hard not to disturb you again… and I’m sure she is in deep sleep.. n for the baby monitor I can lower is volume n keep it with me… so that only I can listen’
Alex looked uncomfortable, I don’t speak but just nod … with that I lay down on the bed and turn my back to Alex…
He try to come closer but when he looked my rigid back he sighs and lays back to his side…
Aria started to cry again after 3 hours when I looked at time it was 4 o clock in the morning… since the volume of monitor is low, so only I can hear… and I hope Alex is not disturb otherwise he will become grumpy again then blame my little girl there…
After feeding her I went to my room and found Alex coming out of the bathroom… he just looked at me without saying a word he went to his side of bed…. looks like he was awake when Aria cried ….. I don’t know how to make things simpler any more.