Kate
Rachel was with me and she was holding my daughter…
She said ‘ what a precious little thing she is…. she is the most beautiful baby girl I have seen… oh look at her rosy cheeks..”
I looked lovingly to her then said ‘ Rachel thank you so much for being there for me… I will never forget that..’
Rachel ‘ Kate don’t you dare to say thank you .. I’m your friend and that’s what friends do ‘
I very blessed to have Rachel as a friend … my little girl started to cry …. its her feeding time… take give her to me
I unbuttoned my front button then my hungry little princess attack on it..
Rachel laughed ” oops somebody is very hungry… what you gonna name her’
The moment I know I’m having a girl… many name came into my mind but the name I want to give her my daughter was after Emily.
I said ‘ Aria Emily Robbins’
Rachel looked sympathetically to me ‘ Kate its a very beautiful name…. naming your daughter after Emily is very great step even after knowing she was your husband first wife’
I replied ‘ Emily was my friend my sister…. so my daughter should be named after her… it was the name that came into my mind, all the time’
She looked ‘ you are very kind and beautiful person inside and out… Alex is lucky to have you’
By Alex name I flinched… he still doesn’t see her… but what I was expecting he was already so loud and clear that he has nothing to do with Aria… I wish to god he changes his heart towards my daughter
Alex
Kate was sitting in the car she was holding the baby in sleeping bag …. I still doesn’t see her face… although I can see how this little thing is restless and active … she constantly shaking her legs and hands… her little fist is inside her mouth, every then now she cry, then relaxes .. then cry then relaxes… Kate was already so tired and she keeps looking at me that I will mind and get angry with all this baby crying… I feel shit to make her so uncomfortable… Kate never asked again for me to see the baby… may be it is good because I’m already I feel guilty, I cannot take it any more…
To make it less awkward I said to take ‘ hmm.. mom and dad are coming over tonight… they feel bad they were not with you and I called your father … he didn’t have any idea that you called… I told him that Mona picked the phone… anyway He said he is coming directly to home since you are discharged… so he may come’
Kate softly replied ‘ oh OK..’
Finally I reached home … when I was opening the door Kate said with embarrassed face ‘ Alex …. actually I don’t know in which way I left the house… it may not be that clean … I’m ..
I stopped her ‘ Kate please … I will not give damn to whole house … all that matters is you are alright … I already feel like shit I wasn’t with you when you needed me the most… (I picked her face ) its me who should say sorry not you’
She smiled and said OK … when I opened the door and let tKate enter first … I realized the house look so cold like nothing happened in the last 24 hours… I remember when Emma was born the whole house was covered with flowers balloons and welcome home signs… I remember Kate helped me to do all the decorations … everyone try to make Emily feel like a queen on that day…. now I’m standing in a house where their is no celebration sign and no one to hug Kate ….. when I looked towards Kate … I saw her face with sad expression like she was also thinking the same… I’m no good like everyone I let her down from the very first day I met her…..
she looked sad ‘ Alex im going to feed her … then take a shower… I will make the lunch and dinner afterwards’
I replied ‘ Kate you will just relax and rest … I will take care of everything … now go Emma will be here any time soon’
Hearing Emma’s name she give me a bright smile … she said ‘ I missed Emma. so much … I can’t wait to hold her’
With that the baby start crying … Kate start cooing her then said she will go to the nursery first…
I called the Mexican restaurant to order lunch… I decided to take a bath too.
After an hour I saw Kate was already dressed in loose sundress n freshly bathed… she was in the kitchen taking orange juice from the fridge….. I went to her and held her from behind… she flinched a little but then she relax knowing it’s me… she said ‘ Alex you scared me’
I was kissing her neck ‘ who you thought it can be… you looked so edible n fucking beautiful… all I want to do to take you to the room but dam I have to wait for 6 weeks …
She laughed ‘ me beautiful.?.. buddy I think you forgot I still have this pregnancy fat… that will make you run from me’
I replied ‘ Babe you are so wrong… you looked ravishing and you have not gain a lot of weight you looked more beautiful then ever’
I kissed her passionately … but stop when images of Emily came, after her pregnancy how much I loved her and kissed her like this when she become the mother of my child, one of the images was me and her standing in the kitchen and making out when all the guest were in the living room to see newborn Emma… fuck I missed her … I still feel I’m betraying Emily.
Kate looked confused but then her expression changed to a sad one when she realized where I have gone…. because I have done this many time to her… she get out of my embrace and give me sad smile then said that she is going to nursery… I looked her with guilt
The bell rang… since all the staff is on holidays… so I opened the door
It was Kate’s father who was holding sleeping Emma. Behind were some staff who were holding a lot of gifts …. look like some one is happy for Kate’s baby … surprisingly Kate’s father has come with gifts to meet his granddaughter… I feel a little relieved for Kate’s sake … may be she may not feel rejection from her father today… unlike me…
I greet him
He, said ‘ Alex … im sorry for the delay but like I told you I took Emma to Disneyland and she was so excited and happy there, so extended my time, but when you called I come immediately… I never knew Kate would go so soon into labour…
I replied ‘ you came that’s matter’..
I took Emma from him in the mean time Kate came… with a smile she said ‘Daddy you came… how are you… Emma my baby (-she kissed her head) she is tired I think’
I told her that I’m going to put her in bed… when I was coming to living room I heard
Kate’s father’say… about the called, Mona didn’t tell me because she forgot… otherwise I might help you…. secondly you weren’t so clear why you called so just ignore it’
Like a normal and sane person will called at that time… of course Kate was in need of them and Mona knew that very much, she choose to ignore….
Kate said ‘ Daddy you came that’s matter … just forget about it… and looked at those gifts … I know you would make it some how… but your presence was more than welcome …. but still thank you for bringing these gifts for my daughter’
Kate’s father looked a little embarrassed then said ‘ Actually these gifts are for Emma not for… I mean … for the baby.. these all belongs to Emma.’
I can see how broken hearted Kate is, which makes me more sad and depressed for her… all this time she, though her father was some how happy for her newborn daughter… God what she is going through only she knows…
She said ‘ Of course… it was a surprised for everyone… but like I said your presence was more than welcome… would you like to see her…. she looks just Alex .( she nervously laughed) she is nothing like me… do you want to hold her… she is sleeping but she will wake any moment so you will get some time with her’
Kate was babbling like she want to convince her father that her daughter is nothing like her and may be he will loved his new born granddaughter
Her father uncomfortably said ‘ hmm… I have to be at home… Mona is not feeling well …. may be next time’
She looked so shattered she softly said ‘ daddy please… for one second you don’t even have to hold her… just look at her…. no one from her family has see her yet… please’
He looked angry ‘ I told you already once that Mona needs me…. whose fault is that no one wants to see her ? Its your fault … you try to trap Alex so god has punished you for your sin… now I have to go’
I can’t control myself I went to talk to Ryan but by the time he was out of the door.
Kate looked devastated…..
I called her name but doesn’t reply
I touch her shoulder she looked at me
She tries to mask her hurt with a smile ‘ oh Alex ! Daddy was busy so he can’t stay longer … he brought these gifts for Emma. … let me collect them .. I will.. will put it her room’
She bend to collect all those gifts but I stop her ‘ Kate stop ! I heard it all… what your father said… it was hurtful ‘
She looked sadly then said ‘ Well this is the fate of me and my daughter to be unwanted everywhere… yeah it pains me a lot but sooner I accept it less it will become hurtful’
With that she left the room.