Alex
Mom tries to tell me something but I don’t listen to anything when Helen said what Kate did. I become so angry how dare she disrespect my family but her looks of misery and utter disappointment in me shook me too. And I don’t know why the fuck I am feeling so guilty. Kate was wrong
Everyone starts to leave and Mom still tries to talk to me but I told her not right now.
I went to the Kate’s room but stopped when I heard her crying voice. I knew I should go and check her but she brought this on herself.
I know sleep is not coming tonight so I went to the office and don’t know how long I will stay there.
The next morning I woke up with a headache and I realized I slept in my home office. I don’t want to go to my room that night where Kate was not present. I stop at my declaration and rub my temple sure it is my lust talking.
She is making everything in my life out of control. I know what I did with her was down right rude and cruel. She is my wife and I promise to respect her but fuck when Helen told that take insulted her, I become furious how could she. I still can’t trust her.
When I was having a conversation with the gents I heard Helen’s angry voice and that whole drama started. I know Helen is little judgemental and hot headed when someone says something wrong. But Helen never creates scenes.
So you think Kate wants to create a scene!
My inner thoughts taunted me
I went to my room to have a shower. The whole house was so quiet. I looked at the time it was 7:45 am. Kate woke up this time usually to make breakfast, maybe she is tired from yesterday’s event and who can blame her for that.
I went to take a shower and dressed in my office clothes and went to the dining room. Emma was awake and Martha was there cooking breakfast.
I was little concerned now as normally Kate does all these breakfast stuff and she is always on her routine. Is she OK?
I recalled then she had an appointment yesterday where she told me to come and I rudely told her no.
She also said something about doctor wants to talk to me
Fuck I never asked her how was her visit but why should I ask her when I told her I’m not interested. It’s better this way. She will not get the wrong idea.
But deep down I’m also wondering what is the gender but I ignored that thought
I asked Martha ‘ Where’s Kate? She will not have the breakfast’
Martha gave me some sort of angry look and said ‘ No sir. I have no idea… I checked her but she was in her deep sleep so I thought not to wake her… she looks very tired from yesterday dinner’
I have a feeling Martha knows about yesterday evening and my reaction but I choose not to answer but now I was worried sick that it was too much for her.
Everything was going OK yesterday, hell Kate made a very good hostess accept that moment which ruined everything. I was getting ready to go to the office when I couldn’t stop myself to go to Kate’s room and check on her. I opened her door and entered her dark room. She was sleeping and she was not at peace . She looked very tense and lost even in her sleep. Martha was right and she looked very tired.
I looked at her teary face and I felt so guilty I ran a finger to her cheek and softly called her name ‘Kate’
But I got no reply from her. I frowned but then I thought she needed rest. Maybe if I let her sleep more she will be feeling better and with heavy and unknown guilt I went to the office.
When I was driving all this time mom was calling even though I had missed a call from Aunty but I chose to ignore. When I enter my office Shawn was there already with a cup of coffee
I sighed in relief and said ‘ thank god… I need this’
He scowled at me and replied ‘ welcome but I brought this for me.. but never mind’ I took a sip then I saw Shawn was standing there awkwardly
I raised my eyebrows in question.
Shane shook his head and said ‘ Dude I know I have no right to interfere in your life but I can’t control it but your cold and cruel behaviour towards Kate…. I know I shouldn’t interfere but you did insult her in front of everyone. Alex you do have to trust her at some point in your life… She is your wife after all, you have to support her in all her problems… you know yesterday event has another story’
I have very bad feeling where it is going but I said ‘ what do you mean’
He replied ‘ Rachel told me it was Helen who started all this… she first belittled Kate and start insulting her what a lousy host Kate is, which I think was totally wrong … Kate was best and then she start saying how Emily has a sense of sophistication and then pointing out that Kate can trap you but not your heart and start making her feel like shit that you and Kate did not have a single wedding pictures where Emily’s pictures are all over the house…. which I think was heartbreaking. Your complete indifference toward Kate and constant judgement will cause a bigger damage if you don’t control it right now. Why invite your guests? to prove to Kate how less important she is?.
I look down in shame fuck. That’s what i was doing from the very start with her
Shawn continued and put me more in misery ‘but anyway Kate did not say anything she just smiled and tried to ignore it… but when Helen attacks your… I mean Kate’s unborn baby … that how you can believe its a Robbins baby and not a bastard at that moment Kate
lashed out….. Alex she doesn’t say a word when Helen say shit about her but she took stand for her baby… which you failed to do it for both’
I was shocked by the words that Shawn said.
Helen why did you do that and fuck me for believing her and once again doubting Kate and insulting her in front of everyone. I don’t know how to make this right. Shawn left me in my guilt. I don’t know how long I was lost in my thoughts when my cell vibrated. I saw it was from home for a moment I thought Kate is calling
I picked the phone and Martha ‘s voice came ‘ Sir if you’re not busy can you come home… Mrs Robbins is not feeling good I think…. she has been sleeping so long… I try to wake her but she is not responding. I’m very scared … I don’t know what to do’
I dropped my phone. No god no. Please don’t let anything happen to her. Earlier I felt there was something wrong with Kate and I didn’t realise. I left everything and went to the house by the time I reached Kate’s room… she was looking the same way I left her
I sit down on her bed and touch her head and try to open her eyes ‘ what’s wrong… Kate open your eyes… come on Kate … please Kate… Martha called the doctor right now’
Martha was scared too and replied ‘ I have already she is own her way’
After ten minutes the lady doctor came and checked Kate.
I was waiting impatiently
Doctor face tells me she doesn’t have anything good to say ‘ Mr Robbins Kate is, alright for now I have given her some relaxing injection. But Kate BP is not normal and earlier I told her stress will create complication for her, thank god the baby is fine but Mr Robbin If I’m being honest with you, Kate has got some complications in her pregnancy which can be risky that’s why i wanted you to come with Kate, but you have not come to any of her appointment I have to discuss something about her’
I lost all colours ‘Dr please tell me what’s wrong. Kate will be OK right?’
She gave me a disappointing look and said ‘ I wished you were more involved in her pregnancy … work is not always important… do you know Kate is anaemic and her blood pressure fluctuate which is not good for her in this situation and her history with panic attack, these things are not good Mr Robbin totally not good’
I paled fuck that’s why she asked because her doctor want to talk to me. I’m so ashamed that Kate has to make excuses about me in front of her doctor.
‘ I’m a very ashamed doctor … I will try to take care of her a lot but tell me she is OK right now’
She nodded ‘ yeah he’s fine… Some time stress all day can make pregnant women very tired and sick… but she will wake up in a few hours…
this is Kate’s diet and medicine chart which you make sure she followed daily’
I said thank you and let Martha see off the doctor.
I feel so angry at myself, at Helen, Ryan Evans and people like them always hurt the person who has done nothing wrong. Kate was expecting that her husband would support her in front of everyone but what I did. I will definitely give my peace of mind to Helen how dare she lied to me and played me
I kissed Kate’s forehead and prayed to God that she woke up soon. Even the baby she wants more than in her life should be OK… otherwise I will not forgive myself.
Kate
My whole body and head felt like it was hit by a truck… I feel so tired … when I put my hands in the bed I felt that I was touching someone’s hair… I opened my eyes it was Alex who lay his head in the bed… by my moment he woke up straigt away and holds my face to check I’m really awake
Alex’s eyes beamed with relief and happiness ‘ Kate … oh thank goodness … you are awake’
I was still confused ‘ what’s wrong and how long I slept’
Alex replied ‘ it’s almost 4: 00 pm in the evening you slept for the whole day … I was so worried sick … when the doctor checked you I still was not satisfied…’
I almost yelled ‘ The doctor ? My baby… is she OK… what about Emma. she is going to be so distressed and confused’
Alex put his hand on my head and said ‘ shh shh just relax Kate … just relax… you were not waking up so I called her… she said the baby is OK… Emma asked about you but I told her you’re not feeling good so you are resting she was OK by then’
I looked at Alex and then I started recalling the whole event yesterday. I removed his hand and looked away and said in a cold voice ‘ Alex why are you here… you should be in your office right now?’
He flinched and said ‘ Kate I know im an arsehole. but not that much that I’m going to leave my sick wife on her own’
I bite my lips to control my wobble. He hurt me way too much this time ‘ well you left me alone multiple times so why not now’
He shamefully said ‘ yes Kate I deserve your anger and I’m sorry for that… but you need rest and something to eat …. then we will talk .. OK’
He left and called Martha to bring something for me to eat
Martha became a good friend and mother figure to me in a short time. She brought food and said ‘ I’m so happy that you’re awake you have seriously got me worried.. don’t do this again… Mr Alex has been there the whole time… I don’t know what would I do if I didn’t called him’
I smiled and touched her hand ‘ I’m sorry Martha but you shouldn’t call him… I was OK you know’
She replied ‘ you were not…. I know you’re angry with Mr Alex and he deserves that but never take too much stress in this position also .’
Martha left and Alex came with my baby Emma
He pass me a small smile ‘ Hi look who come to meet you… she was asking about you a lot so I thought to let her see you and Emma, Kate is little tired so don’t disturb her’
I grab my baby from hi ‘ Alex she never disturbed me she calm me… come here my baby girl I’m so sorry I worried you.. come here’
Emma came and sat down with me and said ‘ Mama Kate! Dada say you sick…. Emma. don’t want you sick… eat soup.. you OK’
I kissed her head ‘ oh baby … I’m so good right now OK… ‘
When I looked at Alex he stood still and then I realized what Emma had said to me. Damn it now he will put the blame on me that Iet Emma called me mama
‘ Alex she said it to me, sometimes I have never said anything to her’
Alex shake her head ‘ I know Kate… you don’t have to explain me… you are like her mother to her’
Alex’s phone rings. He says it’s his mother and he left me in surprise that he didn’t mind.
Emma and I start talking and playing with her doll. I told Martha to bring some snacks for Emma. then we started watching TV in my room.
Alex
Mom told me exactly what Shawn told me. I wish I had listened to her first. I told her that I know the truth and I feel like shit.
I went to the Kate’s room and I saw Emma sleeping in her lap and Kate was smiling at her and running her fingers at her hair. When Emma called Kate mama I was a little shocked but then I realized I don’t feel bad about it at all. And now looking at them also gives me satisfaction that Emma has a mother in the form of Kate
She looked at me and became tense.
I replied ‘ Are you OK?
she don’t say anything just nods
I replied ‘ let me put Emma in her bed’
Kate said she needs fresh air then she moved to the balcony till the time I put Emma in her bed.
And moved to the Kate room to talk to her.