KATE
I woke up when I felt lights coming from the open curtains. At first I was confused where the hell I was because this is not my apartment. when I tried to move my whole body was sore and then I realized I was with Alex…. shit…
I remember our night very clearly right now and I’m so scared of how I’m going to face him…. when I looked at him he was sleeping so peacefully and my heart burst with love when he said he just needed me so much and was attracted to me.
I don’t know how long I keep looking at him but I decided to move from the bed but Alex was suddenly awake by my movement, he looked so confused when he saw me naked with him, but then his expression change as he remember everything
He grabbed his hair ‘ WTF! Kate …. what the hell did you do this…. fuck (he stand and start moving left and right in his room)…. fucking tell me why the hell you didn’t stop me.
I was shell shocked what the hell he is talking about ‘ Alex listen to me for a moment. I told you last night that you will regret this. You were drunk i tried to stop you , I didn’t do anything we both did with our mutual consent ..
He stop me and said: just shut up …. you fucking know I was drunk and try to seduced me with your pretty dress so don’t play innocent you should have stop me but you seduced me ….. (he stop like something clicks him) It was deliberately done by you didn’t it … you were always attracted to me … and you were jealous that what Emily have you should always had that so try to make a move on me
His words were cutting me. He is right, it’s on me. How can I be so damn foolish… like he will trust me. Because my bloody past and my mother profession always put me in dismal and in blame.
I can feel myself shaking but knowing i need to get out but wanted to say my peace
‘ wait now Alex you’re just being cruel to me… I try to stop you .. I told you things will become strange between us but when you said you need me for one night I could not say no to you. ‘
Alex
When I looked at Kate crying heavily in defending her. self Her exposed body made me turn on so much.. that I became angry with myself that how can I be turned on by this so I take my anger on her.
I said in disgust’ you know what! our one night is over so better get lost from here. And don’t put all blame on me you’re more responsible here….. look at this room …. this was Emily’s room and this bed were we have sex last night was where Emily. and me used to have passionate nights not like our ones … so are you ready to face the shame what you did with your dead sister who always supported you and loved you more than your own father…. Now I think everyone was so right you’re just like your mother a fucking whore who trap rich people… so help me god and get the hell out of here ‘
I know what I said was so mean and cruel but I can’t stop myself. I was feeling so guilty about what I did and I took my anger out on her…. I looked at her in front of me and I saw a broken completely shaken women, who just can’t say anything
Kate slowly moved without making eye contact, picked her clothes and went to the wash room. She came back after a minute looking so miserable that I felt I should go give her a hug and apologize but I knew I wouldn’t do that … I can’t… may be she is like that what everyone says
She was limping and I realized then I was her first maybe that was too much for her. She stop in mid way and I said something which I shouldn’t but I have to make her understand that I’m not at all interested at her
I glared at her: Don’t you dare to tell anyone about this… unlike you I have some fucking respect in the society. And I don’t want you to flaunt our little nasty mistake to everyone’
When she turned and looked at me with her lifeless eyes that were filled with tears
She looked dead: Don’t worry … I won’t say a word but please… Alex… next time never like never bring my mother in our problem. And call me anything but not to my mother. You have no idea (she whipped her tears) Like no idea what was life before and after her.
And just like that she was gone.