Kate
(After two month)
I visit Emily’s grave and put some flowers in her grave…. I sit and remember our time together and what she will do If she was in my condition
I said ‘ hi Emily how are you… well I’m so sorry for being a horrible sister …. I have already apologized to you about what I did with Alex but now I think you will never forgive me for this … but I really want you to forgive me because you are the only one whose going to support me otherwise I cant live like this …. please Emily, forgive me and pray that today I can do something ‘
With that I left graveyard and drive to Alex mansion. I kept my promise to Alex that I won’t tell any one…. two month ago when Alex throw me outside his house … I feel so guilty that what I did with Emily… I made up mind that I won’t come back here but after few weeks I start missing Emma, so much that I know if I don’t meet her I will die… Alex’s mom told me that Emma. is also missing me and always asked about me… I decided I have to meet her…. so I asked Alex’s mom where is Alex? .. she told me that Alex is in the office and he usually come early in the night to spend some time with Emma. …. so I make sure to visit Emma at those days where Alex was not around…. I was thinking so much about Emma. that I forget that I have already reached Alex home.
Alex
‘Dadda! Dadda… horsey.. horsey….’ Emma said to me in her cute baby voice
I laughed picked her and said
‘you want me to become horse what about flying like superman….’
I pick Emma up so she can pretend to fly like superman and she start giggling that put a smile in my face.
Emma was the highlight of my days… she kept me so busy with herself that I forget about my worries ….
I said ‘ now its food time … so lets see what we have’
I start looking at fridge n found some rice and chicken … since Emma is taking hard meals so I decided it will looked good…
I put food in front of her and said eat , but my baby was distracted by the birds she saw in the kitchen window…
I said ‘ Emma baby eat ‘
Emma said ‘Dadda … birdie…(while eating her food and then she start bubbling about other things which I don’t get but then she says Kate name)
EMMA: aunt Katie …. Emma need aunt Katie dadda ..
Everyday Emma talks about take …. I know she meet Emma. when my I’m in office, she always cooked meals for us and always leaves when its my time to come home…. honestly speaking I feel like shit about what happen between us, but I tell myself that was important but I avoid her …. I never saw her after that night, also she has kept her promise about not telling anyone … but every night the flashes of Kate flushed body with her swell lips always came in my mind but when I saw my Emily’s picture in my bedside table I feel so guilty that I’m betraying her…
I was lost in my thoughts that I hear a bell ring since all the staff is working outside so went there to open the door when I did… I saw Kate standing nervously in my door
‘ Kate’ I don’t know what my tone was when I said her name but she flinched and looked me with her feared eyes
‘can.. I…. I come in please ‘ she said
I didn’t say anything and open the door for her to come in…
She looked so weak and fragile that first thought came into my mind was she sick…
She said ‘ I know you don’t want me here but I want.. want to talk to you about something’
I was still shocked she was here
I said ‘ OK … but Emma is in the kitchen after I put her for nap we will then’
After hearing Emma’s name her whole face lighten up and she started to walk towards kitchen when she stop and looked at me nervously
‘ if you don’t mind… can.. I meet her please’
They way she said it totally break me … clearly she miss Emma a lot, her love for Emma is quite evident
I said ‘ I don’t mind…. she was also talking about you’
She went directly to the kitchen
‘Emma!!! My beautiful baby girl…. I miss you so much ..
She picked Emma up kissing her faced
Emma was so excited to see take she started giggling, keep holding Kate’s neck and told her she miss her too
‘ Aunt Katie … Emma want no eat… Emma want dolly’
‘Aww my baby you eat then we will play with dolly OK I will feed you’.
Looking at both of them make me realize it should be Emily who should be feeding Emma not Kate it was a gut wrenching moment for me to look at them I felt so angry towards me and Kate .
Alex … Alex…’ Kate hesitantly said my name
I replied angrily ‘ what ‘
She flinched
‘your phone is ringing ‘
I looked at my cell it was from Dubai… a deal I was having now a days
Without saying anything I picked the call and went to the office.
When i came back after a 2 hours Kate was sitting alone in the living room looking at the wall a picture of my wedding day where Emily and I was standing in our wedding outfits …. I come towards her and sit on a sofa I looked at her ‘I’m sorry it was an important call… where’s Emma.?’ I said
She smiled ‘ After you left we started to playi with her dolly, then she was so tired , so I put her in her bed and stay with her until she was fully sleep….’
‘Thanks… you didn’t have to do that ‘ I said
She tiredly looked at me ‘Emma is very important to me I love her… that was nothing ‘
She looked very tired to me… she has black shadows under her eyes and looked very thin
I asked ‘ Are you sick… I mean you looked very tired and thin…’
She replied ‘I’m absolutely OK … look (she was very nervous about something) Alex I want to tell you something …. its about that night …
I stopped her ‘ Kate I don’t want to talk about that night …. it was a mistake a big mistake …. I told you very clearly I’m not interested in you I still love my wife … I know my way was very harsh and I’m sorry for that but that’s reality .’
Kate replied ‘ Alex I totally understand but I’m not here to talk about that night but what I’m going to tell you about something that is related to that night…. Alex … I’m … I don’t know how to say this ….. Alex I’m pregnant’
Fuck what the fuck she said totally blow my mind.
Kate
I looked at his expressionless face… I expected shocked , anger, any emotions that shows that my pregnancy news matter to him but he looked so dangerously calm
He said ‘congratulations then… so who is the father… or you just came here to help you to find him’
I was so hurt by his words that I can’t control my tears
I said ‘please don’t say this…. you very much know that you’re the father of this baby … so don’t cheapen this…. I know you’re shocked and this is why you are reacting this way but you are my first and after you I never slept with any one’
Alex replied ‘How can I believed you… who knows you slept with whom…. unfortunately for me I may be your first but I’m not will be your last … you can’t fucking trap me’ …..
I said ‘Alex believe me or not but this is your baby I’m carrying …. and I’m not trapping you…. you deserve to know this so that’s why I’m here, if you don’t believe me then we can have the DNA test’
He stop me said ‘ I don’t fucking care … I don’t want this damn baby I’m fucking serious about it….. Emma is the only child i have and no one will take her place’ he looked so dangerously angry that I was little afraid
‘Alex this baby is not going to take Emma place… because this baby will have his/her own place in your life … please think about it
He stop me and said ‘ I don’t want to think about it I already made up mind why the fuck are you doing this?… you are young, you, are unmarried, you don’t want to tie with a thing which will cause problems in your life’
I know where he was going but still I can’t believe he meant that
He sat beside me and said ..’look Kate … I can never accept this baby nor your family well its very important for you to not have this. think… you are jeopardizing your relationship with your family… so have an abortion … no one will know about this, I will make sure all the expense of hospital , doctors , your medicine will be paid by me…. I’m going to give you some money also … so this problem can be solved in split of a second’.
I was so fucking angry that how dare he…. how can he say something about ending our baby life also giving me money, he thinks I’m a whore …. I stood up immediately and just glare at him and said
‘Alex you know what fuck you and fuck your money …. what do you think of me I’m kind of some slut and greedy bitch who is going to end her baby life…. I’m going to have this baby with or without you…. so good bye’
I started to move but he hold my arm so roughly that I know it will leave marks
‘ if this is some kind of trap then let me tell you I’m not a man to play with… I will never accept this baby nor can you expect anything from me in return … I will make sure everyone knows it was you who seduced me and you the one responsible for this mess’
I said ‘ do whatever you want to do… is not like everyone is already favour me … so go ahead and put the blame on me but you also know what’s the truth’
I move to gallery where I saw Alex’s parents standing there, I don’t know for how long … Alex’s mother looks sympathetic to me and I know they heard everything …. Alex’s mom try to stop me, but I said not now and leave that place.