Jonathan stood gazing at the spot he had first tried to propose to Liza and what a horrible try it had been. Now the spot looked beautiful, as fairy lights hung on the tree lighting the space up. A small white table sat under the tree. It was covered with a white table cloth. A single rose stood in the clear glass vase which was placed in the middle of the table. He had brought Liza’s favorite pizza. Jonathan prayed for Liza to like it. He hoped that Liza had read his letter and had decided to give him a second chance.
He didn’t know what he would do if Liza rejected him. He loved her. He had loved her, ever since he had first seen her talking to Alice. She was beautiful, kind and way out of his league. He had never been good enough for her and he had proved it by cheating on her. It was wrong and dirty and even though the thing he had with Stacy had been going on only for 5-6 months, it had destroyed his 6 year old relationship. He wished he had never kissed Stacy. It killed him to wait for Liza. The watch on his hand ticked like a time bomb that he knew was bound to explode. He looked down at his watch, it read 7:00 pm. He perked up in anticipation. Liza would be here any minute now.
Liza stepped out of the car. “Call me when this is all over. I want to know everything.” Alex said, Liza nodded. “You know what you are doing, right?” Alex asked “Yeah, it is the best for me. I can’t be in pain anymore and resisting it will only increase pain and hurt.” Liza said. “Okay, I will see you when I see you” Alex said and hugged her before releasing her. Liza smiled and laced a kiss on his cheek “Thank you for supporting me” she said and left. The blinking light in the car read 7:15 pm.
Liza was never late. Jonathan was starting to get worried. Liza hadn’t showed up and an hour later Jonathan was getting restless. He abandoned the spot where he had set up the table and drove straight to the house. He entered the house, it was eerily silent. Jonathan had this gut feeling telling him that something big was about to happen, something that would change his life. He knocked on Liza’s room but he got no answer. He knocked again and the door opened. He went inside. The room was in perfect condition, with lingering fragrance of Liza’s perfume. Liza’s luggage was absent, he walked over and opened the cupboard, and it was empty. He closed his eyes and attempted to wake up from this nightmare.
“This cannot be happening, this cannot be happening” he chanted to himself. He opened his eyes, hoping that he would find himself back at park waiting for Liza. He felt his heart sink as he saw the empty room. He couldn’t believe that Liza had left him. He had imagined many possible outcomes of this evening but Liza leaving him, without a word was not one of them. He sat down, leaning his back against the wall. He felt numb. He couldn’t even feel the pain. Suddenly the brightly lit room felt darker and colder. He looked around the room, once again. Hoping to find something that would assure him that Liza was not really gone. There was nothing in the room to tell him otherwise.
He hated himself more than anything. He had driven Liza away. He had lost her forever. He didn’t know what he would do tomorrow. He had never felt more broken and alone. He sat there staring at the empty closet, with tears streaming down his face as the world faded away in front of his eyes.
Liza sat in her seat and buckled her seat belt as the pilot announced that they were about to take off. She looked out of the window. She took in a deep breath. She had made many happy memories in this city but she had also experienced pain. It hurt to leave Jonathan behind, to know that she will never see him again, never kiss him and never breathe in his comforting smell. He had been her home. She had loved him for so long that he had become one of her basic needs.
Even after his betrayal she had loved him and now letting him go was proving to be most difficult thing she ever had to do. But she had to do it. She became something she was not, a doormat. She had let him walk over her for too long. She loved him and knew that he loved her too, but sometimes love wasn’t enough to rebuild lost trust. She needed to leave Jonathan, to discover herself. She was strong, she knew it. She had spent too much time worrying that she won’t be enough for Jonathan and trying to be everything for him, now she needed to realize her own dreams. She needed to do this for herself. So, Liza took one last look at the city as the plane took off, leaving behind all the heartbreak, pain and Jonathan