It’s been 2 hours after I tried again to get something done and still has done nothing. I looked outside my window to notice the sun has gone down, I have spend the whole day in front of my drawing and I couldn’t even place a single line correctly. I looked at the clock to see its now 9 pm.
A knock was heard as Raven peeped through the door into my cabin.
“It’s time to leave. Everyone has left.” She said as she entered into my cabin.
“Everyone?” I asked.
“Except him. He has now returned to his workaholic state.” She said to which I nodded. Ofcourse he would. It seems I was in the way of his work.
I shook my head before I let myself go into unwanted thoughts. I began packing my things. I looked towards my drawings and decided to take it home as well. Maybe I could get it done at home.
I should get it done. For me to leave here as soon as possible.
“Come, let’s go.” I said after I had kept the drawings in. I stood up and together we left to go home.
It was the first time Raven accompanied me to the parking lot. Usually I left with Ryder. I don’t know how I feel about this new change. As much as I don’t want to delve into this. I know if I don’t arrange my thoughts I might suffer from something worse.
I have heard from my friends how repressing their thoughts have had effect on them. And as much as it is easy to give advice on to deal with our emotions right then and there, it is very difficult to do so when the time comes to. Hence becomes our natural defence mechanism to avoid it.
We walked towards where my car was. In between my thoughts I have forgotten to notice only three cars were left in the parking lot. And none of the cars were near to one another. Hers were all the way opposite to where mine was and it takes another 2 or 4 minutes to just reach hers.
“You didn’t have to walk me to my car when yours is no where near to mine.” I said while searching for the car keys in my bag.
“I know. I just wanted to talk. Didn’t know when was the right time.” She said nervously.
I chuckled. “There’s never a right time for sore subjects. How’s your relationship with Richard going?” I asked wanting to change the subject and was curious about them.
“Okay, I guess.” She said nervously.
“Okay… there’s more to it. Spill.” I said narrowing my eyes while leaning against the door of my car with keys on my hand.
“He asked me to be his girlfriend after our sixth date yesterday. And I said yes.” She said while searching for my emotions.
To say I was sad, would be the biggest understatement of the year. Yes, I was depressed hearing the news. When Ryder and I declared end to our relationship, another relationship had started. But, beyond me being extremely sad I was extremely overjoyed hearing her news. And I decided to focus on just that.
She finally got what she deserves. I squealed and jumped to hug her. I hugged her tightly putting in all my sadness and happiness. And she hugged me back tightly as well.
“Sorry for sharing this news now. It was definitely not the right time.” She said sadly.
“Hey..” I playfully slapped her shoulders to which she rubbed her shoulders. Okay that might have been stronger than I expected it to be. Wasn’t intentional at all. Okay saying that loud makes it worse.
“We are friends now and that means we share our highs and lows together. And there’s nothing right or wrong about it.” I said rubbing her shoulder as well. “Well if I said that I am happy right now that would be a lie because I am both happy and sad. Happy for you and sad for me.” I said and scrunched at how that sounded out. Sounded much better in my head.
She narrowed her eyes listening to my ramble to which I just shrugged sheepishly.
“I will be taking off then. But I am happy for you guys. You deserve this.” I placed my hand on her shoulder to which she just sighed deeply.
“I actually came to ask you whether you will like to join with me for dinner.” She asked unsure of my reaction. I just gave her a small smile.
“Maybe next time.” I said to which she nodded and understood that I didn’t want to talk about what all happened in 24 hours or more. Not sure. It definitely felt like more than a week has passed from the exhaustion I am feeling. Might be physically or mentally, I am not sure.
I am thankful I had friends who understood me without any judgements or tried to give unnecessary advices.
I gave her a nod as a sign for bye and got in the car.