But that was no choice to me, it seemed as though I was once more standing on that bridge. Life or death. I wanted to choose death, I would have rather fallen than betray either of them.
The tradition of the chosen did not seem to hinder me even after I met Lumina for I had thought I would never fall in love with her. Yet I did I was in love with her unconditionally, she stood first in line among my every other duty. *She was my priority in many ways.*
How could I touch another female other than Lumina? The image of it had me gag as it left a foul taste on my tongue. I was not that kind of a male, I promised to be loyal to her until the moon called for me.
I was lost for I did not know much of the laws of the tradition so I requested Ragon to aid me to attain loopholes or ways I can tiptoe around it without harming any wolf. It was a tradition that had run smoothly in our pack for generations with no Alpha ever going against it and I did not want to be the first to do so.
I wanted to find a way that could appease both the parties bound to the situation. I spent countless sleepless nights just to derive my answer but I was left with nothing and my excitement of our pup’s birth turned to disquietude. I was not doing splendidly in health either, my tension consumed my mind and I deteriorated.
I would often visit the healer demanding something to keep me awake during the freezing nights, something to keep my belly full for I stopped eating and was slowly dissolving but I persisted forward to bring light into my darkness.
The Alpha of the pack where the chosen was lurking in called me one night addressing how she caused difficulties there, she had begun whoring herself around seducing the mated males as though she had gone crazed.
Being unmated in a different pack than the one you were born in does that to you, I felt burdened even more I considered as though I was the reason that female’s life had become bland all because she was bred for my purpose. I decided to admit her back to live with my pack once again, she had family here it was my responsibility as her Alpha.
I was convinced Lumina would birth a male for never in our history was there a time an Alpha female birthed a firstborn female but there was still a sparse chance for that to happen. I was not willing to take a risk of losing my moon blessed or failing my pack.
I forged a solution that I would demonstrate to my pack with evidence that I had accumulated that I was a faithful Alpha who had evermore served the right path though I had an abundance of choices not to yet I did everything for them during my years of reign, that I purely existed for them.
And if Lumina were to birth a female I would labour for the pup’s rightful seat on the throne portraying to the pack my fairness. It was a gamble indeed but it was only a measure in the case that a female was to be born.
I did not wish to tell Lumina prior to the birth, I wanted her to be at peace when she birthed our pup and I was unsettled that she would leave me. I was going to explain it to her with time for my female was headstrong who did not have the habit of thinking twice, if she felt some action of mine was unjust she would not honour our bond anymore. I knew this and I was petrified of her.
Yet it was as though the moon guided her to me for as she kicked the door to my office open, her hauntingly wild eyes set on me with its accusations.*I knew that very second I was about to lose her.*
My being shuddered and tears welled in my eyes, each question she launched aggressively forward seeking the truth had my wrists shackled. I could not speak, her sudden confrontation had my soul quiver with anxiety.
Though she was about to give birth her cunt bleeding she stood tall amid her intolerable pain screeching to Elriam to get her females. I acknowledged the meaning of her actions and I knew she had forsaken me, she would not let me explain either. It felt as though her palms were squeezing my throat suffocating me to my death.
Her actions were ruthless as she made her females surround her bed and did not permit me to take a step forward. That was what I had longed for nine months to be able to witness the birth of my pup but she kept me away as though I had gone against her in every way.
She saw me as this atrocious being without honour when all I had done was to make sure she will not be harmed in any way. She was blinded by her rage as she barred me away from her soul, I was unable to make contact unable to plead with her.
My wolf rose with a retaliation, his lips pulled back to unveil his teeth at me. He had thought I was keeping him away from his female. What could I have done, covered the walls of the room with the blood of her females?
He cried and fussed as I stood still digging my nails into the flesh of my palms hoping that she would let me live. Trusting that she will believe me, take my side. I couldn’t attend the birth of my heir, her females blatantly defied me on her behalf prepared to attack me for her. It felt as though each of my nightmares snaked its murderous paws around my neck forcing me to bow to them.
When my pup tore out of its mother’s cunt wailing with life my eyes fluttered close with relief, our pup had made it out *alive*.