My mouth went wide as I realized he slapped me. My mate slapped me. My hand went up to cup my welting cheek and I looked up at him, the tears finally leaking from my eyes. His body loomed over mine, his eyes flickering from his lapis blue to a black.
“You don’t talk to your Alpha like that, you worthless weak runt,” he growled, turning and walking back into his office, slamming the door. Worthless…
He just- he just hit me.
My mouth was still open from the shock, and I sat there for a few moments before I made up my mind.
I don’t deserve this. I never did anything in life, I listened to everyone and did their bidding, so what could I have possibly done?
‘You cost the lives of people.’
I did.
‘You deserve to die.’
‘An eye for an eye.’
‘Put yourself out of your ‘misery’.’
‘Do us all a favor.’
Yes.
I choked on my sobs and quiveringly stood up. I walked as silently as I could downstairs and into the second kitchen, grabbing a steak knife and then walked back upstairs. No one saw. That had to be a sign from the Goddess herself.
I walked into my room, closing the bedroom door and locking it before I made my way into the bathroom door, and locked that as well. I filled the bathtub with lava water and waited for it to fill. I set the knife on the bathroom counter, and stripped down into my undergarments and looked down.
…”Look at those scars, Violet.”…
‘They’re ugly. Hideous. Appalling. Why would he want that?’
…”Worthless weak runt.”…
‘You’re disgusting.’
‘A hideous body.’
…”Why would I want you? You’re a damaged flower. You’re weak.”…
My body shook with sobs and I grabbed the knife and submerged myself into the liquid fire, tensing as it burned my skin.
…”You’ll never be anything to me.”…
‘You’re a waste.’
‘Horrid.’
I deserve this. I put everyone through so much.
…”Learn to fucking speak. Stop stuttering all the goddamn time.”…
‘A tramp that can’t even speak.’
‘Just die already.’
I positioned the knife at my left wrist, putting more pressure than I usually do, and bringing it down, tearing my skin as my blood poured out, dripping and staining the water.
…”I don’t want you.”…
‘No one would. Just look at yourself.’
Alpha Chris- who always claimed to be my mate, seemed to be a better mate than Derek. Alpha Chris never slept, played, teased, kissed, or did anything to another girl, only me. Even though I loathed every minute of it.
…”If not for my wolf, you wouldn’t even be here.”…
My mark started to burn. A small gasp left my lips as I moved to my other wrist, deeply slicing into it, hitting a bright blue vein. I ran it down a few more times and switched back to my other wrist, slitting more veins.
…”You will not be my packs Luna.”…
…”They are all women of power, and they mean something in life, and look at yourself.”…
…”Why would I fuck that?”…
‘You’re easy.’
The bathwater was a deep crimson, staining. I dropped the knife on the floor, blood splattering on the tiles. My mind spun and my eyes hazed. My head fell back in the tub, body sinking under the red hot water. Breathing became harder and harder.
…”You’re a fucking tramp!”…
‘Just stop breathing.’
‘Solve everyone’s problems.’
My head pounded with the lack of oxygen, but I couldn’t go back and push myself out of the water, my arms would snap. My chest felt like it was a towel begging wrung dry. Water filled my lungs, keeping me weighted under the bloodied bath.
“You really, really fucking irritate me.”
Light filled my shut eyes and the more and more numb I became, the more the whiteness came to me, enveloping me.
… Sage, I’m so sorry that you had to be paired with me. You deserve more…
My mouth gasped, bringing in all the water, drowning me. Then the calm red storm surrounding me was disrupted by something breaking the surface. Just as the plane was attacked, the light took me.
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