We arrived at my door. But I didn’t go in. He went to walk away but noticed I didn’t make an attempt to go in.
He huffed and walked over to me, glaring. He opened the door and pushed it a little. Still, no movement from me.
I couldn’t describe it, but I wanted to be with him at the moment. Despite his berating me moments ago, I wanted his presence.
It’s my wolf, not me. The mate bond, not me.
“Were you dropped on your head? Go.” He motioned, his voice full of irritation.
I winced but didn’t move.
‘What the fuck is wrong with you?’
‘Listen to your Alpha, you dipshit.’
My senses came back to me and my eyes bulged slightly when I realized what I was doing. Alpha Derek stalked towards me, in a threatening manner.
“You have the worst fucking respect.” He growled.
My submissive side kicked in.
“Y-yes A-alpha, I-I’m s-sorry…” I bowed my head to him.
He was inches away from touching me. He did it in an authoritative tone, to remind me who was in control.
“Flower, I’ll let you off. But by Goddess, you better knock some respect into that weak mind of yours or so help me, you’ll despise the outcome.” I quickly nodded my head at his threat.
“Now go and sleep, tomorrow Mallory will get you and take you to see a therapist.” He informed me.
“Y-yes A-alpha…” I mumbled
“Good girl.”
A sense of satisfaction washed over me at those words.
I did well. No beatings because I did well. I was a good girl.
But, I didn’t want to sleep, I wasn’t tired.
… I wasn’t tired…
Derek sighed out, he gave me a long look, and I turned to go in the room so he wouldn’t get angry. “Go put on some shoes, Flower.” I looked down at my socks, that felt so random.
I did as he asked, throwing on some canvas shoes and walked back to him, he was leaning against the wall. He held out his hand. I furrowed my eyebrows at him. He saw that I was hesitant.
“Come on,” he closed and opened his palm, and with much hesitation, I put my shaking hand in his. I was unbelievably nervous, and I didn’t even know what he was going to do. He turned to start walking, taking me with him, down the stairs and he neared the door and a wave of panic washed over me.
I stopped walking, slightly scared of what was happening. He turned back to look at me.
“It’s fine, Flower. Come on,” he tugged my hand as he opened the door and my eyes were greeted with the dark sky.
No, I didn’t like the dark. Alpha Chris would rape me in the middle of the night, sometimes when I could finally sleep. Traumatizing.
“I- uh, A-alpha,” I whispered and subconsciously squeezed his hand as my heart rate picked up. “I-I-”
He looked at me and then at the open door before back at me. “Are you scared of the dark, Flower?” He raised an eyebrow at me, his tone surprisingly soft, I was so used to his cold demeanor.
I felt my cheeks heat up and I moved my eyesight to my hand in his. I meekly nodded, ashamed about it.
“It’s okay, I’ll be with you.” He gave a small squeeze to my hand, it felt so sincere and my heart swelled. I swallowed and nodded and he started walking outside with me, holding my hand.
It wasn’t as dark as it seemed, with Sage’s presence, my senses were heightened. I could see the trees and the rocks. I was also checking every minute for signs of my tormentor.
“You said you couldn’t sleep,” he stated out of the blue, “sometimes when I’m not tired and I don’t have anything to do, I go on walks around the pack.”
I glanced up at him, warm that he was talking to me. I nodded, scared to talk because I didn’t want to sound weird.
“I-I c-cleaned when I-I c-couldn’ s-sleep in A-Alpha’s pack,” I added, my voice shaky. I heard him growl lowly and I swallowed.
“Is he the reason you don’t like the dark?” he asked, his voice snippy.
I silently nodded, blinking, my eyes feeling heavy.
“Did he hurt you at night?” I shivered, fear making a physical appearance. He took it as my answer and I knew that I wouldn’t have answered anyways. “Do you want to talk about it?”
I shook my head, my chest tightened.
“Let’s turn around at this tree.” I nodded along, feeling the pill take over me, I wanted to go to sleep, but I was scared. I didn’t want to see Alpha Chris in my nightmares.
Sage wanted to sleep with Derek, and a small, tiny part of me wanted to. His hand felt so nice in mine.
“I-I’m s-sorry,’ I whispered, drowsy as I saw the house through my tired vision.
He hummed in response, questioning me. “I’m s-sorry I-I didn’t g-go to b-bed.”
“Don’t worry about it, Violet. I was probably gonna go on a walk tonight anyways. Alpha duties require a lot of ‘inspections’ as some call them.”
I nodded but didn’t verbally respond because of how tired I felt, my eyes were burning. I bit back a yawn as my eyes watered.
“Tired?” he asked me lightly as he noted my walking slowing down as we walked up the steps and in the door. I nodded. “Words,” he added.
“Y-yes, A-alpha.”
“It’s okay, we’re almost there,” he took me up the stairs to go to the room. At one point he slipped his hand from mine and hovered over the small of my back. We got to my door and he looked down at my tired self.
“Goodnight, Violet,” he whispered softly and my brain tried to register that but it was so drowsy, it just wanted to sleep.
“G-goodnight, A-alpha,” he slowly put his hand on my cheek, his thumb lightly brushing.
He sighed out before he left and I went to the room, making my bed on the floor. I didn’t know if Alpha Derek knew that I slept on the floor, and truthfully I was a little scared to know.
I went to bed closer to five. My mind terrorized me with memories of Alpha Chris.